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I'm deeply saddened. I'm not sure whether I take things out of proportion because I'm overly sensitive about everything. Or I actually have valid reasons for the way I feel. It seems as though whenever I begin to display even the slightest bit of concern for those I consider "friends" they then refer to me as an annoying bitch and no longer want to spend time with me. I guess I'll just keep my mouth shut and try to not care about them anymore. Then when I try to communicate with those I am most fond of, especially the one I am affectionate with, I'm avoided. Sometimes I just want to do what they frown upon or completely abandon them to their own destructive delight. I wish desperately to change them into "better people." I suppose though that they already view themselves as the best their potential will ever make of them. Not all of them. Just most. There is one case I am more concerned for than any other, for I have laid claim to their case as my own. Why, I sometimes query, do I allow myself to become most angered with my case when I could simply dismiss it and be on with my life without fretting over his? The anser is simple yet dizzying beyond all that I know outside the technical world of logic. I'm unsure as to what actions I should take to help sway the situation into my favor. I become so torn internally that sometimes I am tempted to match this pain externally to myself. I wish this case would be easier to work with.
I love you caseY!!!