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[metatronis]

Hello! Hope everyone's doing well. I know the past month has been particularly difficult for a lot of people. I hope that things are starting to look up, or that they will soon

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[ahmerst]

I hope I'm not out of line when I say I'm glad you got help. I always read your posts and have seen you mention your depression before, but every time I've gone to comment I get all awkward and floundery and don't know what to say.

Finding a good therapist is totally key. Anyone who's gone to them can tell you the string of terrible ones that had to go through before finding the one right for them.

It's great that you've found someone who can help explain why you're you, and hopefully help you better understand who you are as a person (you are a beautiful person, for real). Take things one step at a time, and know you can do it.

[metatronis]

I know how you feel. I always feel like I'm either gonna say something really stupid or inadvertently offensive or whatever. I always appreciate your comments, though!

That's one of the reasons I was wary to start in the first place. I did have therapists when I was a child, so I know what it's like to go through ineffective ones. I'm actually seeing my mom's old therapist, and it does seem to be working out well so far. I guess that's the good thing about coming from a family of crazies, they've road-tested plenty of professionals for you.

Thank you so much. It makes it so much better to know there are people who care. I am trying to take baby steps, and I think once I gain some confidence it'll get easier.

[grrgoyl]

My little sister saw a therapist for a couple of years because of her huge issues with our mother, and she was helped greatly (even found the strength to write her feelings out in a letter to her, expressing a hope to have a closer relationship. Sadly my mother ignored it). I remember her telling me everyone should see a therapist, even if they didn't think they needed to. I'm glad you're getting help. I never knew you were depressed, but I guess I'm not really that close to you. :(

[metatronis]

Yeah, it's really helpful. My mom's been trying to get me to go since I started college. I knew I needed to, but I was also scared that once I started pulling at that thread, it would all get even messier, if that makes sense. But yes, I think most people could benefit from it, making little improvements that affect their quality of life in general.

Aw, that's okay. Turns out being depressed and being withdrawn kind of go hand in hand. Who would have guessed??
I have a hard time being emotionally open with my closest friends. Even my family. So, hopefully I'll be able to work on that too.