Boy do I feel sheepish. Baaaaah!

[metal_star_seed]

So I have a general apology to make to friends of mine who commented on my last journal post: rroselavy, yokokaru_chan, seshats_prodigy, akinarei, and elfinragdoll. I’m really embarrassed about how I treated you and other friends during that week. I know that everyone goes through times like that, but it still is no excuse for how I behaved, namely not responding to anyone. It’s a shame when I act like

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[metal_star_seed]

Thanks for the support though. I still like to respond as much as I can. Cause it lets people know I still care. *smiles* Hope all becomes lighter for you, my friend.

[akinarei]

Well of course I forgive you! XD.

Just update more so I don't have to poke you. =P

[metal_star_seed]

Hai hai hai... *waves hand* I know I'm bad about posting and updating and stuff. I admit it. *sighs* I'll try to do it more often. *plots some things on how to accomplish that* Thanks for the support and you take care yourself.

Oh and P.S. - Lil' Ms. No-Blending-Her-Eyeshadow can go run into a barn for being bitchy on you like that.

[akinarei]

*laughs* I SO agree. I was like, whoa, don't go postal on me now.

OO! Your icon is LOVE.

You! You take care too!

[metal_star_seed]

Seriously. I think you did fine.

"To often we loose sight of life’s simple pleasures. Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles to frown, BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and b*tch-slap that mother@#$& upside the head. Pass it on."

Thanks about the icon. Much fun is there.

[elfinragdoll]

Don't sweat the small stuff, hon. What matters to me is that you were able to actually gain something from what I said, that I was able to be of some use to you.

I never stopped caring about you, and I want to be sure that you know that. Even though I felt I was being a bit stern, maybe even cold, I don't regret saying what I did, because those are the same things that I needed to hear not too long ago. And it made me a better person.

All I want for you is to be happy, it's all I've ever wanted for you. I hope that through this it's the one thing that I've been able to convey.

[metal_star_seed]

Well I know that I haven't responded to your email and all. Mostly because I've been going through plenty of RL stuff and, as you perceived; I don't like to talk to people about my problems. But just know that I'm not going to stop caring about you as a friend, even if we don't talk on a regular basis. You're still very important to me and even if I get mad and say things in anger or despondency, much of the time, the words I say while in that mood are more or less only emotions speaking in the forefront and do not reflect on how I truly feel

[elfinragdoll]

I understand how emotions can take control and dictate what you say to others sometimes. The fact that you weren't replying to my emails didn't really anger me, it just worried me, (and stung a little, but that's part of my own needy insecurities, which you understand by experience.) It still amazes me that you find me strong, and in truth, your acknowledgement helps to keep me that way.

I also understand your fear of completely letting go of your past, because our past makes us who we are, and to disregard it is to lose touch with ourselves. It exists behind us to help us better deal with what's ahead of us. We have to work to maintain the balace between not losing ourselves in either past or future, and learning to progress through both.

I would say there's nothing to forgive, but I don't entirely agree with that, and I hope you don't find me crass or difficult for it. It's not an apology I want for myself, though. I want it to be you forgiving yourself, and knowing that this is a good opportunity for you to gain higher

[metal_star_seed]

Well to be honest, my life is really sporadic and stuff, and though I can rapid fire chat with people doing RPs and stuff easy, when it comes to writing something long, I can’t do that as often because I need a section of time that is quite, unstressed, unbroken, and has to occur while I’m in the mood to actually write something like that, else you get a half-hearted, dying-fish-flop of a letter, and I really don’t want to do that to you. At the same time, yes it is rude of me to do that, but the truth is that is the reason for the delay and unfortunately, I can’t really make my brain work otherwise, even though I try. *gets out brain and a bat* But never seems to get the effect I want… >.> I’m stumped as to why. So yeah. I still have the email all saved and stuff. I just need to get all nine planets to align perfectly so that I can write a response to it

[seshats_prodigy]

**snuggle**

No worries, my friend. As I told you before, I understand that things weren't all that wonderful that week, you weren't in a good place at the time, and I didn't take it personally. So yeah, nothing to forgive.

I'm just glad to hear you're feeling a bit better now.

[metal_star_seed]

*huggles* Thank you though. I am feeling better and I'm sure you've seen results of that. *smiles* Thanks for not giving up on me, even when I'm a bitch. (Yes guys can be bitches too XD) You're an awesome friend. See ya round!