That I could stop giving a shit about you.

I have been told by the older cole, that it has been too long for me to go without an update. Considering all the recent changes in my life, I suppose he is correct. I am currently sitting at Little City Cafe, sipping my fifth cup of coffee, listening to Nick Drake, and taking a break from my fiction. Also, I am waiting on my cousin, Sir William, ( Read more... )

I just found out I can get fucked up on caffeine and it is a wondrous feeling.

Your tongue is the barrel of a gun
Desperately thrust,
inside my mouth.

Fire, and Brimstone
Endless cries of tortured souls,
You'd feel right at home.

Vanilla scented
Candles in a dimly lit room
haunt my daydreams....

Cold hands finding warmth
in the stranger's next to you,
you both felt at home....

All The Negative
And All I Remember:
Winter Was Warm This Year ( Read more... )

Ok, List of things that have happened to me within a two week span.

1. Get kicked out of my house
1 A). I sleep on a bench behind Ryan's
1 B). I move in with Paul and Chris my two friends from work.

2. My trainer (boxing) falls down the stairs and suffers a severe heartattack. He lived alone, thus he wasn't found for hours.
2 A). He dies before I get a ( Read more... )

Each Shot Serves Its Purpose (Forgetfulness)

What drew your pacific eyes
To this glass half empty?
It’s clear that you didn’t find
Whatever it is you wanted,
’Cause you poured out what was left
Down an open sewer drain.
Now it’s mixing with the likes 
Of a dead and toxic sea.

{Chorus}

So it’s clear that you left us
For a fleeting chance
To bask in their ( Read more... )

I can already tell, this is going to be another day I walk through dreaming of nightmarish things.

Things I learned today....

Nosebleeds suck (knew that, but when they happen in a bathroom at work, they suck more).

Head wounds bleed like crazy.

New medications aren't working, hence the nosebleed.

What can I compose that would change the world? Realistically, nothing. The world is far to big a place to conquer with either a military or a work of art. What can I compose the would impact millions? Again, realistically, nothing. I am far to young to offer up any real wisdom, and I will die before experiencing anything that would lead to any ( Read more... )

I need to vent.

Alright.

So, I have been in the states for a week, and I am already eager to pack my shit into the suit case again, endure 36+ hours of travel (what most people find so exotic, not so much) to get the fuck out of here. I mean, obviously, there are certain people I would stay for (Shannon, Kristen, and Topher, for example) but for the ( Read more... )