at this point im just lazy. i have car parts, i have a number of a man. and i just have my car sitting in my driveway. i need to clean out all my clothes and art porjects and quite possible food scraps.  the fact that i haven't had sleeping meds since wednesday night is catching up to me.  i'm really tired and i feel most people that talk to me are ( Read more... )

well things really are not in my favor right now.  this always happens to me.  things will be great for a month or two then l just get blindsided by life ( Read more... )

i'm in a good mood. i mean i crashed my car and now have to find rides to school and new parts for my car and all but i'm in a good mood.  im surprised at how well i'm dealing with it. i now have no money and doubt my euro trip is going to happen but right now i really don't car. friday i don't have any classes and the all nighter is at the ( Read more... )

today i bought a shirt that looks amazing and is so comfy. my new piercing is doing well. its a little red but feels fine. tomorrow i'm getting a lot of new stuff from my work because i can't stop buying cute bras and underwear. but kyle doesn't mind it. and i'm bringing liz to nashua to see her boyfriend and so she'll get my stuff so i can ring in ( Read more... )

yeah so apparently i like going to places i've never been and getting blacked out drunk off peppermint schnapps with boys i don't know when i have work at 10 the next morning.

ever think.."wow i wish things were good like they use to be..." then you realize nothing was ever good for you ( Read more... )

life honestly isn't fair ( Read more... )

a night without medication is a night of real feeling.  not sleeping.  thinking.  the next morning not being able to tell dream from reality.  sort of miss it.  i miss being crazy.  everything was much more fun.  imagine me being crazy with creative self medicating.  feeling everything but being numb at the same time.  i think it all but am ( Read more... )

i really stressed out lately.  i don't want to go to college. and have a job.  i have to do this job otherwise i have to pay for college.  i drove all the way to school yesterday to get my books (for free) but know the bookstore closed at 3 there only open till 6 pretty much every other day.  lame. for the first time in about a year i took both ( Read more... )

i have omitted some of the shit in my life this summer and it honestly feels good. i feel so much better.  i don't deal with my sister that much anymore.  she's in nashua all the time with her children and what not.  i don't stay home all the time anymore.  i don't put myself through dealing with shitty friends that only think of themselves.  i ( Read more... )