NO MORE PAIN~A lion's heart

[michiru48]

 

CHAPTER 5-LOST~MY WAY

"That's not scary!" Tatsuya pouted leaning his head on his hands.

"Not if I dress up like a vampire" Kazuya had this mischevious smile on his face. "well you want to show them something if they want you to prepare the haunted room then that's what they get. Think about a song that would match the theme and I'll think too and sing together."

Tatsuya was surprised.

"You sing?"

"Yes...why are you so surprised?"

"I thought..."

"That I don't have the voice? Well..." Kazuya fixed his voice so that he could start singing.

Saki no koto dorehodo ni kangaete itemo

Hontou no koto nante dare ni mo mienai

Kuuhaku? Kokoro ni nanika ga tsumatte

Ayamachi bakari kurikaeshiteta

"Did you write the song?"

"Yes!"

"Me too!"

"What is it's name?"

"Kizuna. And your's?"

"Love in snow"

"Love in snow? Sounds romantic...but not your style. You need something more...bad" Kazuya grinned.

"Hmm..." Tatsuya stared in emptiness.

"Just believe in me ok? And I promise they'll change their view of you."

"Hai!" Tatsuya nodded and smiled.

"What do you want to do today?"

But Tatsuya's thoughts where somewhere FARAWAY (AN:Couldn't help myself yeahXD)

"Tat-chan?" Kazuya shook his arm and the older one throbbed and faced him.

"Hmm?"

"What were you thinking about?"

"The lyrics of the song."

"So that's why you were so spaced out? I thought you saw fairies or something"

Tatsuya laughed.

"No… I was just thinking about the lyrics."

"This guy...I can't get him at all" Kazuya thought as he was looking at Tatsuya staring at something and playing with his finger on the table on the rhythm of an imaginary melody.

"Ne...Kazu-chan!" Tatsuya suddenly woke up from his gaze and faced the younger one. "Why do you trust me so much? And why does your father trust me,  also?" Tatsuya lowered his eyes but this time he didn't look at the table but rather at Kazuya's chest, with   shy, respectful eyes.

"Eh? Me trust you? There is no problem in that. I decided to take you in. No need to feel responsible in any way, alright? You've been through a lot and now is time to CHANGE UR WORLD, ne? "(haha :) ) Kazuya smiled happily and patted his shoulder. “As for my father…he trusts a lot of people. That’s his quality and fault in the same time. Don’t worry about him “

While they were sitting at the table they heard a sudden knock at the door. Kazuya went to answer shrugging towards Tatsuya not knowing who that might be since only a few people knew the address.

“Hello, young master!”  the butler  from Kazuya’s house bowed.

“Yobuta! What are you doing here? Come in, come in!” Kazuya raised his hand showing him inside.

The butler named Yobuta bowed again and excused himself before he entered the apartment. He looked at Tatsuya with surprised eyes then at Kazuya. He was really old and had white hair but his face looked very kind  and his eyes analyzed everything around him with the sharpness of a man who experienced everything in life.

“Young master! What an awful apartment, you cannot let Ueda-sama live in here!”

“Eh?” Kazuya and Tatsuya both reacted in the same time surprised that the old butler already knew Tatsuya’s family name.

“I’m Yobuta Yuuki . I will be at your service, Ueda-sama”

“Chotto,  gomen kudasai!” Tatsuya finally spoke. “I…” but when he wanted to speak out he stopped and sighed because…he was out of words. Yobuta laughed . He  put his hands behind his back then he stepped closer to Tatsuya scanning him from head to toe.

“Close, but not that close. You’ve suffered a lot, Ueda-sama!”

Silence invaded  the room  while Yobuta walked around Tatsuya analyzing his features and shaking his head.

“You look like a boy but your face doesn’t say that” he concluded laughing  and winked at Kazuya who answered with a smile. Tatsuya blushed.

“Ueda Tatsuya desu. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu!” Tatsuya mumbled embarrassed. No one talked to him like that and he felt like he didn’t deserve it. “Excuse my rudeness but I really want you to call me Tatsuya or Tat-chan is even better.

Yobuta stopped in front of him like a soldier in front of the captain and didn’t look into Tatsuya’s eyes while he spoke.

“I am sorry sir, I cannot do that I am not  supposed to…”

“Oh come on Yobuta, you know no one will scold you if stop the acting. You have been in the family for how many years? Almost 20? “Kazuya patted his back and Yobuta chocked in surprise.

“Young master!” the butler followed Kazuya’s eyes and stared at him scowling.

“You can take a break , Yobuta!”

The butler sighed, excused himself and sat on the couch in the small living room, shaking his head while scanning the apartment in disagreement.

“That’s better” Kazuya relaxed himself  and pushed Tatsuya to sit on the couch and he did the same.

“So why have you come here? Did something happen at home? “ then with curious eyes he continued his questioning. “Did that woman leave?”

“No she didn’t leave. Young master don’t talk about Madam like that. It’s rude. After  all that I’ve been teaching you…”

“So what? I don’t like her!” Kazuya crossed his arms against his chest and turned his face in the opposite direction.

“You act like a spoiled child , Young master”

“As if I haven’t been spoiled until now. He should be happy now that I’m living on my own”

“But he isn’t , young master!” Yobuta almost raised his voice…almost.”Master misses you a lot”

“I just visited him yesterday. “

“You are still his son and too young to be living by yourself. Let him take care of you a little bit more. At least as long as he is still alive”

Kazuya sighed and turned to face Yobuta who looked very worried.

“He is not feeling very well, is he?”

Tatsuya looked at Kazuya because he felt like he was participating in a conversation that he shouldn’t be hearing.

“No he isn’t. The illness worsens  day by day. He just wants to be a father as much as he can”

Tatsuya was staring at Kazuya who had a worried expression. Then he realized they were too familiar with him and wanted to leave them in privacy but when he got up, Kazuya grabbed his hand and pulled him back making him fall on the couch.

“Mou, Kazu-chan…let me go!  You only know me for three days I can’t participate to your private matters.”

“Yes you can. Stay!” Kazuya ordered still holding his arm and Yobuta smiled noticing how close they were.

“You have two choices. You either move back or you let me take you to your new apartment where you both shall live from now on. This or he will kick you out of here himself.”

“He doesn’t have the guts” Kazuya sighed thinking his father always let him do whatever he liked but this time it seemed like something was wrong since he still insists that Kazuya  should return.

“I…I don’t know what to do. I hate that woman but I also know he loves her by the way he looks at her every time she is in his presence.” Kazuya sighed. Tatsuya looked at his hand still holding his arm then into his saddened eyes . He started to know Kazuya little by little and somehow that made him feel…a warm feeling of a beginning of an amazing friendship. His heart was hurting too thinking he must love his father very much since he could still think about his feelings even though he left home.

“I wish he could understand me too…” Kazuya finally said grabbing Tatsuya’s arm tighter out of reflex. “There are too many memories in that house and I really don’t want to come back.”

“So what is the reason? Is it…”

Kazuya glared at Yobuta who stopped before he could continue his question. Only then Tatsuya realized that there were other reasons hidden behind his childish and selfish hatred towards the woman his father loved. Was that just a mask to cover his real pain?

Tatsuya tried to figure out why Kazuya didn’t want Yobuta to continue but he thought that maybe one day he would tell him himself. It was also very early to exchange secrets from the past. Although he already told him most of it… it wasn’t that much anyway. Besides the horror with his father and the bullying at school nothing else happened that could remain a secret. But why did it bother him knowing that Kazuya had secrets towards him?

“I came to help you move to your new apartment. I also brought some clothes for Ueda-sama thinking maybe he didn’t have the time to bring it from home…”

Kazuya glared at Yobuta again coughing.

“It’s ok Kazu-chan, it’s not like I’m a lost cause or something. I really didn’t bring anything besides my uniform and a few books that I had two days ago”

“I also bought the books you need at school and a new uniform. Master’s orders!”

“You spoil me too much…I’ve never been so…”

“Spoiled?” Kazuya repeated laughing. “You can consider me your younger brother if you want and feel more comfortable like this”

“Isn’t Ueda-sama younger than you, Young master?”

“By school years maybe, but he is already 21 years old. “

“Really? Then I should be asking you to take care of this boy, would you? You seem more mature and calculated than this reckless…”

“Mou Yobuta!” Kazuya pouted and Tatsuya laughed. “How do you know he is calculated? He is so fragile and…”

“Looking at his muscles and features though you might think he is  fragile, I think he had his share of pain but he also grew stronger. From what I can see he does some sport from time to time, isn’t it Ueda-sama?”

“Suuugoi Yobuta! Your talent to analyze the people around you never stops surprising me.” Kazuya stated with excitement.

“Haai! “ Tatsuya confirmed. “Boxing!”

“Amazing! Then do your best!”

“Hai!” Tatsuya confirmed.

“Yeah strong. but he was still beaten and ra~”

The next thing that happened almost made Tatsuya jump from the couch .

“Being strong inside and being strong outside are  two different things, KAZUYA!” Yobuta slapped his head which made Kazuya nod in agreement like a soldier who answers to his captain.

“Haaai…” Kazuya was looking at the floor obedient. Tatsuya ‘s mouth was wide open in surprise.

When Yobuta realized what he did he turned to Tatsuya.

“ I apologize my rudeness, Ueda-sama. His father told me to scold him every time I feel like he needs a lesson so he gave me a “passport”  to shake him up from time to time” he apologized and bowed.

“It’s alright, Yobuta” Kazuya interrupted him. “You are right. Being strong outside and inside are two different things. Wakarimashita!” he nodded still not raising his eyes.

“Suuugoi hito!” Tatsuya thought and confirmed Yobuta’s words. In the end an old man’s word is definite and true like the sun is to the earth.

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They started packing their things mostly Kazuya’s since Tatsuya didn’t have what to bring with him. He wanted to take his old  uniform but Kazuya stopped his hand and shook his head in disagreement so he took it himself and threw it in the garbage can.

“Let the past be the past and begin a new beginning ne?” Kazuya smiled brightly at Tatsuya who nodded.

It took them a few hours until they finished but it passed quite fast while Yobuta was telling stories from Kazuya’s childhood.

“When he was small he didn’t like tomatoes at all so I bought him those small tomatoes that are more expensive and tricked him saying they were strawberries.” Yobuta laughed holding his stomach and Kazuya pouted. “He never realized it until one day after a few years when he grew up. He knocked at my door and when I opened he said “These are tomatoes,  not strawberries. TOMATOES!” He didn’t speak to me for a week then one day I see him eating small tomatoes in the kitchen behind  Minako-chan’s back , Mika-chan’s mother.”

Tatsuya laughed while Kazuya looked at him with childish eyes like he didn’t like to remember that period when he was tricked by an old man who made him eat tomatoes thinking they were strawberries.

“Baka ne?” Tatsuya teased him and Kazuya gave him an elbow in his stomach.

“In the end he thanked me because now tomatoes are his favorite vegetables. And eggplants too!” Yobuta added. (AN:ok stop thinking perverted things ok?? They are my favorite vegetables and couldn’t help myself)

“Yamenasai yo… Yobuta! He might think I’m a spoiled kid!”

“But you ARE a spoiled kid “ Tatsuya confirmed which made Kazuya frown and run after him. But the older one was faster so Kazuya hit himself against the corner of a small coffee table and fell on the floor.

“Itai!” Kazuya shouted an grabbed his knee In pain. Tatsuya ran next to him and kneeled.

“Are you alright?”

A devilish grin appeared on Kazuya’s face and Tatsuya realized it too late that he tricked him. The younger one grabbed  his waist and started tickling him until he fell on the floor.

“Ka~Kazu~Kazu-chan” Tatsuya tried to speak between the tickling while laughing. “Stop! Please!” he held his stomach and continued laughing closing his eyes  in “pain”. Sto~Stop it!”

“A~ham!” Yobuta coughed and they both stopped and stared at the old man.

“The luggage  is ready , Young Master! If there is anything you want to bring at your new apartment then I’ll send the driver tomorrow. I think this is enough for today you also have to accommodate and arrange everything in your rooms.

“Rooms?” Tatsuya asked surprised because he expected he would share a room with Kazuya thinking that until now he always shared a room with…his family.

“Yes , Ueda-sama , you will have your own room.” Yobuta confirmed and Tatsuya wanted to protest but Kazuya grabbed his arm .

“It’s alright , Yobuta. We will manage.”

“But…yesterday you said that you don’t want to live in a new apartment.”

Kazuya grabbed his arm tighter as a warning.

“Better than living in this dark apartment ne?”

Tatsuya stared at Kazuya since he said he didn’t want to move to another big and cold apartment and it surprised him that he suddenly had this change of thoughts.

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I split the chapter in two because it is too long. First time it happens to me so sorry for this >_<

PART 2