'cause we'll hold each other soon

Oct 20, 2012 14:01

Louis/Harry, pg? pg13?
warnings: terminal illness, character deaths, suicide
Title, cut text, and anything in italics is from I Will Follow You Into the Dark, by Death Cab for Cutie. Not mine, don't sue me.

louis thinks in feelings, sounds, smells.
the weight of “terminal”, life-changing words from a lifeless robot, a white-coated drone unaware of what he's inflicting.

the rattle of harry's breathing, the way he gasps like he's underwater, like the tumors are physically suffocating.

the edge of the hospital soap, the invading permeating sharpness that clings to his clothes, reminding him of what has become even when he's not there.

love of mine some day you will die
but i'll be close behind

he feels the desperation, the fear in the tightness of harry's grasp, the wild panic and total helplessness when he grips louis' hand.

he sees weariness in the set of his shoulders after an exhausting session, the way harry sleeps more than ever, talks less than usual, and eats close to nothing.

he reads despair in harry's shaven head, in the soft fuzz that grows while the rest of harry dies.

if Heaven and Hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

he sees the fatigue over taking harry

he sees him fading

he sees the relief in his eyes as he fades, leaving his hand in louis' but taking something far bigger, far greater

he slips into the bathroom, sees the bottle

if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks

pours out a shaky handful

then I will follow you into the dark

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