im havin one of those nights where i think about alotta crap ive done, should have done and wish id done differently tonight. its keeping me awake again. atleast i know what started it this time. my mom always jokes and says that i'll still be living at home when im 30. and shes joking but there is something behind it. i have accomplished nothing ( Read more... )

to be honest i only come here to write down my thoughts and vent. what i really want is someone who just listens. yesterday i was awake until 730 am. and not beucase i wanted to be. one of our cats decided to piss in my fucking bed, getting my freshly washed comfortor and nice crisp sheets wet and rancid smelling. normally id just be pissed ad ( Read more... )

well the thumbs alot better now but other aspects of life are not. i have alot of trouble sleeping and im smoking more and more each day. its killing me and i know it. i need to see a doctor about my sleeping problems which are also leading to mental problems, by that i mean cognative issues. its noting serious but it is effecting my life ( Read more... )

well i basically got fired from the job i got hurt at. it upsets me beucase i need that money, and ive waseted money traveling there to do what work i did. i also feel like i got fucked up for nothing. no profit, nothing finished to show for it. a stupid accident is costing me so much. im just a little pissed/upset about all this

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yea.. it hurts but atleast its still there

so today was bad, really bad. i woke up late, had to run outta the house to get to plainsboro to build a closet. i got there at 11 and realized i forgot real shoes and an extention cord. those were the first signs of bad things comming. at about 1230 i was using a circular saw to cut a peice of 3/4 mdf when the saw jammed up and kicked back. when ( Read more... )

so i just did something i honestly never thought i'd do. i deleted alot of my saved emails. some were receipts for things i bought years ago, others were pics people sent me, and most importantly i deleted all of the emails from sarah i still had, that my email hadnt deleted on its own. those things were something, one of the last things i had from ( Read more... )

life is weird, right now that is. im not sure whats really going on with me at the moment. but im pretty sure i have insomnia worse than ever. also i think that beucase of that ive been thinking alot and realzing that yea im pretty lonely right now. its not even that really, its that im thinking about my past and my future. im not sure where the ( Read more... )

ever have that feeling that you have no idea whats happening, going to happen, or what you want? its been on of those days, just kinda in a daze, trying to figure out what i really want/need in.life right now and for the future. its weird, thats all i'll say

dear god i want to go to asu, i want to find a place out there. hell i might just move out there and try to get in after cc there.

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