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Hey!
So, stay single goal was a flop. I met Colby on March 17th, and we've just been together all the time since. I don't even know where to start, and it's only been a month. Except to say no judgement, please! Or you can judge if you want. But I'm super happy.
We met on both St. Patrick's Day and his birthday. His twenty-fifth birthday. (A reminder, I'm 31) It's definitely answered my question of if I want stability or passion. We both are crazy about each other, and I feel so much better already. It's really a terrible thing because I have met people whom are perfect on paper but I just felt something was missing. And then the people who maybe haven't been as accomplished or, I guess just really good people. Why can't we choose? All I know is that I can't.
So, I'm feeling way better lately. Still not 100%, or I don't feel like I'm down a percentage, but more have had a mood switch where the only way I can think to describe it is nihilistic (hence the username). I've been doing better for increasing amounts of time, but I'm at that point where I can't imagine ever being different. Luckily I know that this isn't true. That always helps with mental illness I find. I really get stuck on "this is how I'll feel forever" which just isn't true.
Back to Colby, one of the best things is that he cooks every meal. I cannot cook very well, and I tended to grab something premade at the grocery store or fast food like Tim's & Freshii - not the worst there is out of there, but not good for the wallet! Now that we have more of a routine, he's been cooking every single meal (& I'll do one randomly now and then). In fact, he is cooking right now. ^^
Okay, I'll stop gushing! I'm really burnt out at work, I'm just ready for summer. The weather's been gross lately so it might get better once the weather's nicer and we can take students outside more. But man, am I done.
My friend Krista and I are headed to my favourite little town, Nelson BC for my birthday weekend. That hopefully will help with the burn out a little. I can't wait, it will be a weekend filled with coffee, yoga, and wandering the city. Definitely needed.
Next week I'm also finally taking a yoga certification course! I have not been practicing regularly but I'm still excited. Hopefully doing it will jumpstart me back into yoga again. It's a course aimed specifically at teaching yoga to kids, so I'm hoping to use it at school.
We CANNOT find a drummer with one of my bands. We're still going to record but it's been terrible, just e dress auditions where people don't show up half the time, no show or aren't any good. Then a couple of times we've found someone that is talented and seems into it, we ask them to join and they say yes, and then a day or two later they decide they don't want to. It's making me prejudiced against drummers in thinking that they're unreliable.
This week is so busy and I feel like I already don't have the energy for it. Bit I have tonight off! So I'm going to try to enjoy. Time for dinner!