Home?

[mexibear]

I'm at my local library, using the internet. I didn't feel much different waking up today, in fact I've had a cold for almost two weeks and today I actually felt better. But now, sitting here and reading my LJ friend's list, and my Facebook, I was suddenly overcome with a really gross, disgusting feeling:

No matter what, I will never truly belong

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[postbox]

move to a CITY.

[ramseysux]

that's my suggestion actually. in small towns anywhere you'll encounter a rich community that has been developing for a very long time. that's a really nice thing if you can embrace it.

but if you move to a city, one of the first things people will ask you when you meet them is 'so, where are you from?' it's assumed that you're a transplant, just like everyone else. you wouldn't have to fight to feel like you've been there just as long as everyone else.

[heatherica]

I was going to suggest this as well! I'd love to move to a city myself. Maybe someday.. (hopefully soon!)

[postbox]

"but if you move to a city, one of the first things people will ask you when you meet them is 'so, where are you from?' it's assumed that you're a transplant, just like everyone else."

Yes!!! My thoughts exactly!

[daisygrl]

You may never really get that. Some people are like that and I usually really like those people. :-) I have never really fit in in a group either. I am always on the periphery. Like I might be close to some people in the group, but one on one, as a group it doesn't work. I am often not that interested in what they do as a whole or I just don't fit in.

The very little I know about you, though, makes me think you will find it. Maybe moving to a city like your friend said. The closest thing to "my kind of people" is my boyfriend (who also was never one of those people) and my family.

I always wish I had that group of friends thing. That tribe feeling. But, it has never happened and when it did (like I feel it kind of with zine people) it was limited. I think I am just not enough of a joiner. I like spending time alone and I have strong ideas of what I want to do with me time.....anyway...this was about you. :-)

[messycarla]

i feel exactly the same as you :) xxxxxx

[mexibear]

It makes me sad too. I'm sorry, I've just been feeling lame lately and I didn't want to infect you with my lame virus.

I get the feeling from some people around here that they really feel like they belong.

It's just belonging envy that's all.

[peachpearyum]

I didn't know anyone when I met you. Can I be a bee girl too?

[mexibear]

Done and done. That'd make a really funny picture, me and you wearing bee girl outfits with tu-tus.

[eightheadedboy]

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