Well as usual it has been a rather long time since I last updated, well I can't really be bothered checking how long, I just figure it has been a long time, Anyways maybe I should start now then
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Well a lot better, because its just the sort of mentality I have, I don't like people to interfere in my life or just ask me questions about it, its from the way i was brought up. I feel safe if no one really knows me, If it was my kid, It would be different as its a new person, and it would be me looking after it and raising it, its more me get involved in its life than it in mine.
good point, well it may hate me, but i know the reasons why i didnt like people getting to know me, mainly cause of the people that came to our house, what my dad did to make money, and the fact that i have moved about the same number of times I have as an age. So I'd make friends, move, loose them, do it again every year. When i moved to cleckheaton I swore not to make friends. The ones i have are because they started it not me, Im not a very sociable person now. Its hard.
I think parents are like that because, you're the world to them. Well, I am to my parents anyway, I'm an only child. I have a great relationship with my parents, and I suppose it's because of our interaction. We don't go out together or anything.. but we talk a lot. And argue a hell of a lot too. Me and my dad don't talk, but he's just quiet. I don't really like being with my family either. The only thing in common between me and them, is just our 'blood'. Nothing else. I don't like spending time with them either. It's just so odd.. theres nothing we can talk about, without them half-assing it to seem like they care [e.g. your guitar example], or with me faking my interest.
And about protecting your kids.. I feel the same way, there's a lot I wouldn't want to expose my kids to, but meh, if I hate being restraint by my parents then so will my kids.. what a tough situation. Thankfully though, I can't have kids either way, and adopting takes a lot of thinking, so I'll have time to think then.
I dunno, I just dont think I would be a good father, its just having someone completely dependant upon you. Its a hard concept to swallow. I know technically there would be the mother of the child there as well but in my mind for some reason she is none existant. I dunno, maybe its because I haven't found the "one" or something like that.
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also, what are you going to be like a father? just a thought....
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p.s why aren't we doing this over msn?
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Well, I am to my parents anyway, I'm an only child.
I have a great relationship with my parents, and I suppose it's because of our interaction. We don't go out together or anything.. but we talk a lot. And argue a hell of a lot too.
Me and my dad don't talk, but he's just quiet.
I don't really like being with my family either. The only thing in common between me and them, is just our 'blood'. Nothing else. I don't like spending time with them either. It's just so odd.. theres nothing we can talk about, without them half-assing it to seem like they care [e.g. your guitar example], or with me faking my interest.
And about protecting your kids.. I feel the same way, there's a lot I wouldn't want to expose my kids to, but meh, if I hate being restraint by my parents then so will my kids.. what a tough situation. Thankfully though, I can't have kids either way, and adopting takes a lot of thinking, so I'll have time to think then.
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I know technically there would be the mother of the child there as well but in my mind for some reason she is none existant. I dunno, maybe its because I haven't found the "one" or something like that.
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Go dance and listen to Judas Priest, my child.
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