[ FanFiction ] Reminisce
Title : Reminisce
Pairing : Nakamaru X Ueda (MaruDa)
Rating : G
Note : an attempt at something angsty . idk . x)
Summary : After a year without him , Ueda finally has the courage to start reminiscing .
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A year has already passed since he had started living alone again , and today , TODAY , Ueda finally had the courage to go and re-open their sealed-up memories .
Ueda rummaged through the boxes that were in front of him . He carefully opened each one , and dust flew off everything he pulled out .
He found photo albums , old CD’s they used to listen to together during rainy days , the blanket they used for their very first picnic , and the soccer ball Nakamaru treasured the most .
Ueda sat down crossed-legged on the floor and slowly went through all the photo albums he could find .
There were pictures of when he and Nakamaru were still little kids , photos of them with the rest of KAT-TUN , their graduation , their awkward couple selcas . . .
Ueda couldn’t help but smile amidst the pain his heart was feeling at the moment . He had dared to smile .
He flipped through more pages .
Their 1st Anniversary . . .
Kame and Koki prepared such a banquet for them that day it made Nakamaru cry .
Ueda wiped the tear that rolled down his cheek with his sleeve . He laughed breathily as more memories came flooding in as he flipped and flipped through the pages .
Their first trip overseas alone . . .
Ueda remembered how he managed to take Maru with him in that sky-diving excursion , and how Maru passed out for 3 whole days after that .
Ueda smiled again . His heart ached more than the way it did just minutes ago .
A picture of the apartment they both bought together . . . their 5th anniversary . . . more awkwardly adorable couple shots . . . he stopped at the last page .
Ueda stared at the only photograph in the last page for what seemed like forever .
It was the very last one they took together , on Nakamaru’s birthday .
Nakamaru was smiling . . . he was dressed in one of those Hospital robes and with a hairless head . And Ueda himself , was seated beside Maru . Eyes all red and fluffy from crying and his hair was jet black and still growing back to it’s old length .
‘ He still looks good with a bald head . Funny , but still the Maru I love . ‘ Ueda thought to himself .
Ueda slammed the album shut . The pain grew more inevitable as the events from that day rushed into his head . He couldn’t hold it in anymore and so Ueda gave in .
Gods how he missed Nakamaru . Everything just wasn’t the same . He had long forgotten how he lived his life alone . . .
After hours of crying the pain and sorrow out of his system , Ueda straightened himself out .
“ Nakamaru wouldn’t like it if he saw me in this state , ne ? “ He asked Choco and Mister who curled-up beside him the moment he broke down .
With a sigh , he stood up , wiping the tears away from his face . As he proceeded to put the album up on the shelf , an envelope fluttered down freely onto the floor .
It was addressed to Ueda Tatsuya .
As Ueda picked it up , he then recognized Nakamaru’s hand-writing .
Opening the envelope , he took out the first sheet of paper , and read the letter silently .
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My dearest Uepi .
The moment you find this , I’m probably gone .
But don’t worry . I’ve told you that I will love you no matter what , right ? Not even this stupid disease has ever stopped me from doing so .
You always tell me to rest and not worry about a thing . But whenever I look at you , you always look so tired from taking care of me night after night . It pains me to know you’re suffering too . But now , I want you to live life like you always do , ok ? Don’t worry so much anymore .
Meet me in heaven alright ?
I’ll be waiting for you .
Death won’t change how I feel for you .
I love you so much .
- Nakamaru Yuichi -
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He sniffled , and took out the second piece of paper out of the envelope . It was smaller than the first , but it had the smell of Nakamaru’s favorite perfume .
He read the content as calm as his emotional state would let him .
After reading the entire thing , he laughed and wiped his tears away .
“ Nakamaru wasn’t that much of a poet . . . good thing he stuck to beat-boxing . “ he said to himself with a soft laugh .
This time around , his smile was more warmer . He cleaned everything up and carefully framed the letters his stupid koala wrote for him .
That’s right . That Koala was still HIS .
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He looked out of the apartment window to the clear , cloudless blue sky that was hovering around Tokyo .
“ I miss you so much . . . and I love you too , you baka . “
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U nder the odd circumstances
I dared to cross the line
To the princess who carelessly prances
Her way around the pines
E veryday it grows stronger,
And never will it cease
This fire that burns brighter
Don’t let it die-out , please.
D reams come true
As so it may seem
You became mine , and I became yours
yes , I was happy as can be
A nd remember;
remember everything we’ve been through
Don’t ever let them go
For one day we’ll reunite
And dance under the stars once more .
. . .
“ Nakamaru wasn’t that much of a poet . . . good thing he stuck to beat-boxing . “he said to himself with a soft laugh
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i am not a pro at writing angsty stuff but i love angst so taa-daa ~