Comments | mertvie_tsveti: I am so full of hatred

mertvie_tsveti

I am so full of hatred

May 27, 2003 20:35

I was in such a lousy mood this morning. Nothing seemed to be going right at all. My hair looked like complete shit with its frizziness all over my face like a lion's mane; completely uncontrollable and horrible. My jeans were much tighter on me than they were maybe 2 weeks ago (I prefer to blame it on the washing machine although I know it's my ( Read more... )

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uthr May 27 2003, 22:01:22 UTC

I am so feeling you on this post.. Its as if you were somehow in my mind... I'm sorry and I wish nothing but the best for you.. And there is no shame in crying.

misslala May 27 2003, 23:00:42 UTC

you needs lots of hugs and even more hugs and then you need a good friend to hold you for a while and remind you that things work out eventualy I am living proof of that it seems...lol

I know how you are feeling tho. I gained over 100lbs after I started taking Depakote and I hated myself so much. I wish that those who felt this way could see how much of a good person they are. I wish I could take it all away sometimes. Mainly because I know how it feels. **hugs**

Re: mertvie_tsveti June 3 2003, 15:27:26 UTC

thank you...I would have lots of hugs too, if my best friend wasn't in Hungary =/

well my personality is not as well-defined for me to not care about the way I look. I have cared about my looks ever since I can remember and it's very hard not to because everyone puts such an emphasis on them. I hope one day that will all change and everyone can live worry free...

purple_in_va May 28 2003, 09:47:14 UTC

*hugs* I hate to see you like this. I know school is tough and the move is as well. But I know you can do it. I was soo proud of you when you enrolled in college....especially for pharamcutical I know that muct be tough. Just rememeber its one test and you will get it.
*HUGS* I wish i was able to be there to give you that friendly hug.

Re: mertvie_tsveti June 3 2003, 15:23:18 UTC

aww..thank you so much =) I really do wish we could have met sometime, maybe you'll move back to philly? ;->

Re: purple_in_va June 3 2003, 17:03:41 UTC

Well I dont know about moving back to Philly......but when I come to visit for a longer time I would love to get togethter..

lissyroo May 28 2003, 23:49:41 UTC

I know how you feel...when everything in your life is spiraling out of control. Going through an episode now myself.:(