so today is prom. i am not going. i am not allowed. michael told me he was going anyway, without me, with someone that likes him, i have seen her she is very very far from ugly. ok. then we decided that he wasn't, but he tells me monday that he is going to anyway. i already knew that, i knew it in my heart, i know that sounds weird but i did ( Read more... )

i feel like everything, or more correctly, nothing i do is right...michael is always breaking up with me for something stupid...monday it was that i "flipped out on him" when i saw him in the morning. and he broke up with me. everything i do is a reason for him to leave me, and i don't know what to do about it. he breaks up with me like every ( Read more... )

Your True Birth Month Is April


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so i got suspended for 5 days, for any of you that care. and i didn't have sex in the boys bathroom with michael like everyone said i did, but i was still suspended for being there. whatever. my parents have taken hating me to a whole new level. but anyway the whole damn school thinks that i am a slut or something, and people that i thought ( Read more... )

the lexapro is out. good. me and my dad had an argument in the middle of the doctor's office. whatever. i don't care. but yeah...it is making me angry i think. and dizzy. but hey who cares? none of you do...i obviously am wasting my breath.

michael broke up with me cuz "you don't trust me." and then he got mad about that again today cuz i said i don't know if he will see other people or not during this "break" and he flipped out and said i still don't trust him, but 5 minutes ago he told me he might. i'll bet he already has someone in mind. whatever. i cried all day. you don't ( Read more... )

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ud didn't accept me. congratulations. you won and i lost. so everything i was pretending to be was wrong. it was stupid of me to pretend that everything was all right when it wasn't. it was stupid of me to ever think that i could be anything more than an uneducated mcdonalds laborer. so you were all right. i am stupid. a piece of shit. ( Read more... )

this weekend totally sucked, some people know why and some people don't, but i decided that i do not want to talk about it because it will only make me upset again. seriously. i am not kidding. my heart broke again and again and again and it is pathetic.

my dell dj broke.