last night was prom&it was AMAZING ( Read more... )

wizard of oz is over and i could not be anymore happier!
god damn fucking stupid things&&people
it`s spring time&&almost summer&&i love it
20 something days left of school
life is good.

everything in life is still going pretty well
not perfect, but nothing is anyhow
&&although there are some down`s there are plenty of ups
so i am very content with that as of now
me being happy still only depends on myself
i am happy
&&although i could`ve let myself go back to my old, depressed ways;
i won`t let that happen again
thank god for that.

oh happiness.. it`s good ( Read more... )

i`m never happy anymore. &&why is that?
well i`m not even going to get into it
i know things could be a lot worse
but i just can`t bring myself around to be happy for ONE fucking day
always sad.
always crying
always wishing to not feel the way i do
but no; nothing happens
i just get more miserable as the days go by
i wish i wasn`t so fucking ( Read more... )

i hate having feelings
i wish i was numb
whatever
i want it to end fucking please just stop
comments are disabled because i don`t really want to hear it.

time goes by so fast, it amazes me ( Read more... )

things have changed a lot in the past week..
i don`t have a 'someone' anymore.. big surprise? i am always getting used or screwed over or something by someone.. whatever.
yet i`m still going to get hurt and am going to find a lot of things ten times harder than usual for certain reasons.
my grandmas slowly dying and it`s something i took for granted ( Read more... )

well, once again it has been a long time since i`ve updated.
lot of shit going on between school macbeth and dance
i like keeping busy though, being occupied is a whole lot better than doing nothing.
i really hope i don`t use anyone after knowing what it feels like first hand to be used by someone
it hurts.. a lot
oh well, im recovering and at least i ( Read more... )

It`s been quite some time since i`ve updated in this thing ( Read more... )