stop this pain

[mestupdiflvr]

earlier tonight was the relay for life kick off party. the movie we watched was sad and i was thinking about it. and it makes me cry. i know i posted before about my grandma with cancer. but...this brings back all the memories. the sugar cookies, the spaghetti. actually seeing that side of the family, the lamb cake on easter, the little amount of

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[anonymous]

hello lisa.
very sad entry. and i'm sorry it all had to happen. you dont ever deserve to feel this way, but everyone does sometimes i suppose. just be proud that you can be so strong, your grandmother would have wanted it that way for sure. and it's good you're not forgetting her. stay strong, much love,
Dalia xoxo

oh wow this thing is asking me to confirm that i am a human...Please confirm you are a human below.

[lilpunkerstina]

I know how you feel. I never new my grandfathers, they died before i was born and I was never close to my gram on my moms side. My italian grandmaother, I called her nani lived in the apartment below us. We used to play bunco and cards all the time, she'd always make me my favorite dinners, and she always had the best snacks. She died when I was in fifth grade, so its been quite awhile. But I hate it that she wasn't there to see me graduate, grammer school and high school, to give me that disapproving look when I got my piercings and tattoos, to give zach a hard time like my dad did, to hang my drawings up on her walls...I miss her too

[munchkin4u02]

Hey you!
This entry made me cry:( But sometimes its good to cry and let it all out!!! And this cancer walk yer gonna do is gonna make you feel a lot better! I did it last year and seriously I felt sooo good about it. Its like were fighting cancer as were walking. And I know this is gonna sound a lil cheezy, but true, yer grandma is watching over you and looking down on you saying wow, ive got a great grand daughter!!! :)

I love ya lisa!!!
<3 Jessica