▌eight. [voice; japanese]

[metatronius]

It's not real. It's just another dream.

I'm... tired of dreaming. I'm tired of it. If I didn't dream. If I didn't "live"... It would be easier.

[Aigis' breath shudders slightly. What was she saying?]

Minato-san...

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[stfu_desmond]

A lot of people are feeling this way right now, but you shouldn't feel that way about it... [ It's sad to hear someone thinking like that. ]

[metatronius]

I'm sorry...

[stfu_desmond]

Things can be tough, you just have to be tougher and work through them. Right? [ She smiles, trying to comfort. ]

[metatronius]

... [Aigis isn't really sure what to say. She tried so hard to endure after his death, but...]

[coupdejarnac]

...tired of dreaming? [ Perhaps he has found a kindred spirit? ]

I, too, would like my dreams to cease and thought as well that if I did not live...

But it has proven to be folly.

You should not think in such a manner, even if you feel it easier that way, I am hear to tell you that it is not.

[metatronius]

[Perhaps!]

But I... It would be easier. I've had enough of "living".

[coupdejarnac]

I had similar thoughts. However my attempt to end my "living" simply brought me here, as such, I do not believe there is much point in thinking such things anymore.

I have been told that to cease to be here does not accomplish much, as it were. Perhaps instead, put your pain to use to you. Many beautiful things have come from a sole person's sorrow.

[metatronius]

What could come from my loss? Will I see the one I care for in dreams alone? [She sighs, frustrated.] I don't want to keep dreaming...

[fierybluebird]

Not necessarily.

[metatronius]

It would be...

[fierybluebird]

Have you ever been dead to know for sure?

[metatronius]

Not necessarily "dead", but...

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[prodigal_axe]

Aigis...

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[metatronius]

It's painful, Shinjiro-san.

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[prodigal_axe]

I know, but...

Wishing it away isn't gonna help. Life ain't easy, but there's things worth having in it.

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[metatronius]

I'm just a machine. My purpose was supposed to end with the mission. I wasn't meant to "live".

But now that I have, everything is too painful. If I could simply go back...

[subject_17]

I'd drink to that. You gonna be alright...?

[metatronius]

Oh, Desmond-san. I don't know honestly...

o-orz I'm so sorry, holidays killed me. ><

[subject_17]

Anything I can do to help?