im bored... everything about me and my life is so boring.. and lifeless. when will my life start? i feel like i have been waiting all my life.. just for its beginning.. these pathetic words have been repeating themselves over and over in journals, and convorsations, in my head over and over.. why cant i get through this barrier? when will i break ( Read more... )

change is hard.. it is not a quick pain, nor is it slow and calm...it comes unanounced and lingers in the doorway.. you see it, and dread it.. and it stays there just long enough for you to drive yourself crazy with anxiety.. then it barges in, hitting you hard... even though you have been anticipating its entrance for days.. you cant escape it.. ( Read more... )

hm.. this just might go on forever! fooooooorrrrrrreeeeeeevvvvvverrrr!
oh shit i made it into a really big word... and i promised you i wouldnt use those nasty things.. i am such an awful person. oh well, i guess i really was the worst friend you ever had.. there, now you have a reason to hate me..

yeah.... well...im sure thats not breaking news...


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it is isnt it... thats what am trying to focus on.. the ridiculousness of it all...just so that i dont become overwhelmed by frustration and pure fucking, stab you in the back, blade sharp pain that i feel when i hear shit like that... well i guess i learned something from this mess..its good to know that i have bad judge of character, a naive ( Read more... )

its funny... how peoples minds work... just fucking cracks me up... the best, though, is when people think that they are fucking so innocent... yeah that is the funniest thing in the world when people think that they are fucking golden--like everyone hurts them and they never hurt anyone.. its just like them to think that they are the fucking ( Read more... )

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psp projects.. ithought they came out pretty damn sweet....


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