so i'm scared.
of all that can go wrong.
but i do the best to remember that everything is ok now.
and i have to worry for today...
and  knowing my body so well i can feel differences... in a big way...hmm

i'm pregnant.

i got my first tattoo two days ago.
it was a surreal experience... =D

i have to say this is a new feeling ( Read more... )

so mom yelled at smallz for the first time tonight ( Read more... )

i really don't understand how i can possibly keep letting frank hurt me like this. its like for so long i hold onto the grudge and stay hard and then after awhile it gets too tiring... so i forgive and than i end up getting fucking hurt again. and its not even necessarily about me being hurt it kill me even more to see my mom crying every time. it ( Read more... )

i think i think i thinki am dying. i have this super sharp pain in my chest. fuck.

gotta quit leaving my heart meds at home when i leave...=P

so as of day 2 well today will be day 3 a big thumbs up... big! 
we'll give it sometime...

so the jones' are all here..

just seeing justin's wonderfully cute face and his voice makes me super super happy!!!

only like 11 more hours and my boy will be here though... i really hope that justin likes him...

it just feels very important to me...

i'm losing my mind ( Read more... )