Forever Your Eyes Will Hold The Memory

[merxdexnoms]

Who the hell am I trying to fake?

I'm obsessed. I'm insane. I'm fucking addicted to Devin.

I wish I could stop, I wish my longing would just end, I don't mean anything to him and I never will, I'm so sick of feeling so ignorned and worthless, it happens all the time..

I'm such a fucking drama queen, ugh

And As I Lay Dying is too loud for me to hear myself cry..

Nevermind, I don't know..
I always say I'm sick of falling in love, its all I know how to do

Why can't I be real

I'm so full of shit and misery

I'm never happy, never truely happy..
Only whenever I dream of him
But whats the use
Fantasy is never reality
And once fate realizes I've set my mind on a goal it'll use it against me, and hold me from doing what I've set myself to do

If I hadn't tried pill overdose before and didn't get so sick around pills, you can bet your life I'd be all over Aspirin right now.

But you all have to relax, 90% of everyone's emo entries on Livejournal are just to let out feelings..
We all know we probably have no idea what love is, we all have no reason to suicide :)

BUT WHEN WE'RE UPSET WE CANNOT CARE LESS AND WILL UPDATE UNTIL WE ARE CHEERFUL AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!