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MORALS
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: I THOUGHT THE WHOLE POINT OF AN ADDICTION WAS THE SIDEEFFECTTTT??? No if there were no consequences to taking them it would be everything at least once.
A time when you purposely hurt someone physically: COUPLE OF TIMES, ONCE FOR EMILY CAUSE OUR NEIGHBOR WAS BEING DUMB, AND A COUPLE OF TIMES CAUSE THE GUYS HIT ME FIRST. I TOTALY WASNT BEING A BITCH EITHER, I JUST DONT TAKE SHIT.
A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: IM SURE A LOT BUT 90% OF THE TIME IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL
One person you have killed in your thoughts: LOTS, HITLER, BIN LADEN, PEOPLE IVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE THAT WERE TRYING TO HURT ME OR OTHERS. SOME FRIENDS AND OR PEOPLE I KNOW BUT IT WAS A DREAM, NOT REALITY.
FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend: OPEN-MINDED, SENSE OF HUMOR, HONESTY.
Who makes you laugh most often: WHEN IM ACTUALLY AROUND THEM, ANDREA, AND MICHELE, UMM MY SISTER, DAVE CHAPELLE.HAHA
A friend who you can tell anything: ANYTHING??? MY SISTER.
A friend you can go to for advice: NONE REALLY, ONLY BECAUSE I DONT LIKE TO BOTHER MY FRIENDS, AND OR WOULD RATHER TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT. aLSO I LIKE A PROFESIONALS OPINION SO I ASK MY COUNSELOR. MOST OF MY PROBLEMS ARE DEALING WITH CHILDHOOD ISSUES, POLITICS, AND SUCH.
The best piece of advice you had been given: FROM MY COUNSELOR CAROL, TO ACCEPT THAT I CANT CHANGE MY FATHER OR MAKE HIM ACCEPT WHO I AM. I HAVE TO REALIZE THAT ME ACCEPTING WHO I AM IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
Two closest friends at the moment: DONT LIKE THIS QUESTION
The friend who uses most of your energy: RACHEL
EGO
Your 3 best qualities: OPEN MINDED (CAN EMOTIONALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE SOMEONE IS COING FROM), FUNNY, PASSIONATE.
Your 3 worst qualities: NO CONTROL OVER EMOTIONS, SHORT TEMPER, NEGATIVITY.
Describe your Ideal self : COMPLETE LOVE OF MYSELF AND BODY THINGS I CANT CHANGE, MORE PATIENT, REVERSAL OF BACK INJURY BUT STILL KNOWING WHAT I KNOW NOW.
You are embarassed when: HMMM DONT GET EMBARASSED TOO MUCH... WHEN I HAVE TO DO EXERSICES THAT HAVE MY ASS POINTING TOWARDS THE WINDOW FOR ALL TO SEE. CANT SAY THEY ARE DISSAPOINTED THOUGH J/K
The greatest physical pain you ever endured: FALLING AND HURTING MY BACK AT WORK.
The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: HMM ITS A TIE, BETWEEN LOSING MY GRANDFATHER(MAN I LOVED MORE THAN ANYTHING AROUND MY BIRTHDAY) AND 4 OTHER RELATIVES WITHIN 2YRS, OR TRYING TO END MY OWN LIFE.
Moment you are most ashamed of: I CHOOSE NOT TO BE ASHAMED OR REGRET ANYTHING, OTHERWISE I WOULDNT BE ME.
Your best physical feature: UMM MY DIMPLES OR BEAUTY MARKS,OH YEAH AND MY BACK HAIR. J.K
Who/What makes you happy: MY BABY DOGGIE BUFFY, MONEY, OUTWITTING SOMEONE, WINNING A VERBAL BATTLE WITH MY PARENTS AND WATCHING THEM HATE EVERY MINUTE OF IT, OH YEAH AND WHEN BUSH WAVED AT STEVIE WONDER. FUCKING DUMBASS
Who/what makes you sad: DEATH, BEING ALONE, STARVATION, WAR, UNEQUALITY, RACIAL PROFILING, CRUELTY OF ANIMALS, LOW INCOME FAMILYS STRUGGILING TO EAT WHILE MANY OF THE RICH JUST SIT THERE AND WHIPE THEIR ASSES WITH THEIR HUNDRED DOLLAR BILLS, MY FELLOW X AND Y GENERATION DYING TO KEEP ASSES LIKE BUSH RICH, BUSHES EXPLOITATION OF 911 AND UNEDUCATED YOUTH.
EMOTIONS
Emotion you hide most: EMPTINESS, DEPRESSION, SADDNESS, REJECTION, OH EVERYTHING.
The emotion you tend to experience most: CANT REALLY ANSWER IT I EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING.
The emotion you are feeling most lately: DRAINED, WEAPY.
When you are angry you need: COMPLAIN, DRIVE WITH LOUUUD MUSIC WHILE SMOKING, CURSING LIKE A MOTHER FUCKING SAILOR, ALL SHIPS ABOARD FUCKING CUNT.
When you are sentimental you need: CAN YOU EVEN BE SENTIMENTAL? WHEN IM FEELING SENTIMENTAL OR REMINISENT, I LIKE TO WATCH A GOOD MOVIE WITH REAL EMOTION AND CRY LIKE THE LITTLE BITCH I AM.
When you are in love you need: HAVENT BEEN IN LOVE.
MEMORIES
One of your most peaceful memories: LAYING WITH MY DOG AND REALIZING THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO HER SHE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME, AND NEVER EVER EVER HOLD A GRUDGE. ANOTHER PEACEFUL MOMENT IS READING THE POEM FOOTSTEPS. (IT WAS MY Gpa'S POEM FOR HIS FUNERAL)
One of your most tragic memories: THAT WOULD BE WHAT I TALKED ABOUT WAY ABOVE, AND NICOLES DEATH, AND 911, AND FINDING OUT MY MOTHER WAS MOLESTED.
One of your angriest memories: LIKE GABBY I WAS A VERY ANGRY KID TOO. MAJORITY OF MY ANGRY MOMENTS INVLOVE ME AND MY FATHER, AND HIS "PARENTING THROUGH FEAR" MOTO. HATING THAT I GOT HIT FOR THINGS I COULDNT CONTROL.
A memory that makes you laugh: GESH A TON WITH RACHEL, ALL THE STUPID ASS ILLEGAL SHIT WE DID IN Jhigh SMOKING WEED AT SCHOOL STEALING CIGGARETTES, THINKING WE WERE BADASSES. SOFTCORE/JUNOR YEAR GETTING DRUNK ALL THE TIME HAVING HOTEL PARTIES, GETTING PIES FROM WORK AND MAKING A MESS ON STREETS. ALL THE DUMB ASS VANDALISM WE DID.OH AND WEARING SPACE HATS WHILE "MAKING OUR ENTRY" TO A PARTY. OH AND SWIMMING AROUND IN A POOL FULLY CLOTHED WHILE DRUNK AND THEN STANDING IN THE KITCHEN DRIPPING WET WHEN THE COPS KEEP STARING AT YOU LIKE YOUR A FUCKING WEIRDO, THEN HAVING TO DRIVE TO MINIGORMET AND GETTING NAKED TO CHANGE IN THE PARKING LOT WHILE CUSTOMERS STARE AT YOU. HAHAHAHA
A memory that makes you happy: LOOK UP ABOVE
Something someone says/does that you find extremely attractive: I PLAY SUCH AND SUCH POSITION IN BASEBALL. OH GOD BASEBALL PLAYERS UHHHHHHHHHHHH. OR IM A COP UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive:IDIOTIC RACIST COMMENTS, BIGOT-LIKE COMMENTS, GAYBASHING, SHAVING THEIR LEGS, BASICALLY BEING A MANSEXUAL. I LIKE MY MEN TO BE MEEEEEEENNNNNN.
Two things appealing about people:SENSE OF HUMOR, COMPASSION.
A personality trait you find appealing: KIND, PATIENT.
What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: HAHA COMMITTED HAHAHA YEAH NOT GONNA GO THERE....
FINALLY
If you had more time alone you would: SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP READ READ READ LEARN LEARN LEARN.
If you had more patience you would: FINISH ART PROJECTS.
If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: HMMM DONT WANT TO COMMENT BECAUSE THIS CAN ONLY PUT MYSELF DOWN AND WHY WOULD I WANT TO DO THAT??? DONE THAT ENOUGH ALREADY.
If you had no committments what would you be doing: CANT THINK OF TO MANY THINGS BECAUSE ITS NOT ABOUT THE COMMITTMENTS SO MUCH AS THE MEANS...
If you could start all over: WOULDNT CHANGE ANYTHING, BIG MAN HAD A PLAN FOR ME AND THIS IS IT... ALTHOUGH IF POSSIBLE I WOULD FIND A WAY TO DOCUMENT MY LIFE AT A YOUNG AGE BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER A LOT OF STUFF FROM 2ND GRADE AND BEFORE...
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: I THOUGHT THE WHOLE POINT OF AN ADDICTION WAS THE SIDEEFFECTTTT??? No if there were no consequences to taking them it would be everything at least once.
A time when you purposely hurt someone physically: COUPLE OF TIMES, ONCE FOR EMILY CAUSE OUR NEIGHBOR WAS BEING DUMB, AND A COUPLE OF TIMES CAUSE THE GUYS HIT ME FIRST. I TOTALY WASNT BEING A BITCH EITHER, I JUST DONT TAKE SHIT.
A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: IM SURE A LOT BUT 90% OF THE TIME IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL
One person you have killed in your thoughts: LOTS, HITLER, BIN LADEN, PEOPLE IVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE THAT WERE TRYING TO HURT ME OR OTHERS. SOME FRIENDS AND OR PEOPLE I KNOW BUT IT WAS A DREAM, NOT REALITY.
FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend: OPEN-MINDED, SENSE OF HUMOR, HONESTY.
Who makes you laugh most often: WHEN IM ACTUALLY AROUND THEM, ANDREA, AND MICHELE, UMM MY SISTER, DAVE CHAPELLE.HAHA
A friend who you can tell anything: ANYTHING??? MY SISTER.
A friend you can go to for advice: NONE REALLY, ONLY BECAUSE I DONT LIKE TO BOTHER MY FRIENDS, AND OR WOULD RATHER TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT. aLSO I LIKE A PROFESIONALS OPINION SO I ASK MY COUNSELOR. MOST OF MY PROBLEMS ARE DEALING WITH CHILDHOOD ISSUES, POLITICS, AND SUCH.
The best piece of advice you had been given: FROM MY COUNSELOR CAROL, TO ACCEPT THAT I CANT CHANGE MY FATHER OR MAKE HIM ACCEPT WHO I AM. I HAVE TO REALIZE THAT ME ACCEPTING WHO I AM IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
Two closest friends at the moment: DONT LIKE THIS QUESTION
The friend who uses most of your energy: RACHEL
EGO
Your 3 best qualities: OPEN MINDED (CAN EMOTIONALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE SOMEONE IS COING FROM), FUNNY, PASSIONATE.
Your 3 worst qualities: NO CONTROL OVER EMOTIONS, SHORT TEMPER, NEGATIVITY.
Describe your Ideal self : COMPLETE LOVE OF MYSELF AND BODY THINGS I CANT CHANGE, MORE PATIENT, REVERSAL OF BACK INJURY BUT STILL KNOWING WHAT I KNOW NOW.
You are embarassed when: HMMM DONT GET EMBARASSED TOO MUCH... WHEN I HAVE TO DO EXERSICES THAT HAVE MY ASS POINTING TOWARDS THE WINDOW FOR ALL TO SEE. CANT SAY THEY ARE DISSAPOINTED THOUGH J/K
The greatest physical pain you ever endured: FALLING AND HURTING MY BACK AT WORK.
The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: HMM ITS A TIE, BETWEEN LOSING MY GRANDFATHER(MAN I LOVED MORE THAN ANYTHING AROUND MY BIRTHDAY) AND 4 OTHER RELATIVES WITHIN 2YRS, OR TRYING TO END MY OWN LIFE.
Moment you are most ashamed of: I CHOOSE NOT TO BE ASHAMED OR REGRET ANYTHING, OTHERWISE I WOULDNT BE ME.
Your best physical feature: UMM MY DIMPLES OR BEAUTY MARKS,OH YEAH AND MY BACK HAIR. J.K
Who/What makes you happy: MY BABY DOGGIE BUFFY, MONEY, OUTWITTING SOMEONE, WINNING A VERBAL BATTLE WITH MY PARENTS AND WATCHING THEM HATE EVERY MINUTE OF IT, OH YEAH AND WHEN BUSH WAVED AT STEVIE WONDER. FUCKING DUMBASS
Who/what makes you sad: DEATH, BEING ALONE, STARVATION, WAR, UNEQUALITY, RACIAL PROFILING, CRUELTY OF ANIMALS, LOW INCOME FAMILYS STRUGGILING TO EAT WHILE MANY OF THE RICH JUST SIT THERE AND WHIPE THEIR ASSES WITH THEIR HUNDRED DOLLAR BILLS, MY FELLOW X AND Y GENERATION DYING TO KEEP ASSES LIKE BUSH RICH, BUSHES EXPLOITATION OF 911 AND UNEDUCATED YOUTH.
EMOTIONS
Emotion you hide most: EMPTINESS, DEPRESSION, SADDNESS, REJECTION, OH EVERYTHING.
The emotion you tend to experience most: CANT REALLY ANSWER IT I EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING.
The emotion you are feeling most lately: DRAINED, WEAPY.
When you are angry you need: COMPLAIN, DRIVE WITH LOUUUD MUSIC WHILE SMOKING, CURSING LIKE A MOTHER FUCKING SAILOR, ALL SHIPS ABOARD FUCKING CUNT.
When you are sentimental you need: CAN YOU EVEN BE SENTIMENTAL? WHEN IM FEELING SENTIMENTAL OR REMINISENT, I LIKE TO WATCH A GOOD MOVIE WITH REAL EMOTION AND CRY LIKE THE LITTLE BITCH I AM.
When you are in love you need: HAVENT BEEN IN LOVE.
MEMORIES
One of your most peaceful memories: LAYING WITH MY DOG AND REALIZING THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO HER SHE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME, AND NEVER EVER EVER HOLD A GRUDGE. ANOTHER PEACEFUL MOMENT IS READING THE POEM FOOTSTEPS. (IT WAS MY Gpa'S POEM FOR HIS FUNERAL)
One of your most tragic memories: THAT WOULD BE WHAT I TALKED ABOUT WAY ABOVE, AND NICOLES DEATH, AND 911, AND FINDING OUT MY MOTHER WAS MOLESTED.
One of your angriest memories: LIKE GABBY I WAS A VERY ANGRY KID TOO. MAJORITY OF MY ANGRY MOMENTS INVLOVE ME AND MY FATHER, AND HIS "PARENTING THROUGH FEAR" MOTO. HATING THAT I GOT HIT FOR THINGS I COULDNT CONTROL.
A memory that makes you laugh: GESH A TON WITH RACHEL, ALL THE STUPID ASS ILLEGAL SHIT WE DID IN Jhigh SMOKING WEED AT SCHOOL STEALING CIGGARETTES, THINKING WE WERE BADASSES. SOFTCORE/JUNOR YEAR GETTING DRUNK ALL THE TIME HAVING HOTEL PARTIES, GETTING PIES FROM WORK AND MAKING A MESS ON STREETS. ALL THE DUMB ASS VANDALISM WE DID.OH AND WEARING SPACE HATS WHILE "MAKING OUR ENTRY" TO A PARTY. OH AND SWIMMING AROUND IN A POOL FULLY CLOTHED WHILE DRUNK AND THEN STANDING IN THE KITCHEN DRIPPING WET WHEN THE COPS KEEP STARING AT YOU LIKE YOUR A FUCKING WEIRDO, THEN HAVING TO DRIVE TO MINIGORMET AND GETTING NAKED TO CHANGE IN THE PARKING LOT WHILE CUSTOMERS STARE AT YOU. HAHAHAHA
A memory that makes you happy: LOOK UP ABOVE
Something someone says/does that you find extremely attractive: I PLAY SUCH AND SUCH POSITION IN BASEBALL. OH GOD BASEBALL PLAYERS UHHHHHHHHHHHH. OR IM A COP UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive:IDIOTIC RACIST COMMENTS, BIGOT-LIKE COMMENTS, GAYBASHING, SHAVING THEIR LEGS, BASICALLY BEING A MANSEXUAL. I LIKE MY MEN TO BE MEEEEEEENNNNNN.
Two things appealing about people:SENSE OF HUMOR, COMPASSION.
A personality trait you find appealing: KIND, PATIENT.
What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: HAHA COMMITTED HAHAHA YEAH NOT GONNA GO THERE....
FINALLY
If you had more time alone you would: SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP READ READ READ LEARN LEARN LEARN.
If you had more patience you would: FINISH ART PROJECTS.
If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: HMMM DONT WANT TO COMMENT BECAUSE THIS CAN ONLY PUT MYSELF DOWN AND WHY WOULD I WANT TO DO THAT??? DONE THAT ENOUGH ALREADY.
If you had no committments what would you be doing: CANT THINK OF TO MANY THINGS BECAUSE ITS NOT ABOUT THE COMMITTMENTS SO MUCH AS THE MEANS...
If you could start all over: WOULDNT CHANGE ANYTHING, BIG MAN HAD A PLAN FOR ME AND THIS IS IT... ALTHOUGH IF POSSIBLE I WOULD FIND A WAY TO DOCUMENT MY LIFE AT A YOUNG AGE BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER A LOT OF STUFF FROM 2ND GRADE AND BEFORE...