So i have finally come to terms with the fact that my brain is completely wild and nuts. It took me a long time but now i know the things i do and how i react and the way i handle things are a part of who i am and i shouldn't feel ashamed for them. not that i do but i do feel like an idiot sometimes. I just want to be able to admit things to ( Read more... )

its one of those nights where all i want to do is fill my car with everything i own and drive and drive until i get to somewhere far far far away and start. everything. all over. allll over and do everything the way i want it to be. id be able to begin living because im sure as well as news can be transferred so quickly from the crime scene to ( Read more... )

So I meet this boy. We hang out all winter, spring and summer and then he (lead me in trail of lies and deceitfulness, ultimately leading to our failure as friends.)
what cool about all this is:

i.o.n.
im getting so restless

I Dont want to plan anything out anymore. Im tired of waiting waiting waiting waiting my time for that is over.

im movving up in the world i cant believe i can even type in this crazyfcukign jourlnla
i shouldnt even be typing this rightnow i cant even sleeep andits 437am and i have to work soon i cant

bluntahh

Yesterday I was lucky enough to walk through my living room 4 times while Timmy and Tammy were shooting up. This is the life I have always dreamed of.

Please get me out of this house, Pasadena, Maryland. etc.

I know I did it, it just doens't feel like it tonight. I'm starting to pick favorites myself. Atleast I'm happy either way. No.

sometimes i wish i had more, i need new acquaintances.

Everyones always paired off except for me.

My body hurts really bad.
I'm not going to school tomorrow.

I have so many lanyards its redic. I make alot of plans and they fall through. Somethings wrong with my head. Last night I saw alot of people I haven't seen and I wanted to talk to them and hang out etc...but I couldn't hold a conversation for the life of me. Like I took anti-conversation pills. I felt so dumb, everytime I'd start to talk to ( Read more... )