It would figure that I try so hard to make others happy but when i try to show my own emotions i get shot down ( Read more... )

I need something. And i don't know what it is ( Read more... )

I miss Sera. I haven't stopped thinking about her lately. I feel so guilty that i basically sent her away after all we had said to each other. I really hope she's just in another one of her no-internet times. I hope she comes back. Or responds to my emails. Or something. :-(

Ok so it doesn't look like i'm ending on a bad note all the time, i finally went out with some co-workers the other night (think it was friday night). But staying up late drinking and then having to get up for work in the morn and then having to get up REALLY early for work the next morn has left me a little exausted. But i did need that night, so ( Read more... )

Disappointment AGAIN. I'm less angry at peoples now as i am at fate itself. WTF?

I sometimes wonder why i put myself through so much abuse. It must say "sucker" all over my forhead because i keep coming back every time only to be shot down again. Today went from crappy to just complete shit. Lots of fun. Don't even feel like talking about it.

What a bizarre few days. First the dream about Meghan, then me actually talking with her. Then I met someone from highschool today. I'm feeling very strange. Like the moons are aligning or something. But what does it all mean? I dunno. I do wish Sera would come back though. I've been thinking about her again lately but still nothing. My ( Read more... )

Well a day or two late but mostly because I was diappointed. There were a whopping 3-4 people at my old store who recognized me (and me them) and it would seem thats all that are still working there. Most of the people I remember are gone now. It sucked too because I was supposed to be going to gaming afterwards so it left me in a wierd mood. I ( Read more... )

I woke up kinda sad this morning. I had a dream that i met Meghan (that would be the one i didn't date). She seemed kinda sad (which would definitely rub off on me knowing her). Mostly because she seemed to be down on her luck, though the only thing she actually told me was that she didn't have a job. Which of course I felt bad about. I think i ( Read more... )

Ok its official. I'm angry. Because i've never been angry 3 days in a row. Well mark the fucking calendar because i'm angry now ( Read more... )