The only good thing i got from the x-mas was my old friend from high school taking me out to 'Fridays' and buying me a shit load of drinks and shots at the bar!:)
That was the only thing that made me actually smile.

'When in Rome we shall do as the Romans, When in Hell we do shots at the bar!'

I don't even know what can help now. I'm so fed up with everything. So tired of the bullshit I get, the bullshit my mind puts me through ( Read more... )

How is it that every night i always end up feeling un-wanted, un-loved, and not needed..

i wish you were here beside me.

i'm tired of this.

on another note - i hope i sell my car tomorrow.

i always feel like i'm alone in this. like the people that i need there the most, aren't.

i really think that i should just give up and realize that i AM alone.
goodnight.

being 21 has been going well. although, i do get weird looks from the cashiers, who are old black women, at farm fresh when i show them my I.D. they usually just spend 2 minutes looking at my I.D., then back at me, and so on. kinda funny actually ( Read more... )

I'm 21.
Time to drink! woo!:)

so i've got like 21 hours until i am 21, bitches ( Read more... )

drinking all weekend is fun. i need to do it all week..every night. perhaps with different people.
that might make me happy.

i have a feeling i'll be drinking alone a lot.
being alone is what i know..and i do it well.

i'll be 21 in 4 days.
money, cigarettes, and liqour are all welcome.
why, you ask. because they are the essentials of life.

sorry my text got to you 3 hours after i sent it.
i didn't mean to wake you up.