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dont have regrets right? yeah well too bad, here are some lists
we'll start with regrets that i can think of
-not going to university of arizona
-telling myself i loved her until i believed it, then telling her i loved her.
-quitting track in 7th grade
-sucking
-believing bull shit
-rushed things with multiple poeple
things i'm glad i did/do
-not going to university of arizona
-telling myself i loved her until i believed it, then telling her i loved her.
-believing bull shit
-ended up with a piece of shit car
-throwing a rod
-run
-lift weights
-masturbate
-got m1 license
-rushed things with multiple people
i'm glad i told her stuff, and i'm glad i believed the bullshit, and i'm glad i i rsuehd things, because i never would have seen my mistakes if it didn't happen. if it's right it's right, no need to tell yourself that. the bull shit? who wouldn't want to believe it, it was sweet sweet sweet music to hear, rushing things...patience rudog.
i was driving yesterday, and i was wondering, in all seriousness, why am i even doing all this crap. who cares about this car, who cares about going to school, why should i even keep going, or working onthis car. i dont see a future for most of anything right now, and i dont think i would mind if it was all gone, because then a lot of things would be gone too, and with a lot of things being gone then i wouldn't know, because i'd be gone. so i'll be the loser, and my sister will be with winner, with her doctorate or masters whatever she is going for.
so the weather this mornings weather was a sweet deal, and if it just gets cooler and darker, i'll be good.
we'll start with regrets that i can think of
-not going to university of arizona
-telling myself i loved her until i believed it, then telling her i loved her.
-quitting track in 7th grade
-sucking
-believing bull shit
-rushed things with multiple poeple
things i'm glad i did/do
-not going to university of arizona
-telling myself i loved her until i believed it, then telling her i loved her.
-believing bull shit
-ended up with a piece of shit car
-throwing a rod
-run
-lift weights
-masturbate
-got m1 license
-rushed things with multiple people
i'm glad i told her stuff, and i'm glad i believed the bullshit, and i'm glad i i rsuehd things, because i never would have seen my mistakes if it didn't happen. if it's right it's right, no need to tell yourself that. the bull shit? who wouldn't want to believe it, it was sweet sweet sweet music to hear, rushing things...patience rudog.
i was driving yesterday, and i was wondering, in all seriousness, why am i even doing all this crap. who cares about this car, who cares about going to school, why should i even keep going, or working onthis car. i dont see a future for most of anything right now, and i dont think i would mind if it was all gone, because then a lot of things would be gone too, and with a lot of things being gone then i wouldn't know, because i'd be gone. so i'll be the loser, and my sister will be with winner, with her doctorate or masters whatever she is going for.
so the weather this mornings weather was a sweet deal, and if it just gets cooler and darker, i'll be good.