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[miakaxevolved]

All things considered, I'm a reasonably fortunate person. The people around me allow me to unload my burdens to them without trying to fix me (an impossibility anyway!) and without judging me. I probably talk to my brother-in-law Charles the most. I know it's hard for him to hear about my life. I see the horror on his face sometimes, even though he

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[rychek]

I like your icon, its very pretty. As for your question in the end... I wish I could give you a definitive answer, all I can say is there are always going to be scars from any abuse. Whether seen or unseen you'll always feel them echo into your future choices.

In your scenario I cannot fathom you being able to trust men again, but you seem to have made incredible progress towards being not only reconciled with your past but free of it.

To answer your question with my situation, it is never too late to learn how to live again, but my rather self inflicted past will not let me be the carefree person that I see other people being... Maybe you're different (:

Like I said before, there is no such thing as normal.

[miakaxevolved]

Speaking of icons, I remembered I have one of me with a shaved head! Having a shaved head was such a unique experience. I loved it. I'm really happy to have long hair again though.

Strangely enough, I have a much harder time connecting with other females than I do males. I've had a few really close female friends, but the majority of my closest friends were all male. I certainly have trouble with intimacy, but I think that's a near unavoidable problem. If it's technically a problem. I guess it's just who I am. But I digress :)

I guess my major worry lately has been this: How much am I going to change? Will my personality changes alter my desires or goals? Will the people who love me now still love me if I change drastically? What's MY normal? Am I just now finding it? Am I defining a new normal for myself?

I know myself, but at the same time, I feel as though I am a stranger. I've never felt that way before... or, if I have, it's been a very long time since I last felt that way.

[rychek]

Stick with your shoulder length hair in my opinion, it suits you much more o_-

I think in the end, you are who you choose to be. it comes down to a choice of whether you want your situation to define you, or if you want to choose to define yourself as you please regardless of your situation.

If you find yourself content with who you are then choose to remain that person. If you are not, then it is up to you whether you want to change. How shall I say...- we are dynamic!

Zebra's cannot change their stripes, but we can, if we so choose (: