Tonight is one of my good nights and I'm so thankful. I hate my bad nights and they've been more frequent lately too. I don't really care all that much at this point in time because I'm enjoying my good night, last night I had a good night too. Random I know, but I don't care ( Read more... )

Guess what I messed up again. I don't know what's wrong with me. There's a guy I like at school. I don't really know him all that well, but he certainly strikes my interest. Well anyways I called him on Wednesday and told him I liked him. HUGE mistake! I know little about him and hwe knows little about me. Well it kind of spooked him I guess now he ( Read more... )

Today Liz and I went for a walk. We haven't gone on a walk in so long. It was so nice. The walks really help me feel better ( Read more... )

Today I realized that although I'm surrounded by plenty of loving friends I rely on imaginary ones instead. Today for example I was walking down Pippin I came upon Kittery and the idea of going down Kittery and turning onto Durham to stop by and say 'Hi' to Liz popped into my head. I didn't turn onto Kittery though instead I continued going down ( Read more... )

Today was Siena's lazy day. I slept in until 11:30 and all i did was read my book, play sims 2, and ate. that's it, all day. i also stayed in my pj's which were my eeyore pj bottoms and my survivor buff. yes i know OMG Siena owns a survivor buff. it's from the first or second season so it's hecka old. right now i'm sitting here with uniq. that's ( Read more... )

I'm so proud of myself this morning I got up and went running then I did crunchies and push-ups. Yay! I'm hella tired now but I refuse to quit. Tomorrow I think I'll get up and walk, do crunchies,and push-ups. Yes. Later today i'm going to my grandma's house to go swimming with my sisters and Diana. Also if I'm not too tired I'll have John Loy come ( Read more... )

okay so I watched the season finale of the OC. It was very good but it left with mixed emotions. I don't even really know what the emotions are. Fear, pain, lost, lonely, emptiness, I don't know. I'm scared. My disney icons aren't even cheering me up. Of course I've been having very weird mood swings this whole week which I entirely blame the ( Read more... )

Okay so I miss him. I admit it! I miss him! I wish I didn't. I wish this loneliness I feel inside, the need to see him again, to touch him agian would just go away! It's like a slow and painful death that doesn't end until you meet someone else who takes that pain away. Why does there have to be a someone else? What if I want to be single ( Read more... )

Okay so today I told Bernie that I'm quitting. She was very nice about it and said that if I wanted to come back a year from now she'd take me back, so that's cool. I don't think I'll be going back unless I become really desperate. I rather try working at Jamba Juice or Starbucks or Target. Somewhere different. Maybe even somewhere where there ( Read more... )

I thought this totally fit me.