convulsive beauty will be veiled-erotic, fixed-explosive, magic-circumstantial, or it will not be.

[michabo]

I really do not want to admit to this, but keeping in mind the subtitle of this electronic sheaf of confessions, it seems I must. I refuse to censor myself - even when I want to be censored

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[punkwithpanache]

If I were Freud, I would say that you are displacing your need for a real partner into a realm where you feel comfortable, the internet, where you can manipulate yourself, where you hold more control, and where you feel you are the embodiment of your object-libido (love of an ideal of the self)

But since I am me, I will just say that your relationship problems are characteristically peculiar.

[michabo]

And if I were one who would build on that conjecturing, I'd say that the internet allows me all the freedom I want in gender expression and I can easily vacillate between the two, or even be a mixture of both, without anyone caring. I'd also say that, being such a sadistic person, I enjoy hurting even myself. And that writing is sexy enough in itself, more so than talking and doing, sometimes.

However, I think I'll just say that I'm one backward fuck and leave it at that.

[punkwithpanache]

(smokes a cigar)