Wow, nearly nine years! Your writing here really is an inspiration - I'm so thankful you chose to share so many moments and thoughts, and of course the beautiful photos.
I showed up late to the game but I find immense value in what livejournal provides me, something I unfortunately have never managed to do in paper journals, because I can look back on so many moments, thoughts or feelings that I may not naturally think of but upon re-reading an entry here I can recall the very essence of myself at the time I wrote it. I never imagined LJ would be such a tool for growth and self reflection when I started here. It was just another social site where I could get the clutter out of my head.
It is a pleasure to know you and I would love to be a part of your new journal. I'm sure your reasons for getting up in the morning are fabulous. :)
I wish I had written more along the years. I have a feeling I am going to be writing a lot more with age. I'm going to start taking photos of my surroundings and implementing them here. I've kept paper journals along the way, but as you so beautifully wrote, LiveJournal is an entirely different experience. In some strange way I learned to write here. I've read and re-read that middle paragraph of yours and its so beautiful in depicting our shared experience.
You'll always be a part of anything I do here. You are of the few precious gifts of these nine years.
Joe, How many times have I sat down, pen & paper, and tried to write to you? how many times have I started to draft a message for your Inbox? Too many, but in the end I decided that you'd manage your way back to us, and that I needed to let you decide when that happened.
But it's lovely to hear from you; nine years is a long time to share your thoughts with others, but it sounds like now you're considering really sharing your story... more than just your thoughts. I'm really excited about this!
"and I've had a lot of time to not-think, to simply listen to what I sound like on the inside." When I read these words, I thought of my own exercise habits and how this is one of the reasons I can't just hit-and-quit the gym in some super efficient workout; I need physical monotony of periodization to non-think.
With every change that took place in my life I was able to see what's possible and whether or not I wanted it.
I am realising this lately. The changes are giving me a different perspective, what I want is different to what I was hoping for before. It is wonderful and amazing.
I am so glad I came across your story. I'm glad you continue to share your story with me and allow me into your journey. It will be strange to not have 'midnightbright' popping up on my friends list or in my email. I'm so used to it that even when I come across the word midnight, my thoughts always comes to you.
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I showed up late to the game but I find immense value in what livejournal provides me, something I unfortunately have never managed to do in paper journals, because I can look back on so many moments, thoughts or feelings that I may not naturally think of but upon re-reading an entry here I can recall the very essence of myself at the time I wrote it. I never imagined LJ would be such a tool for growth and self reflection when I started here. It was just another social site where I could get the clutter out of my head.
It is a pleasure to know you and I would love to be a part of your new journal. I'm sure your reasons for getting up in the morning are fabulous. :)
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You'll always be a part of anything I do here. You are of the few precious gifts of these nine years.
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How many times have I sat down, pen & paper, and tried to write to you? how many times have I started to draft a message for your Inbox? Too many, but in the end I decided that you'd manage your way back to us, and that I needed to let you decide when that happened.
But it's lovely to hear from you; nine years is a long time to share your thoughts with others, but it sounds like now you're considering really sharing your story... more than just your thoughts. I'm really excited about this!
"and I've had a lot of time to not-think, to simply listen to what I sound like on the inside."
When I read these words, I thought of my own exercise habits and how this is one of the reasons I can't just hit-and-quit the gym in some super efficient workout; I need physical monotony of periodization to non-think.
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it's nice hearing you speak from the depths of your heart and mind again.:)
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I am realising this lately. The changes are giving me a different perspective, what I want is different to what I was hoping for before. It is wonderful and amazing.
I am so glad I came across your story. I'm glad you continue to share your story with me and allow me into your journey. It will be strange to not have 'midnightbright' popping up on my friends list or in my email. I'm so used to it that even when I come across the word midnight, my thoughts always comes to you.
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