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[mexican_ubanged]

We've decided were going to put the baby up for adoption. While everyone else in the fucking world is having a wonderful fucking life, Im not. I have no reason to be happy about this baby. Because everything that involves this kid is fucked up. Some people might think its too fucking late to be saying this shit now, but its not. It fucking sucks

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[onyrsleeve]

This made me cry.
You have no reason to be jealous of anybody.
You can do anything in this world if you put your mind to it.
Martin, you knowyou are not supposed to give this baby up.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, and fight for what you want.
I know that sounds sort of insensitive, and i'm sorry if you are offended.
But seriously, get out there and research some stuff.
Have you looked for a place in three garden village down in old dundalk?
Those places are cheap.
and you could always apply for WIC.
Jeremy had it when it was younger.
They paid for all his formula, and they gave us milk, juice, eggs, cheese and all kinds of great stuff!
Or (i know you love ana and all ... but) what about just you and the baby living at home until you can afford something better?
There are always other options.
You deserve the happiness this baby will bring you.
Don't give up so easily.

[lickxorxish]

I agree, Martin. As shitty as you feel now, imagine how you'll feel if you actually do give up your first child.

Either way, I know you've had to have thought about this alot, so whatever you decide, you know your friends will be there for you. Any decidsion you make, I'll support you, because you know whats best for you.

I love you, kid.

[metal_wounds]

I can't begin to imagine how you feel.

But know that you're not alone in being miserable.

I'm here for ya bro, and I ain't goin nowheres.

[mexican_ubanged]

If living at home was an option, i wouldnt feel so shitty. My dad could care less what ends up. Trust me.

[onyrsleeve]

well excuse me for trying to give you some advice!
i didn't know. i wasn't sure if your dad and stepmom just didn't want ana in the house .. or if that included the baby as well.

[mexican_ubanged]

i wasnt being ignorant am, i was jsut stating what you probably didnt know.

[onyrsleeve]

i know. and i didn't meant to sound like to thought you were. let me ask you a question, if you don't mind. what about going to FL (thats where she is at right?)?

[mexican_ubanged]

Cant go. They live in one of those "highway area" apartment communities, where if you want to get anywhere you need to drive or know someone that does. So finding a job down there would be really difficult. Atleast here, i have a job, and dont have to worry about not having any money at all.

[goothcore]

yeah dude like amber said, they got places like where james lives that are only like 500 or it might be less a month for a nice one bedroom but that would be all you need for your girl and kid. as long as you both got your jobs, it shouldnt be as hard as you think. look at me, i was HORRIFIED about the baby i got now cuz i was afraid i wasnt gonna have enough money or anything but all you need is love for the kid. and i respect you more than probably any person i know man, you go through so much and you still manage to keep it together. you're one of the only friends that wants to do all these good things and keeps their head on straight. i got much faith in you man and i really feel you can do this. me and grace applied for medical assistance for the baby and wic and there hasnt been any problems yet. if i can handle this with a smile, you can. you would make an amazing father man and i know you want this so go all the way for it. and yeah, the baby will change your life. mines only a week old and it already changed mine, i fucking

[onyrsleeve]

Congrats on your daughter. You should post pictures somewhere so I can see her. I'd really like to.