Debbie Downer moment, brought to you in part by me!!! And Rachel Green...take a look.

[michaeljanlover]

My feelings would best be described in the video below at about 1:55 in...

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That's EXACTLY how I've been feeling. I'm not even kidding you. All of my friends are getting engaged or married or having kids. I'M having nothing. I don't mean to be bitter or anything, but I can't help but feel a little sad about it. I'm also the only one in my family

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[boredatwork1]

Aww. I love the Friends clip and I know how you feel. But don't worry. Rachel is the story's hero-- not her married friends. You're going to school and doing cool things. I'm sure they're envious of your life as well. I think we all just have to do what is right for us at the moment-- we really have no control over our dating/personal lives.

[michaeljanlover]

That's exactly it. I know that when I least expect it, that special some one will walk in my life. What hurts the most is that I want it so bad. I want a family-so bad. I want to get married-SOOO bad. It's SO important to me and since I've only had like two real boyfriends (yes, "real"-one of them lived far away so I don't really count him. Lol)and have never been in love. I'm scared that there's something I'm doing wrong. I want to be in love but when "love" is in front of me, I'm scared of pursuing in it. You know what I mean? ANyways, I DO agree with what you say about how we have no control of our dating/personal lives, but I'm just a little impatient. I'm also scared that I'm just gonna settle. Stupid thoughts, I know...lol.

[boredatwork1]

I think it's natural to worry because we just don't know what is in our future. But I think that once we do get married, at whatever age, we'll look back on all our worrying and realize there was no point to it. We're relatively young (and you're younger than I am!! :)). We have plenty of time. People have children in their late 30s and 40s all the time. And that's still at least 10 years away from us. Still, it's hard when everyone around you is doing something, it seems like that is the normal way of things. But it's really not. My philosophy is that you just gotta live your life. :)

[your_masquerade]

Aw, bb. You'll find someone! Usually when you least expect it, too. I know the feeling, though. Trust me. Everyone I went to school with is either married or has kids or both. I'm the only one my age in my family that isn't married with kids, too. Really, I've never actually had a real relationship. You and I will both find the right person someday, I'm sure. The wait sucks, but I'm sure it'll be worth it in the end. :)

[michaeljanlover]

Thanks for the kind words! :) I agree and understand everything you say but also, like you said, the waiting sucks...really, really bad. :/ You know what else really sucks hearing...is when everyone asks you why you don't have a boyfriend because you're *mocks* so pretty *scoffs* puh-leeze...lol. I'm sick of it. It takes more than pretty looks to get someone. My mom seems to think that guys are intimidated by me and/or they think I probably have a boyfriend already. Anyways, to conclude-I'm sure we WILL both find someone and live happily ever after. :)

[anonymous]

Aww. Don't be in such a hurry to get married. Yeah, it can be great, and it will be, when the time is right. But if you're not in a serious relationship yet, maybe there's a reason for that. Maybe you're doing exactly what you should be doing, right now. You're independent and having fun and headed for a career, something you love. Usually the love thing happens when you're not looking for it. And I'm sure that's what everyone has told you, but that's because it's true. Keep on the path that you're on, and keep your heart open to the possibilities. Trust God's timing and he will send someone just for you. I know it. ♥