You know reading a comic sounds like a good idea. I know exactly how you feel about holding on to things. I'm the master of that. Just one more thing we have in common.
Well, I read the "Stranger in Paradise' that we got, when we went out. I loved it, I can't wait for the next one! I'm glad that I did, it put me in a good mood....
Yeah, I hold on to things and don't want to let go. I always realize when I have to but it doesn't make me stop thinking of it.
Grasping on to new things is good, holding on to the past is okay because it makes you realize what you had, but to feel decadent in it I don't know - its like thats all you ever lived for. That thought really depresses me. :( Uneasy smiles are awesome because when youre proven wrong for things you wish weren't true makes me feel good at least. When it comes to hoping your thoughts of negativity aren't true, its the nicest feeling in the world. I too in my shittiness have experienced it.
I'm impresed and thankful, you commented. Thank you for highlighting what good there was, that came from my post.
Yes, I want to smack myself, everytime I find myself clutching something I have already given up. Didn't do a good job. I keep confusing the beginning/middle, with the middle/end. Two very different places. Now, both will always stain each other for good or bad. Beginning/middle was amazing but now it seems sad and lonesome because of middle/end. Middle/end was horrible, horrifying and very abusive but will always make me think..."what happened to beginning/middle?"
Hey i save my smack for the poetry wars. :) I've just seen how the past has destroyed the ones that are close to me, how its wasted their time. How I had to try to force a friend out of his car after psychotic binging of alcohol, cocaine and who knows what because of the images of the one he loved in the past. How I've participated in the trashiness with him just to feel a sense of comraderie...I like to drink although I am trying to reduce it. I too have binged myself into oblivion over thoughts that were stupid and worthless. Sometimes I wonder to myself, why didnt I just go back to beginning/middle instead of forcing middle/end because it has brought me here now....sad and confused and drunk.
Yeah, I have seen what it does to others. I know when to get out. And normally do, but then I'm still sitting on my own, knowing it was the right thing to do. But still bottled with emotions that are not going to be sold off for good wine. It will be sour and there might be a mouse floating in it, or more likely a kitten. Yes, the cutting back of liquer sounds good. That's my plan. I wish I didn't think so much all the time. And I am terible at expressing what I mean. I've had complaints.
The poetry wars will be on soon. I needed a break from the computer this weekend...playing my video games is good.
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Yeah, I hold on to things and don't want to let go. I always realize when I have to but it doesn't make me stop thinking of it.
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Uneasy smiles are awesome because when youre proven wrong for things you wish weren't true makes me feel good at least.
When it comes to hoping your thoughts of negativity aren't true, its the nicest feeling in the world. I too in my shittiness have experienced it.
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Yes, I want to smack myself, everytime I find myself clutching something I have already given up. Didn't do a good job. I keep confusing the beginning/middle, with the middle/end. Two very different places. Now, both will always stain each other for good or bad. Beginning/middle was amazing but now it seems sad and lonesome because of middle/end. Middle/end was horrible, horrifying and very abusive but will always make me think..."what happened to beginning/middle?"
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I've just seen how the past has destroyed the ones that are close to me, how its wasted their time. How I had to try to force a friend out of his car after psychotic binging of alcohol, cocaine and who knows what because of the images of the one he loved in the past. How I've participated in the trashiness with him just to feel a sense of comraderie...I like to drink although I am trying to reduce it. I too have binged myself into oblivion over thoughts that were stupid and worthless. Sometimes I wonder to myself, why didnt I just go back to beginning/middle instead of forcing middle/end because it has brought me here now....sad and confused and drunk.
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Yes, the cutting back of liquer sounds good. That's my plan.
I wish I didn't think so much all the time. And I am terible at expressing what I mean. I've had complaints.
The poetry wars will be on soon. I needed a break from the computer this weekend...playing my video games is good.
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