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hey well... bad day today... so here this is an emo post so dont read if you dont want to ...
The curse of june 5th
The day when my heart shuts down
Hopes being crush into millions of pieces
Tears stain the faces with wet paths of pain
Palms grow sweaty with grips of terror
Dreams are just aspects that slowly fade away
The one day that ruins my whole year
The day that turns my world upside down
Making no sense, only feeling its cold wrath
Regret filling in all around, suffocating my air
The thread of love starting to thin, losing its hold
Instead loneliness has a grasp around my neck
The day where death is living through me
I never knew the true meaning of irreplaceable
Or how it felt to be loved unconditionally
Neither why I had been so honestly blessed
Nor how hard it would be without you in my life
I never imagined I would have to go on without
The one man who full my life with all I needed
You loved me when you were here… and still do
I guess that is why I call it the curse of june 5th
The day where the world doesn’t mean a thing
The only thing I want is you saying I love you
Those 3 words cut into my heart so deep
So all I can do is repeat them in my mind
Wishing I could hear them just one more time
The day where love is all that keeps me awake
The day I lose memory of a little more each time
Leaving your outrageous laugh somewhat in my past
Praying I can hold onto your smile a little longer
Hoping your hand doesn’t leave mine quite yet
I still need that man I once and still call daddy
The day I cry because the fact that you’re not here
I never knew the true meaning of irreplaceable
Or how it felt to be loved unconditionally
Neither why I had been so honestly blessed
Nor how hard it would be without you in my life
I never imagined I would have to go on without
The one man who full my life with all I needed
You loved me when you were here… and still do
I guess that is why I call it the curse of june 5th
Love is the only thing that survives
Death is inevitable so don’t try to run
Because sooner than you might think
Your june 5th will come to you too
Best gift
Not all presents come with bows and cards
Some don’t fit in a gift box or pretty bag
Others you don’t buy with your credit card
While some you can’t put a price tag on
Yeah its true… we all get sweaters
Some get bicycles others get TV’s
Maybe others get a computer
But there’s one present ill never forget
It didn’t come with any special paper
Or a big beautiful red bow
No card and no ribbons
And it wasn’t under my Christmas tree
It came in the form of a man
5’7 brown hair and brown eyes
I’ve had it since I was even born
And it will remain with me for eternity
It didn’t come with any kind of receipt
Or a come back within 30 day guarantee
No warning about how to wash ticket needed
And it most certainly didn’t have a money back pledge
It wasn’t any kind of toy or trinket
It didn’t come with any batteries
But yet it made me as happy as can be
For it was what I wanted all along
Full of love and care, bliss and affection
Never leaving my side or my life in times of need
Holding my hand through it all was its purpose
Never letting go was how it was planned
Never did I once think that it would be gone
In the flash of an eye and BAM im all alone
Looking around, waiting for it to come back
Hoping it was just a mistake, not gone for real
Waking up everyday, waiting for it to come back to me
Praying im living in some sort of weird dream
Glancing, searching, looking… thinking youre didn’t leave
But knowing deep down, you’ve left and long gone
Not all presents come with bows and cards
Some don’t fit in a gift box or pretty bag
Others you don’t buy with your credit card
While some you can’t put a price tag on
The greatest present I ever got was my daddy
The only man a little girl needs to live
The one person she trusts with her life and heart
The primary reason for living her life… or at least mine
Not everyone gets a daddy like the one I got
A daddy that makes his little girl smile no matter whats wrong
A daddy that goes that extra step to make her know he loves her
A daddy that is so much more, more than you can imagine
Remember that not all presents are sent to your doorstep
Or full of bubble wrap with fragile written on the side
Some of the greatest presents youll ever receive
Are the ones right in front of your nose
June
June, please don’t come
Around, I don’t need all
Those tears to rush down
My cheeks, waiting for him
To wipe them away, just
Knowing it will have to wait
For the day when death shows
The meaning of true love
June, please just pass me
By, let the sun shine in some
Other place or light up that
Other girl’s face, the only
Warmth I want to feel right
Now are my daddy’s arms all
Around me, but that is the
Man you took away from me
June, please just leave me
Alone, get far away from my
Mind and leave all of my
Thoughts that ruin my life,
Unleash your hold on my
Heart that crushes it more
Every time you come back with
The look of death in your eyes
June, please let me know
How, how this could really
Be true, that I wake up to
See the face permanently
Drawn inside of my heart,
Counting down from ten to
One, hoping maybe he’ll
Come back through my door
June, please tell me it’s a
Joke, just let me know
When I can wake up to
See the man who you
Took away, so as I sit here
Wanting him back already
I pray that the day isn’t
When I too join your wrath
Knowing ill see you again in time
Keeps my heart beating steadily everyday
Seeing your smile and hearing you laugh once again
Is the only thing that makes me want to stay
Missing the way you hugged, nice and tight
Trying to squeeze your hand like I did the other times
Wondering where my goodnight kiss went to
Still telling myself that you’re still forever mine
My mind goes back to those days, the days I long for
When all I ever wanted was to be your little girl
Waiting for that moment when you would come home
Seeing you was my life’s greatest thrill
Some people think that all we have are memories
But I still have you forever, forever within me
Love is what you gave me and ill never lose that
Youre exactly what I need and want you to be
Even though you cant escape the concept of death
You never have or ever will truly die
You live on in my heart, guiding me through the dark
For you and me there won’t be a farewell or good bye
Waking up in the morning and going through my day
Just doesn’t seem the same without you by my side
I wish I could get those days back, just one more time
To show you all those feelings that I didn’t mean to hide
With all the words in the world that I can say
I don’t think anything could put it any other way
Then those 3 words you would say over and over
I love you… that did and still does make my day
Whether it’s you in a photograph or my head
Your smile is all I need to keep going through it all
Knowing youre the man i can call my daddy
Keeps me getting up and standing when I start to fall
My Angel Finally Found His Wings
Some like to call him my dad or father
Others would like to say he’s a great man
There is only one term that comes to mind
My daddy was my angel in disguise
In 8 years, he taught me all the keys to life
How to love people and show them you care
What’s its like to be there during the good or bad
A true example of what’s it like to be a perfect dad
Letting him walk this world for 37 years
Made the biggest impact he could on my life
I know everyone gets their call home in time
I guess it was my daddy who was next in line
Watching me from the clouds high above the sky
Is now his everlasting mission and occupation
Being with me all the time in this broken heart
Was where he was stationed all my life
Knowing his eyes still look straight into mine
His wings close in around me to protect his little girl
His smile scaring away all the fears present in my mind
Love being the one thread tying us together forever
Walking on earth beside me wasn’t his calling
Only his temporary home was on earth with me
37 years of true happiness, love, and blessings
Until my daddy finally regained his heavenly wings
TO feel your arms welcome
Me with that bittersweet
Embrace, on this last day
Would be the answer to all
My prayers yet at the same
Time, the root of all my fears
To hear you again say I love you
That only since appeared in
My dreams would be the key
To my heart’s happiness, but
Would also unleash the horrible
Daughter I since vowed not to be
To see you one more time would
Fill my life with eternal happiness
So I could finally see the man who
Live within me, the man that made
My life worth everything, I’m so
Sorry I never saw that I had then
To show you all the things you
Never knew, to make up for all
Those times I just walked away,
Would be my life’s missing link,
It’d break off the bains of pain
All this was for the curse of June 5
Watching the clock go round and round
Tick tick tick tick tick is all I can hear
Staring at the hands going in constant circles
With each second I gain more and more fear
Wondering to myself where you could be
I don’t see you in your car in the driveway
Its 4 o clock already… I don’t hear that put put
Please tell me you’re finally coming back today
Waiting and waiting… will this pain ever end?
Tick tick tick… can you make it just leave my head
Sitting while staring out the window all day long
Hoping and wishing you meant all you said
That’s all I hear from all those who are around me
The time has come… you really need to start moving on
Obvisously they don’t know how much you’re still with me
They don’t know how I love the man that is gone
I finally get to see you, the moment I’ve waited for
Ill be your little girl like I always used to be
The kisses I once got, the hugs I once embraced
I got what I always wanted… don’t you see?
The day we would finally be together again
Has come and its worth all the pain
All the tears are now turned into to smiles
I was earth’s loss, but heaven’s gain
My greatest wish came true…
I see the face that was only in my past
I hold the hand that once lost its grip on mine
My heart has been released from its hard cast
The one day I dreamed of has become a reality
I’m finally with the only thing I needed with me
His love was the only thing that never left me alone
And now I’m in heaven with my daddy, happy as can be
i love you