Long introspective entry.....
Wow, draining day...I started out tired to begin with.
All day long, all I have wanted to do was sit down and cry.
God works in mysterious ways. I was reminded today of how much his will is beyond my comprehension, but so much better than I could ever imagine.
I had a talk with Steve(the technical director at the theatre, and my boss), and he told me he was impressed with how much I have changed since freshman year, and that I seem like an adult finally. Steve knows me pretty well. He's someone I go to when I am upset, or when I need advice, and his wisdom and insight is precious to me. He said specifically that most of the changes have come since Joe broke up with me. It was good to hear. It's amazing to think that it happened almost a year ago. I know I have changed a lot since then, and for the better, but it's nice to hear from someone I respect as much as I do Steve.
I am pretty happy with who I am today. Had someone asked me last spring if I thought the breakup would have been this good for me, I would have said they were crazy. Now I can't imagine still being with him. I have a sense of self that I haven't ever had. Not even when I was young. There was always someone I was trying to please, or something I was trying to hide from someone.
I don't take compliments well. Especially when I am really touched. I usually just start to cry, or brush them off with a lame joke.
It's funny how realizing how much stronger I am can make me feel so weak.
All day long, all I have wanted to do was sit down and cry.
God works in mysterious ways. I was reminded today of how much his will is beyond my comprehension, but so much better than I could ever imagine.
I had a talk with Steve(the technical director at the theatre, and my boss), and he told me he was impressed with how much I have changed since freshman year, and that I seem like an adult finally. Steve knows me pretty well. He's someone I go to when I am upset, or when I need advice, and his wisdom and insight is precious to me. He said specifically that most of the changes have come since Joe broke up with me. It was good to hear. It's amazing to think that it happened almost a year ago. I know I have changed a lot since then, and for the better, but it's nice to hear from someone I respect as much as I do Steve.
I am pretty happy with who I am today. Had someone asked me last spring if I thought the breakup would have been this good for me, I would have said they were crazy. Now I can't imagine still being with him. I have a sense of self that I haven't ever had. Not even when I was young. There was always someone I was trying to please, or something I was trying to hide from someone.
I don't take compliments well. Especially when I am really touched. I usually just start to cry, or brush them off with a lame joke.
It's funny how realizing how much stronger I am can make me feel so weak.