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i'm depressed. the laptop crashed last week and dad is being too stingy to pay for the repairs so now he's forcing me to work on the desktop. T__T that's the second time the laptop crashed and i'm feeling a little lost. its a little bit harder to work on the desktop cos i'm used to writing on the laptop instead. meanwhile, i'm still thinking if i should wait until he gets the other laptop [the one from his office] fixed next week so i can borrow it.
i think this might be my last update for awhile. i might go on a hiatus since exams are coming up and right now, things are getting a little hectic. don't worry. i wrote this chapter like weeks ago, just left it for awhile since i promised myself i wouldn't post it up until i finished the next two chapters [just because i am so lazy and a little OC]. well, that, and i'm kind of trying to figure out what happens next...
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Chapter Twenty Six
Am I in...heaven?!
I carefully opened my eyes and saw white all over. I tried focusing but my head still felt light and woozy.
I seriously did not remember dying at all. Nor did I remember feeling any pain, if ever I did die...
...wait, am I even dead and I just didn't know it?
Just then, I heard Nino's voice. Wait, is that Nino? Is he also in heaven with me? Did he die too? Oh no! What have I done?! Did I kill him? If I did, everyone will be after me!! Crap! What am I gonna do? First, underage drinking, then murder! What next?
His voice continued speaking, but there was a...background music? Lines like "Arashi for dream!" and "Arashi's cool" danced in my head. That’s when I realized that it was my cell phone ringing. I immediately jumped, turning to my side to find my cell phone but by the time I had finally found it to answer, whoever it was hung up. I stared at the screen, which just provided an unregistered number.
Ninomiya! Clever little rat. He even changed my ring tone. I swear, one day, I'll get my revenge.
I slumped back onto the bed, realizing that I wasn't dead and that I was in my room, not heaven. Although it wouldn't have been too bad, unless Nino was there. But then again, I wouldn't count on him going to heaven either, given his personality. Or maybe that's just me...
Releasing a sigh, I looked up and noticed something stuck to my forehead. I pulled it away and saw a yellow post-it, with the words "Hana-chan <3 Nino" on it. Just then, my phone started vibrating again, this time, with Nino repeating "Konnichiwa! Konnichiwa!" in this annoying voice, signaling a text message for me. Ohayo!, the message said. There wasn't even a name; just a number.
I blinked a bit before noticing the date written on my phone. September 28, 2006. Today was the 28th. Wait...but if today's the 28th, then that must mean...
I screamed. I screamed and jumped out of my bed, cursing all the way through. I couldn't believe it but I had been asleep for 2 days!! Uso!!
How did this happen?!, I asked myself. Why didn't anyone wake me up?? I cursed some more, pulling the door open and dashing out, towel in tow. After taking the world's quickest shower (5 minutes), I ran back to the room, changed and dashed out again, only to almost bump into Emiko and my aunt.
"Oh, I'm sor - "
"Ah! Ohayo!" My aunt greets.
"Hanari!" Emiko smiles. "Guess what? Satoshi just asked me to be his girlfriend!!"
That stopped me in my tracks. "Ha? Come again?"
A large booming sound rang across my ears as she threw her arms around me. "Isn't it great?" She beamed at me.
"Are you seriously kidding me? This-this-" I pointed between the two of them. "This is a joke, right? Are you guys playing me? Where's the hidden camera?" I turned my head around, looking for one but couldn't find any. "You haven't said yes yet, right? Please say you didn't answer him yet..."
Upon hearing those words, Emiko's smile vanished slowly. The warmth dancing in her eyes had gone, only to be replaced by a mixture of sadness and anger. "So what if I did? What's wrong with that, huh?" Her eyebrows shot up. "I can't believe you! Just because nothing has happened between you and Nino yet doesn't mean you can rain on everyone's parade! And here I thought you'd be happy for me!" She suddenly burst out. She took a step back and ran to her room.
My aunt sighs and gives me a glare, crossing her arms across her chest. She was about to say something but I raise a finger. "I don't have time for this." I said, and ran downstairs and into the street.
I'll deal with it later, I thought to myself.
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I rush into the studio, almost slamming my head against the door. I whimper a bit, rubbing my forehead. I sigh as I walk into the empty room. Turns out, I didn't miss much from my classes, except for a test in one subject and a reaction paper due with another.
I drop onto a chair, slumping back and checking my phone. A night had passed since yesterday but Emiko and I still weren't talking to each other. I sighed and looked up to the ceiling, hoping things would get better.
My thoughts suddenly drifted off to this morning, where I caught my aunt eating breakfast. I honestly couldn't remember anything after I fell asleep so I asked her. Well...confronted her was more like it.
She didn't tell me much, just that she opened the door and Nino was sort of carrying me since I fell asleep on the bus. Before he left, he made sure I was safely tucked in my bed. Then she started gushing about him, saying how wonderful and charming he was, how he had impeccable manners and everything, etcetera. I swear, I was almost close to joining her, if her gushing wasn't so sickeningly sweet.
Oh, Ninomiya~ How do you do it?
It was sweet of him though. He didn't have to do it; He could've just woken me up and shoved me off the bus but he didn't. Why?, I thought to myself. I suppose I should thank him next time...
My thoughts were interrupted with his voice, whining from my phone. I should really remember to change my message tone...
From: Seiji
Subject: Free tonight?
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Hey! I was wondering...if you're not busy tonight, maybe we could go eat out?
I know this place in Jiyugaoka that serves great food! What do you say?
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"Thanks for dinner tonight. The food was really great!" I bowed at Seiji.
"No problem! Maybe we could do it again next time?" He suddenly leans forward and plants a kiss on my lips.
I was stunned. Instead of answering (I couldn't), I just smile awkwardly, waving as we parted ways. As I got into my car and drove home, my cell phone rang again. "Hello?"
Silence came from the other end of the line. "It's me." Emiko's voice was quiet. "Uh...I was wondering...I know we're not talking and all but...can I get a ride home? Satoshi and I just broke up and I'm - "
"Okay, yeah, sure, no prob - " I try to say. "Wait - what?!"
"Ohno-san and I broke up." She repeats slowly, her voice emotionless. Ohno-san? Since when did she call him that? Something really bad must've happened. "Look, I'm stranded here at the train station. I've got no more money left and I need a ride home. Mind giving me a lift?"
Fifteen minutes later, I arrive in front of said station. I park the car to the curb and jump out. As I ran into the entrance, I stop abruptly. There she stood, right in front of me.
She gave me this look, a mixture of sadness and anger. "What happened?" I asked.
And then she burst into tears.
She fell into my arms and cried. Wrapping my arms around her, I keep patting her back and tell her it was gonna be okay but she just continued.
It was one of the most painful things I could ever remember witnessing, seeing Emiko cry. She never knew but my heart broke a little.
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We drove home in silence, an awkward tension filling the space between us. She was still crying, albeit quietly. Muffled sobs escaped past her lips.
I felt anger rise above my throat. I wanted to be angry at Ohno but for some reason, I couldn't. How could he do such a thing, making her cry? But my conscience was telling me that I didn't have any right to, since I didn't know the whole story.
"Are we gonna be okay?" She broke through the silence.
"I hope so." I kept my eyes on the road.
Her hand reached out and touched my shoulder. "Arigatou."
"Anytime."
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Konnichiwa!! Konnichiwa!!
"What the...? Nino?" He's here?!
The voice didn't answer. It just continued to repeat the words. It took me some time to realize it was my cell phone.
"Hanari, tell Nino to shut up!" Emiko groaned beside me. She grabbed my pillow and covered her face with it.
"Nino, shut up!" I repeated her words but he continued. Finally, I reached out and almost threw my cell phone across the room when it stopped.
"Thank God." She muttered. "I swear, Nino talks too much. Can't even let us sleep decently..."
Got that right, I thought to myself as I buried myself under the covers. After coming home last night, Emiko couldn't sleep, choosing to cry instead. I decided to stay with her, trying to make her forget about by having a sleepover in my room. It worked...somewhat. She fell asleep; I didn't. Hopefully, the silence could help me...
Ring! Riiiiiiinnnnngggg!!
Okay, but I thought too soon. Where my cell phone stopped, the cordless phone started, disrupting our sleep once again.
"Damn it!" I finally sat up and answered it. Of all the numbers, why me?? Ugh. Please let this be something good. "Moshi moshi?"
"Hana-chan? Nino desu..."
"Oh, Nino, it's you. What do you want? Why are you calling so early? It's almost seven -- Wait, how did you get this-my-number? In fact, how did you get any of my numbers?" I never did get to ask him that question, partly because it never occurred to me. I suddenly felt defensive because it's my personal number. I don't just give it out to anyone. "And don't call me Hana-chan!!"
"Good morning to you too." There was a slight shift across the lines. "Ne, I need to see you today. Can you meet me at the park? It's really important."
"Eh?! Wha - "
"You will? That's great! Thanks Hana-chan! I'll see you in an hour, okay?" And then he hung up.
Wait...what?
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I drag myself to go, in the false belief that he was expecting me. I decided to tell him off on the way, already rehearsing a speech inside my mind, and hoping he better had a cup of coffee ready for me. Nobody gets up before 9 a.m. on a Saturday, not even me. That was just rude of him even, not thinking of me. What if I had other plans? The nerve...
I stood near the entrance, my bag in tow, waiting for him to show up. Nino, where are you?
After 10 minutes of standing there, I started walking around, taking pictures with my camera. I took a shot of a kid and his dog playing while waiting.
"Nice shot." A familiar voice suddenly said. My heart jumps, and I turn around to see Nino, who's standing behind me. "Gomen for being late - "
I lightly slap his arm. "Don't sneak up on me like that!" My eyes roam past him and notice a bag on one hand. His other hand was empty. "Eh? Where's my coffee?"
" - but since you're here, shall we?" He took my hand, leading me away, completely ignoring me. We walk towards the nearest bench, sitting next to each other in silence. For awhile, we just sit there, not saying anything. I watch as he places his bag next to him.
The silence stretched. We didn't even look at each other.
He bends his head down, rubbing his hands against his jeans. "Gomen." He suddenly says, softly.
"Gomen." He says again, not looking at me. "I'm really sorry. Not just about the other day, but for everything. I didn't mean for things to go this far. I'm really sorry." He hung his head down.
I opened my mouth but no words came out. Needless to say, I was shocked. Shocked and lost for words. I didn't know what to say except... "Okay."
I don't think he was convinced with my answer because he suddenly jumped from the bench and knelt down in front of me, bowing low. "Gomen! Please forgive me! Onegaishimasu!"
I sigh. Grabbing his arm, I pull him up. "Get up Ninomiya. This isn't like you." I drag him back down next to me, slapping his head. "Ba~ka! And yes, I forgive you, even if you act like a jerk sometimes." How could I not? I could tell he was really sincere and remorseful. He even knelt in front of me to prove it.
He sits beside me, leaning back. "Anou...this whole thing has been a big mess." He sighs heavily. "Can't we just go back to the way things were? Can't we just go back to the beginning, before all this, and start over?"
I bite my lower lip. Can we? I mean, is it really that possible? My heart didn't think so because I felt that after this, there was nothing left. I wonder, is this where the story ends? Is this where we stop?
"Why? It's not as if we're going to see each other again. The truth's already been broken anyway so there's nothing left between us." I suddenly blurt out. Okay...but where did that come from?
One of Nino's eyebrows shot up, his eyes going big. I think he was just shocked as I was. "You probably forgot but our best friends are dating each other." He pointed out. "Sooner or later, we're bound to bump into each other as well - once in a while, maybe. The least we could do is be civil to each other when we meet."
"Well..." I look down at my shoes. "Maybe you could try being a little bit kinder. Kindness begets kindness, you know." I nodded at him. "Quick! Try saying something nice about me."
"Hah?!" He gave me this look, like I was crazy.
"Just try it. It won't hurt you, I promise." I winked.
He frowned and scratched his head, groaning miserably. For some reason, I found this cute and amusing so a smile formed on my lips.
"Your hair smells like lemons." He whispers close in my ear. It takes awhile before I realize that he said it in...english?!
"Eh?! You speak english?"
"You don't?" He patted my shoulder. "Don't worry. With a little study, you'll learn in no time. Demo...you won't be as fluent as me though..."
I roll my eyes and move away. Silence fell upon us once again, the space between us enhancing it more. I try not to look at him because my mind is asking the question that was begging to be answered - did I still want to see him? I mean, yeah, sure, we might possibly meet because our friends were dating but at the same time, it would be highly unlikely since he's busy and well...that is, if I choose to cross paths with him, which I definitely won't since we move in different worlds and...
...okay, my head is starting to hurt. My twisted logic is failing to make sense, even to me. Still, he sounds so sure that we will eventually meet in the future (that is, if we do meet). Why is that? Does he know something I don't?
He clears his throat. "So..."
I turn my head around. It's when our eyes meet that the answer hits me. What's wrong with being friends? Where's the harm in that? It's not like you're gonna be seeing each other often. Why not try it? Maybe it won't be so bad. Besides, what's the worse that could happen?
I could fall in -
Closing my eyes, I sigh heavily. I can't believe I'm doing this but...
I hold out my hand as I move back beside him. "Friends?"
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...yeah, i got none. i wrote this several times, always editing and stuff. i hope this satisfies everyone cos its all going downhill from here...
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