Reminder to self: Do not tell family anything. Not even siblings can be trusted anymore.

    Honestly...I thought I had a little spark of  hope left inside me, too. I think I still do. But I feel like those candles they put out on Halloween...ensconced in a little paper bag, kept safe from the wind... But now I have no bag, and any little breeze could kill me ( Read more... )

    Nothing to do. No one to go out with.

It's my favorite day of the year....my favorite holiday...and I'm at home with no one to be with and no one to go anywhere with.

I didn't think it would make me this sad...

"If I lie here,
 If I just lay here,
 Would you lie with me,
 And just forget the world?"

    Creation. It takes time to build something. Hours. Days. Weeks. Years. It is a process that involves a great deal of onesself, no matter on what level. And it's not just art or buildings... it's       relationships, too...To create, to make something...is a lengthy, and sometimes delicate process ( Read more... )

I know they say love hurts...but hurting your best friend is the worst feeling in the world.

If I go quiet for a while, guys, don't worry, I'm okay. I just need some time to heal.

I love you all. Please take care.

Part 1:

Well, I don't have to worry about "not having a heart anymore." It decided to start working again today. And doing something...I really don't want it to be doing. I really, really don't want to have a crush on someone right now. But I do...or at least I'm starting to. Goddamn fucking self zeroing in on someone like that....I thought I ( Read more... )

I'm back....and I don't waaaaaaaaanna beeeeee.

I miss New Orleans ;.;

Opening Credits: "Last Rose of Summer/Walking in The Air"- Celtic Woman Soundtrack ( Read more... )

It's five days until my trip.

My very first real vacation.

Sarah just sent me the schedule of events for it.

I looks wonderful.

Five days until my wonderful trip.

I have tried everything, and yet...

I am still deaf.

Now in both ears.

At this point I think I can only pray for a miracle.

I think I'm going to go cry some more.

    I didn't think I'd ever be jealous of my sister like these...but holy crap ( Read more... )