heartache

[mesiunu]

I can't sleep. As it get closer to Christmas, think more and more about momma, ans how she would be having me sort though through christmas decorations so they could be put up mid november. i can't even look at the christmass stuff in the stores. and on the same hand, i can't get away from it. its in every damn store, like a constant slap in

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[drewkitty]

*hugs*

It gets easier. I found out that my mom died from a phone call too.

Remember the good things. Keep a diary if it helps. *hugs* and hang in there.

[finnkveldulfr]

My mother died of cancer in 2008. More expected I think than your mother's passing, but still not at all easy to deal with. Her mother (my grandmother) made it to 97 years of age before passing away. My mom should not have died at age 65.

Still, been there... you have my sympathies.

[mesiunu]

momma was 54. we knew it was comming. she had called me a month prior, asking for forgiveness for being abusive and an alcoholic. of course i told he forgiveness wasn't need, but she had it. SHe overdosed on her blood pressure medication. the coroner said her heart stopp the moment she stood up from the couch, and was dead before she even started to fall. I knew it was comming and i thought i was preparred. but i wasnt. it feels, even now, 9 months later, like someone ripped open m chest and dropped the world out from under me. *hugs Fin*