THE HIGH END OF LOW

Feb 05, 2009 12:04

so today i woke up just wanting to die.. im not sure why i think a lot of it has to do with the fact that i was actually bettering myself doinmg well an dmy gramma the woman who basically raised me and who i appreciate so much lost aith in me completely told me that me bettering muself is a bunch of bs that im like my mother and all these mean ( Read more... )

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I love you darling giselewannab February 6 2009, 06:10:00 UTC
I love you so so much, and I will always have faith in you, I will always be here to dry your tears until you don't need them dried anymore. I know you'll go far babe, I KNOW you will, and anyone who says otherwise is just plain stupid.

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Re: I love you darling merememories February 7 2009, 20:24:10 UTC
thanks i love you too

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Re: I love you darling giselewannab February 7 2009, 21:27:06 UTC
That reply sounds to me like you're still hurting, I wish there was something I could do, I know this is one of the times I can't cuddle it all away. I wish I could talk to her and convince her that you're just fine, and anything that you do now, is just a beer or a good 'ol drunken time, nothing big time. You're just experiencing the average and I mean AVERAGE, like small-time in comparison to the old days, party scene of a 22 year old. Now, I think I know what you may be thinking, me calling it small time might depress or offend you in some weird way, but it's all good babe, you're still alive and there IS a reason for it, no it's not to torture you or punish you for your attempt, by fooling you into thinking that you're still failing, these are just the times when you utilize your resources more often, like every time you start to feel something creep up on you, be more aware of yourself, practice mindfullness :) and whenever you don't notice it, calm yourself as soon as you do. Soothe your 5 senses, no, not like that, that ( ... )

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Re: I love you darling giselewannab February 7 2009, 21:32:49 UTC
OH, duh, Carol, and Amelia, and shit, I'm bad at this game of remembering things...but there's more people who love you, and I for one know all about quality vs. quantity babe, I joined that club 2 years ago, we even have jackets now!! So don't worry, we're here to help you 'til the cows come home...what a silly saying...

AND you should see Wristcutters: A love story, it's a pretty good, about a world where suicides go, just like the real world only there are no smiles, and it sucks worse. It's also really a love story, and it's lovely.

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