sandra cisnero wrote a book called carmelo...it's a beautiful book. And one quote stuck out to me: "she suffered only the way mexican women can suffer, because she loved only the way mexicans can love"...sigh. This just meant that we tend to love even when it hurts, even when we know it's wrong. I look at my mother's relationships and know that ( Read more... )

About ten years ago, I:
1. didn't celebrate my birthday...it was the start of a trend

2.walked on eggshells.
3.lived in a very simple place.

About five years ago, I:
1.wondered why no guy liked me.
2.tried too hard
3. could have stood to lose about 15 lbs

One year ago, I:
1. was contemplating whether I would drink or not now that I came here
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  ok guys it's starting
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    Things are weird
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So today was better than yesterday...but that's to be expected b/c it couldn't have sucked more than yesterday.  I sort of better...I didn't cry today! But then again, I haven't seen him yet so I don't know how I will respond to seeing him.  I don't know...I've thought about it and I'm kind of glad that we broke up b/c I had to be honest with ( Read more... )

they said I would have a stellar day. bullshit. Thomas and I just broke up. He finally came here to talk and it just came out, that he didn't think this was working. And after hearing what he said I agreed. I mean he made complete sense. He said that we don't spend that much time together outside of us "being" together and that he didn't want ( Read more... )

my stomach is in a huge knot. Thomas just IMed and said that tomorrow he wanted to talk in person...I was like is it something serious and he was like yes and then I asked if he was mad and he said no...but he had to do homework...so I have no clue what this could be about. I don't think I did anything. The only thing he could be upset about is ( Read more... )

     Because I actually did ALL my homework
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Omg, last night was more arguing...lol it's getting rediculous. Ok, so the party was good. I had a good time until the last half hour...why? b/c thomas spent the last half hour dancing with his ex g/f. When he really didn't pay that much attention to me...I mean people were coming up to me and were like, that's bogus...um yeah. I was SO SHITTY. ( Read more... )