Comments | midnightbeloved: If this true righteousness is not obscene, then I am pure.

midnightbeloved

If this true righteousness is not obscene, then I am pure.

Dec 01, 2005 11:46

I'm becoming obsessed with digging up my past. I read through my journals, reading who I was....to the point of who I am today...and it's not the same. But the weird part is that I don't feel different so much as I just feel like I'm finally just truly starting to understand myself. It was like I was behind such a thick curtain of denial. I wanted ( Read more... )

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trethlyn December 1 2005, 09:00:51 UTC

Losing pieces of one's self is part of growing up. The real trick to it though is filling those now empty spots with better things. A difficult task, that I know for anybody. I agree that people are tainted with some sort of corruption. Even the good have vices and faults. My hope for people though is they'll stop looking to their vices and more to their virtues. A dream, I know, in a world of nightmares.

Well, I think you've heard enough of this old man's preachings. *picks up soap box and walks down the street*

northshore_hxc December 1 2005, 09:31:08 UTC

Oh I do that constantly. I even had a private journal I made a while ago to write about my past in and try to figure myself out from there. I'm of the belief that no one will ever truly understand themselves, and I think that's a good thing. A lifetime of searching makes alot more sense than being born and knowing everything about yourself. There'd be no point to living. The fact that you know you're Courtney is the most important part. Remember you're still young and a new chapter of your life has JUST opened up. =)

midnightbeloved December 2 2005, 08:51:35 UTC

thank you very much! You always know things to make me feel better. And you're right, a new chaper of my life has opened. I'm just hoping it won't be titled, "The Downward Spiral"

northshore_hxc December 2 2005, 10:03:02 UTC

No problem. =) I'm sure it won't be. It probably just seems intimidating because you've never experienced it before.

fritothegreat December 1 2005, 09:50:35 UTC

Big bad Courtney.

I hate thinking, but it's gotta be done. :(

lostheart_07 December 1 2005, 11:31:08 UTC

I think you are and always were a wonderfil girl! I heart you!

axlushoverrated December 3 2005, 12:41:40 UTC

for some reason, I know how you feel on this.