[Fanfic] A Beautiful Mess (Chapter Three)
Finally, an update! :) Just a reminder, this chapter is a bit dark. Drugs and alcohol has been tackled, so read at your own risk. Another thing, I promised that I'll have more of Jun and Yana for this one but I kinda shifted from that while writing. Sorry about that. :( BUT, the storyline about the two of them is starting to pick-up and that's a good thing, right? :)
Happy reading, guys! :))
CHAPTER THREE
“You’re late.” Akanishi Jin says as he welcomed Yana from his front door, she just shrugs him off and entered the living room without saying anything. He sighed at her rudeness and watched her walking inside his house.
The three guys inside noticed how weary she looks as soon as she appear in the room. She lost so much weight in the span of one week, her skin is getting bad, the dark circles around her eyes are starting to look like panda’s and not to mention how puffy it looks behind the black rimmed glasses she’s wearing.
“Bad day?” Yamashita Tomohisa, or Yamapi as what his friends and fans calls him, asks while tossing her a can of beer.
“Bad day? More like bad year!” Yana furiously says, chugging on her beer.
“Isn’t it too early to say that? We’re just a month and twelve days down 2010 there’s still eleven months left.” Nishikido Ryo tries to sound logically.
“Shut up!” Yana snaps while eyeing him with a furious glance.
“What happened this time?” Shirota Yuu asks nonchalantly, somehow, he already has an idea on what’s going on with her.
“He can’t make it. Again. For the third time!” Yana’s voice rises in agitation. “He’s pushing me away!” The four guys just gave her a knowing look.
Yana’s relationship with Park Yoochun didn’t start on the right note. After making things official on New Year’s Eve, she flew to Seoul to spend her three day vacation with him and it went so well that she was over the moon when she comes back to work and even thought falling in love wasn’t so bad after all. But controversies regarding his group started to pile up after the New Year break. The tabloids and newspapers in Japan and Korea speculated that Tohoshinki are disbanding and began fabricating stories on their lawsuit and he’s greatly affected by it, completely forgetting his girlfriend back in Tokyo. She’s been asking him to come to Tokyo since he’s doing nothing back in Seoul but he chose to be alone in his house, making Yana worry too much about him.
Yana came to a realization three days ago and it made her regret the decision of putting her heart on the line. It hurts her, a sharp pain pushing through her chest and planting itself there. She couldn’t do anything to ease the pain until tears starts to unconsciously fall down her eyes and somehow, it manages to make her feel a little better. But after seeing her empty mail inbox, after hearing him say ‘I want to be alone’ and after hearing the lonely dial tone after he hangs up the phone, the pain in her heart started assaulting her again. She couldn’t do anything but cry and no matter how many tears came out from her eyes, it can’t seem to run out.
“It’s Valentine’s Day tomorrow and I’m looking forward to spending it with him.” Yana is sulking in her seat.
“Since when do you even care about Valentine’s Day?” Yuu snorted making the other guys held their laughters.
“What did I tell you? You made the wrong decision in dating him.” Yamapi says flatly under his can of beer.
“Isn’t it so much better when the two of you are just using each other for lust purposes?” Ryo commented, not getting challenged by Yana’s eyes.
“What now, Yanana? You’re choking everything you said when you decided to commit to him.” Yamapi smugly says.
Yana ignores them, she grabs the cigarette box from the table and lights a stick in her mouth. Everyone from her circle of friends is not keen to this idea of her involving in a serious relationship. It’s just so not her to give in to a guy.
“Why are you even affected by this? Dump him like before. End of story.” Jin says matter-of-factly. “Go back to your real self, have fun, get drunk, go high, meet guys, sleep with them and leave them the next morning. I want to see the real Yanana. The kick-ass Izumi Yana not the pathetic looking Yana I see now. I kinda miss the real you, Yanana.” He affectionately pats her head and she drops it on his chest, fighting the urge to breakdown in front of her guy friends.
“Yanana, I’m gonna say this because I’m your friend and I care for you… he wasn’t worth every single thing you give him.” Yuu carefully puts in. “If you’re going to give your heart to a guy, give it to someone who deserves it.”
“Just cry, Yana. Don’t fight it.” Yamapi says while looking intently at her.
And she pours it out. In Jin’s arms, she cries like she never cried in the past three days. The pain is still as sharp and unbearable like before.
---
After crying for almost an hour, Yana didn’t say a word at all. But the guys knew what she wanted to say even if it doesn’t come out from her mouth. The pain in her eyes and the sorrow in her tears all made them figure it out.
Not wanting her to go home alone, Ryo took the cab with her. Except with the constant sobbing from her, it was a silent twenty minute drive to her house.
“Do you want me to stay over?” Ryo asks when they reached the door to her apartment.
“I’m fine by myself.” Yana says, her voice sounds exhausted from all the crying. “Thanks for bringing me home, Ryo-chan.” She reached in for a quick hug.
“If you need anyone, don’t hesitate to call.” Ryo instructed her. “Even if it’s in the middle of the night, call me, okay?” he added. Yana smiled at how he seems so worried.
“Yes, I will.” Yana nods and entered her house.
“Try to get some sleep, maybe it’ll help you.” Ryo says, still not wanting to go.
“I will try.” Yana says, sensing that he still wants to stay.
“Okay. I will go now.” Ryo gives in as he steps back from her doorstep. Yana nods in response and watched him walks away to the elevator.
After coming inside her house, Yana went straight to the bathroom and turned on the water in the bathtub. She figures that maybe it can calm her down a bit. She took of all her clothes and laid her naked body in the warm water. She leaned back and closed her eyes, the tears are coming out again. Endlessly streaming down her cheeks, she wondered when it will end. Or will it ever end? She yelled out in frustration as she knocks the water with her fist. She felt helpless and lost. She doesn’t know what to do, her mind is telling her to give up but her heart wants to hold on.
When she comes out of the bath after two hours, her mobile phone that’s been lying on the bed is blinking non-stop. Still in her bath robe, she picks it up and saw a mail from Yoochun. In four days, he never contacted her, ignoring all her mails and calls and now he’s the first one to make a move. Nervously, she opens it and took a deep breath before reading.
From: Park Yoochun
Yana, I’m sorry for what I put you through.
It’s been hell for me and I don’t want to put
you through any of it.
I want to solve my problems on my own.
I want to be alone and try to put those
people I love away from the trouble as much as possible.
Getting to this decision is hard but it has to be done.
Let’s break up.
It’s for your own good.
There’s still more left in the mail but Yana’s eyes has been filled with tears that she can’t read it anymore. She fell on the ground, shaking and crying. Throwing her mobile phone away, she yells out her anger, frustration and pain, screaming her lungs off to let everything out her chest. But it didn’t left her, her heart feels like it’s been stabbed back and forth.
Anxiously crawling to her closet, she opens the lower shelf and produces two sticks which looks like rolled paper with something stuffed inside and a lighter. She walks out her bedroom and grabs a bottle of alcohol in the kitchen. She drinks it straight from the bottle and felt the alcohol lining across her throat. She took another gulp, hoping that it will ease away all the pain she’s feeling but it didn’t help, the pain still stings in her heart. Turning on her other means of easing the pain, she slump on the kitchen counter while lighting the rolled paper in her mouth. After inhaling it once, she can still feel it, she inhaled it again and again and again until the rolled paper was eaten up by the smoke.
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“Yana! Open the door!” Eri’s helplessly knocking on Yana’s door but to no avail, she’s not opening up.
After not showing up at their scheduled magazine photo shoot today and not answering any of her calls, Eri suddenly felt a pang of worry on what Yana’s been up to. After apologizing and telling a lie that Yana’s been sick with flu to the magazine staff and rescheduling the shoot with them, she hurriedly drives to her apartment.
Not wanting to waste any time, Eri pulls out her duplicate key from her bag and opens the door. Yana gave her the duplicate key to her home but warns her to only use it on tight situations. Well, this is a tight situation.
Entering the house, Eri immediately smell the distinct, pungent odor that’s been filling the room and it’s a smell she knew very well. Searching around for Yana, she saw her unconsciously lying on the kitchen floor, she immediately run towards her and discovered numerous weed paraphernalia on the floor along with an empty bottsle of alcohol and scattered pills.
“Yana! Wake up!” Eri cries as she shakes her body. “Yana!” she rocks her body back and forth but she’s not waking up. She tried looking for a pulse on her neck and felt relieved when she felt it but it’s slower than normal, her face is very pale and her lips is white as paper.
Thinking quickly, Eri reached for the house phone and dialled the emergency number. A female answered after the second ring.
“I need an ambulance here at unit 12E now! I have an unconscious woman here!” Eri is fretting over the phone. After the woman assured her of an ambulance, she hangs up the phone and rushed over at Yana’s side.
---
Outside the emergency room, Eri is joined by Jin, Ryo and Yuu whom she instantly called as soon as the ambulance arrived at the hospital. The three guys came shortly after, with worry drawn all over their face.
“Did you know what she took?” Jin asks. He’s walking back and forth the waiting room.
“She’s been smoking weed.” Eri says and the three guys shot her a hasty look. “There are empty bottles of alcohol and I think she took some sleeping pills too.”
Yuu rubs his face with his hands, he can’t believe Yana would do this just because of a man. “She stopped smoking weed for over eight months now and she promised to never go back smoking it again. We all stopped it together.”
Ryo settled on the seats and buried his face in his hands. “I should have stayed over at her place last night!” he stomped his foot out of frustration.
“Do not blame yourself, Ryo. It wasn’t your fault.” Eri came beside him to sit and pats his back, Yuu sat beside her.
“Does her mom know about this already?” Yuu asks.
“I was trying to call her but I’m always diverted to voice mail so just left her a message to call me once she received it.” Eri answers. “I heard from Yana that her mom is in France now, maybe it’s still midnight there.”
Their little conversation was disturbed when Yamapi came running to them and the four of them stood up to approach him.
“I dropped by her house like you said.” Yamapi is panting as he crouches down to catch his breath.
“What did you found?” Jin impatiently asks.
“Nothing much. Weed paraphernalia, sleeping pills and alcohol. But I found this.” Yamapi produces her mobile phone in his hand. “It was a message from Yoochun.” he says and Jin instantly grabs it from his hand and reads it. Eri, Yuu, Ryo and Yamapi gathered behind Jin.
From: Park Yoochun
Yana, I’m sorry for what I put you through.
It’s been hell for me and I don’t want to put
you through any of it.
I want to solve my problems on my own.
I want to be alone and try to put those
people I love away from the trouble as much as possible.
Getting to this decision is hard but it has to be done.
Let’s break up.
It’s for your own good.
I’m really sorry for doing this but this is what’s best for us.
Time is not on our side now but when things get better,
I’ll come back for you and I swear, I’ll be a better boyfriend then.
I hope you understand why I have to do this.
I don’t want to keep on hurting you by continuing this relationship
at this unfortunate time of my life.
Our time will come, Yana and we’ll be able to live happily someday.
I love you. Always remember that.
“I guess we found the culprit.” Yuu manages to say.
“Just because he broke up with her she suddenly wanted to kill herself? That’s not Yana! That’s not the Yana that I know!” Jin shakes his head in disbelief. “Yana is a strong woman and she doesn’t let any man affects her!”
“Until she fell in love.” Yamapi simply puts in and the four eyed him with awe. “Come on guys, we all know she fell hard for him and I think she can’t handle the fact that the first ever man she gave her heart to will hurt her this badly. She can’t stand the pain it cause her.”
“But to the point of attempting suicide?” Ryo questions their assumption.
“We still don’t know if she even attempted suicide.” Eri corrects him. “Knowing her, she wouldn’t risk that. That’s not Yana, she wouldn’t dare to kill herself.” she firmly states and the four guys nods knowingly.
The doctor finally came out of the emergency room and the five of them immediately rushed over to his side.
“I’m her manager, Sensei. Ishibashi Eri desu.” Eri introduced herself. “How is she?” she added.
“She’s stable now but still under observation.” The doctor says and the five of them manages to let out a sigh of relief. “We found traces of Temazepam on her system, a type of sleeping pill, and adding up the alcohol intake, there’s no mistake that this is a case of drug overdose and alcohol intoxication. We also found cannabis in the tests, we suspect that she’s been having depression considering how her actions almost fatally harmed her.”
“Can we see her?” Ryo asks.
“We’re still running some tests on her but we’ll bring her to a private room in an hour, you can see her then.”
“Thank you, sensei. If I may speak to you regarding privacy matters?” Eri slowly lead him away from the guys to take precautionary actions. The least thing she wanted was for this to come out in the media.
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Meanwhile, in another side of Tokyo, Matsumoto Jun is driving on his way to Nissay Theatre to watch Akanishi Jin’s solo live. He’s been invited by Jin a few days ago when they bumped into each other in the Jimusho and he promised to catch it one of these days. After ending his job earlier today, he decided to come and watch it.
Accompanied by the show staff’s, Jun was seated in the VIP section of the hall. Some fans recognized him and they started flashing their cameras towards his direction. Soon after the show starts, Jun was joined by Ryo who looked somehow, down and tired.
“Long day?” Jun asks, maintaining his eyes on the stage.
“Some stuff happened.” Ryo answers with his back leaning on the seat and half-listening to Jin performing on stage.
“Where is the rest of your troop?” Jun laughs as he searches around for familiar faces.
Ryo managed to chuckle a bit. “Pi’s been doing solo stuff and Shirota is working late, they can’t come tonight.”
“Oh. The rest?” Jun asks again. All he wanted to ask is the whereabouts of one of their friends.
“Who? There are a lot of them. Is there anyone in particular that you want to know?” Ryo smirks.
Jun laughs at how Ryo observed him. “Izumi Yana?” There, he said it. Since meeting her at New Year’s eve, he found himself fanboying over her and he was wishing that maybe he can meet her again tonight.
It wasn’t the I’ve-got-the-hots-for-you-I-want-to-bring-you-to-bed kind of thing like Nino. It’s more like, a crush type and he just want to get to see her again and maybe talk a bit longer than the last time. Of course, he wouldn’t go on as far as dating her, that sight of her scandalous kissing scene at NHK’s dressing room is still fresh on his mind.
“Yana?” Ryo is reluctant to continue, they wanted to keep this morning’s incident to themselves as much as possible. “She’s down with a flu.” he manages to cover up.
They didn’t get to see her earlier. A few minutes after receiving information about Yana’s condition, Ryo, Jin, Yamapi and Yuu all came to their respective work for the day. Eri’s been updating them through mails about Yana’s condition and it’s been bugging Ryo because she still hasn’t wake up until now. Eri assures them that it’s the effect of the heavy medication that the doctor gave her but still, she’s remains unconscious the whole day and being the worry-wart that he is, Ryo is bothered by the fact that she might not wake up.
“Oh. That’s unfortunate.” Jun says. He sounded a bit disappointed and Ryo notices it.
“By any chance, do you like her?” Ryo tried to asks.
“It’s not what you think. I’m just a fan of her.” Jun defended himself. “And isn’t she dating that guy from Tohoshinki?” he added to shift the conversation away from him.
“Oh, they broke up.” Ryo says and then regrets it later.
“Really?” Jun nods his head a few times. He doesn’t know why but he feels happy upon hearing that they broke up.
---
The solo live ended and since it’s a Valentine’s Day today, Jin’s friends booked an entire bar to party. Inviting Jun along, Ryo and Jin drives their way to a bar in Roppongi using their sempai’s car. They decided to drop by for a few hours to make an appearance and will visit Yana in the hospital after.
But their plans screwed up. It’s already four thirty in the morning and the party is still lively as ever. Jin and Ryo tried to escape but their sempai, Matsumoto Jun is keeping them in.
“Come on guys, it’s still early.” Jun manages to say while lifting a shot glass to them.
“It’s going to be five in the morning in a few minutes, Matsumoto-kun.” Ryo chuckles, he never seen him this drunk before.
“What? I feel like we’ve just arrived an hour ago!” Jun says and starts cheering raucously when some foreign girls started dancing in the center of the dance floor. Ryo and Jin just look at each other and shake their head.
“Party’s over, Matsumoto! Let’s go.” Jin firmly decided as he drags his sempai from the bar stool to the exit. Jun didn’t get to appeal as he felt overly dizzy when Jin began dragging him.
Taking the car keys from Jun’s car, Jin took the driver seat and Ryo in the passenger’s side while their sempai is fast asleep in the back seat.
“What are we gonna do with him?” Ryo asks, looking back at Jun.
“Drop him off his apartment and we’ll go see Yana.” Jin decided and Ryo agrees while nodding.
Feeling his phone vibrating on his pocket, Ryo pick it up and saw Eri’s name on the receiver. “Eri-chan. Is it good news?” he look at Jin who’s listening intently at his conversation.
“She’s awake?” Ryo repeats what he heard with a loud voice. “Okay, we’ll be there in a few minutes.” He hangs up the phone and instantly looks at Jin who’s obviously eager to hear the news.
“She’s awake but she’s not talking.” Ryo relay the news.
“Not talking?” Jin repeats. Oblivious to the man in the back seat, they didn’t notice that he’s been eavesdropping on them.
“Eri-chan says that Yana doesn’t want to talk and just giving her one word answers.” Ryo says.
“Let’s go straight to the hospital.” Jin decided while taking a left turn to where the hospital is.
“What about Matsumoto-kun?” Ryo ask, shooting a look back and Jun pretended to sleep.
“We’ll bring him.” Jin says.
“What?” Ryo questions him.
“I’m sure our secret will be safe with him.” Jin lowers his voice.
And now, Matsumoto Jun is more intrigued on what his kouhais are up to. With Izumi Yana’s names dragged to their conversation, he knew that Jin and Ryo have put him in a tight situation.
BTW, That part where Jun, Ryo & Jin went out partying at Valentines Day really happened in real life. :) Reports said that Ryo & Jun attended Jin's solo live and went partying after until 5 in the morning. Hehe. :)
Happy reading, guys! :))
CHAPTER THREE
“You’re late.” Akanishi Jin says as he welcomed Yana from his front door, she just shrugs him off and entered the living room without saying anything. He sighed at her rudeness and watched her walking inside his house.
The three guys inside noticed how weary she looks as soon as she appear in the room. She lost so much weight in the span of one week, her skin is getting bad, the dark circles around her eyes are starting to look like panda’s and not to mention how puffy it looks behind the black rimmed glasses she’s wearing.
“Bad day?” Yamashita Tomohisa, or Yamapi as what his friends and fans calls him, asks while tossing her a can of beer.
“Bad day? More like bad year!” Yana furiously says, chugging on her beer.
“Isn’t it too early to say that? We’re just a month and twelve days down 2010 there’s still eleven months left.” Nishikido Ryo tries to sound logically.
“Shut up!” Yana snaps while eyeing him with a furious glance.
“What happened this time?” Shirota Yuu asks nonchalantly, somehow, he already has an idea on what’s going on with her.
“He can’t make it. Again. For the third time!” Yana’s voice rises in agitation. “He’s pushing me away!” The four guys just gave her a knowing look.
Yana’s relationship with Park Yoochun didn’t start on the right note. After making things official on New Year’s Eve, she flew to Seoul to spend her three day vacation with him and it went so well that she was over the moon when she comes back to work and even thought falling in love wasn’t so bad after all. But controversies regarding his group started to pile up after the New Year break. The tabloids and newspapers in Japan and Korea speculated that Tohoshinki are disbanding and began fabricating stories on their lawsuit and he’s greatly affected by it, completely forgetting his girlfriend back in Tokyo. She’s been asking him to come to Tokyo since he’s doing nothing back in Seoul but he chose to be alone in his house, making Yana worry too much about him.
Yana came to a realization three days ago and it made her regret the decision of putting her heart on the line. It hurts her, a sharp pain pushing through her chest and planting itself there. She couldn’t do anything to ease the pain until tears starts to unconsciously fall down her eyes and somehow, it manages to make her feel a little better. But after seeing her empty mail inbox, after hearing him say ‘I want to be alone’ and after hearing the lonely dial tone after he hangs up the phone, the pain in her heart started assaulting her again. She couldn’t do anything but cry and no matter how many tears came out from her eyes, it can’t seem to run out.
“It’s Valentine’s Day tomorrow and I’m looking forward to spending it with him.” Yana is sulking in her seat.
“Since when do you even care about Valentine’s Day?” Yuu snorted making the other guys held their laughters.
“What did I tell you? You made the wrong decision in dating him.” Yamapi says flatly under his can of beer.
“Isn’t it so much better when the two of you are just using each other for lust purposes?” Ryo commented, not getting challenged by Yana’s eyes.
“What now, Yanana? You’re choking everything you said when you decided to commit to him.” Yamapi smugly says.
Yana ignores them, she grabs the cigarette box from the table and lights a stick in her mouth. Everyone from her circle of friends is not keen to this idea of her involving in a serious relationship. It’s just so not her to give in to a guy.
“Why are you even affected by this? Dump him like before. End of story.” Jin says matter-of-factly. “Go back to your real self, have fun, get drunk, go high, meet guys, sleep with them and leave them the next morning. I want to see the real Yanana. The kick-ass Izumi Yana not the pathetic looking Yana I see now. I kinda miss the real you, Yanana.” He affectionately pats her head and she drops it on his chest, fighting the urge to breakdown in front of her guy friends.
“Yanana, I’m gonna say this because I’m your friend and I care for you… he wasn’t worth every single thing you give him.” Yuu carefully puts in. “If you’re going to give your heart to a guy, give it to someone who deserves it.”
“Just cry, Yana. Don’t fight it.” Yamapi says while looking intently at her.
And she pours it out. In Jin’s arms, she cries like she never cried in the past three days. The pain is still as sharp and unbearable like before.
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After crying for almost an hour, Yana didn’t say a word at all. But the guys knew what she wanted to say even if it doesn’t come out from her mouth. The pain in her eyes and the sorrow in her tears all made them figure it out.
Not wanting her to go home alone, Ryo took the cab with her. Except with the constant sobbing from her, it was a silent twenty minute drive to her house.
“Do you want me to stay over?” Ryo asks when they reached the door to her apartment.
“I’m fine by myself.” Yana says, her voice sounds exhausted from all the crying. “Thanks for bringing me home, Ryo-chan.” She reached in for a quick hug.
“If you need anyone, don’t hesitate to call.” Ryo instructed her. “Even if it’s in the middle of the night, call me, okay?” he added. Yana smiled at how he seems so worried.
“Yes, I will.” Yana nods and entered her house.
“Try to get some sleep, maybe it’ll help you.” Ryo says, still not wanting to go.
“I will try.” Yana says, sensing that he still wants to stay.
“Okay. I will go now.” Ryo gives in as he steps back from her doorstep. Yana nods in response and watched him walks away to the elevator.
After coming inside her house, Yana went straight to the bathroom and turned on the water in the bathtub. She figures that maybe it can calm her down a bit. She took of all her clothes and laid her naked body in the warm water. She leaned back and closed her eyes, the tears are coming out again. Endlessly streaming down her cheeks, she wondered when it will end. Or will it ever end? She yelled out in frustration as she knocks the water with her fist. She felt helpless and lost. She doesn’t know what to do, her mind is telling her to give up but her heart wants to hold on.
When she comes out of the bath after two hours, her mobile phone that’s been lying on the bed is blinking non-stop. Still in her bath robe, she picks it up and saw a mail from Yoochun. In four days, he never contacted her, ignoring all her mails and calls and now he’s the first one to make a move. Nervously, she opens it and took a deep breath before reading.
From: Park Yoochun
Yana, I’m sorry for what I put you through.
It’s been hell for me and I don’t want to put
you through any of it.
I want to solve my problems on my own.
I want to be alone and try to put those
people I love away from the trouble as much as possible.
Getting to this decision is hard but it has to be done.
Let’s break up.
It’s for your own good.
There’s still more left in the mail but Yana’s eyes has been filled with tears that she can’t read it anymore. She fell on the ground, shaking and crying. Throwing her mobile phone away, she yells out her anger, frustration and pain, screaming her lungs off to let everything out her chest. But it didn’t left her, her heart feels like it’s been stabbed back and forth.
Anxiously crawling to her closet, she opens the lower shelf and produces two sticks which looks like rolled paper with something stuffed inside and a lighter. She walks out her bedroom and grabs a bottle of alcohol in the kitchen. She drinks it straight from the bottle and felt the alcohol lining across her throat. She took another gulp, hoping that it will ease away all the pain she’s feeling but it didn’t help, the pain still stings in her heart. Turning on her other means of easing the pain, she slump on the kitchen counter while lighting the rolled paper in her mouth. After inhaling it once, she can still feel it, she inhaled it again and again and again until the rolled paper was eaten up by the smoke.
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“Yana! Open the door!” Eri’s helplessly knocking on Yana’s door but to no avail, she’s not opening up.
After not showing up at their scheduled magazine photo shoot today and not answering any of her calls, Eri suddenly felt a pang of worry on what Yana’s been up to. After apologizing and telling a lie that Yana’s been sick with flu to the magazine staff and rescheduling the shoot with them, she hurriedly drives to her apartment.
Not wanting to waste any time, Eri pulls out her duplicate key from her bag and opens the door. Yana gave her the duplicate key to her home but warns her to only use it on tight situations. Well, this is a tight situation.
Entering the house, Eri immediately smell the distinct, pungent odor that’s been filling the room and it’s a smell she knew very well. Searching around for Yana, she saw her unconsciously lying on the kitchen floor, she immediately run towards her and discovered numerous weed paraphernalia on the floor along with an empty bottsle of alcohol and scattered pills.
“Yana! Wake up!” Eri cries as she shakes her body. “Yana!” she rocks her body back and forth but she’s not waking up. She tried looking for a pulse on her neck and felt relieved when she felt it but it’s slower than normal, her face is very pale and her lips is white as paper.
Thinking quickly, Eri reached for the house phone and dialled the emergency number. A female answered after the second ring.
“I need an ambulance here at unit 12E now! I have an unconscious woman here!” Eri is fretting over the phone. After the woman assured her of an ambulance, she hangs up the phone and rushed over at Yana’s side.
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Outside the emergency room, Eri is joined by Jin, Ryo and Yuu whom she instantly called as soon as the ambulance arrived at the hospital. The three guys came shortly after, with worry drawn all over their face.
“Did you know what she took?” Jin asks. He’s walking back and forth the waiting room.
“She’s been smoking weed.” Eri says and the three guys shot her a hasty look. “There are empty bottles of alcohol and I think she took some sleeping pills too.”
Yuu rubs his face with his hands, he can’t believe Yana would do this just because of a man. “She stopped smoking weed for over eight months now and she promised to never go back smoking it again. We all stopped it together.”
Ryo settled on the seats and buried his face in his hands. “I should have stayed over at her place last night!” he stomped his foot out of frustration.
“Do not blame yourself, Ryo. It wasn’t your fault.” Eri came beside him to sit and pats his back, Yuu sat beside her.
“Does her mom know about this already?” Yuu asks.
“I was trying to call her but I’m always diverted to voice mail so just left her a message to call me once she received it.” Eri answers. “I heard from Yana that her mom is in France now, maybe it’s still midnight there.”
Their little conversation was disturbed when Yamapi came running to them and the four of them stood up to approach him.
“I dropped by her house like you said.” Yamapi is panting as he crouches down to catch his breath.
“What did you found?” Jin impatiently asks.
“Nothing much. Weed paraphernalia, sleeping pills and alcohol. But I found this.” Yamapi produces her mobile phone in his hand. “It was a message from Yoochun.” he says and Jin instantly grabs it from his hand and reads it. Eri, Yuu, Ryo and Yamapi gathered behind Jin.
From: Park Yoochun
Yana, I’m sorry for what I put you through.
It’s been hell for me and I don’t want to put
you through any of it.
I want to solve my problems on my own.
I want to be alone and try to put those
people I love away from the trouble as much as possible.
Getting to this decision is hard but it has to be done.
Let’s break up.
It’s for your own good.
I’m really sorry for doing this but this is what’s best for us.
Time is not on our side now but when things get better,
I’ll come back for you and I swear, I’ll be a better boyfriend then.
I hope you understand why I have to do this.
I don’t want to keep on hurting you by continuing this relationship
at this unfortunate time of my life.
Our time will come, Yana and we’ll be able to live happily someday.
I love you. Always remember that.
“I guess we found the culprit.” Yuu manages to say.
“Just because he broke up with her she suddenly wanted to kill herself? That’s not Yana! That’s not the Yana that I know!” Jin shakes his head in disbelief. “Yana is a strong woman and she doesn’t let any man affects her!”
“Until she fell in love.” Yamapi simply puts in and the four eyed him with awe. “Come on guys, we all know she fell hard for him and I think she can’t handle the fact that the first ever man she gave her heart to will hurt her this badly. She can’t stand the pain it cause her.”
“But to the point of attempting suicide?” Ryo questions their assumption.
“We still don’t know if she even attempted suicide.” Eri corrects him. “Knowing her, she wouldn’t risk that. That’s not Yana, she wouldn’t dare to kill herself.” she firmly states and the four guys nods knowingly.
The doctor finally came out of the emergency room and the five of them immediately rushed over to his side.
“I’m her manager, Sensei. Ishibashi Eri desu.” Eri introduced herself. “How is she?” she added.
“She’s stable now but still under observation.” The doctor says and the five of them manages to let out a sigh of relief. “We found traces of Temazepam on her system, a type of sleeping pill, and adding up the alcohol intake, there’s no mistake that this is a case of drug overdose and alcohol intoxication. We also found cannabis in the tests, we suspect that she’s been having depression considering how her actions almost fatally harmed her.”
“Can we see her?” Ryo asks.
“We’re still running some tests on her but we’ll bring her to a private room in an hour, you can see her then.”
“Thank you, sensei. If I may speak to you regarding privacy matters?” Eri slowly lead him away from the guys to take precautionary actions. The least thing she wanted was for this to come out in the media.
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Meanwhile, in another side of Tokyo, Matsumoto Jun is driving on his way to Nissay Theatre to watch Akanishi Jin’s solo live. He’s been invited by Jin a few days ago when they bumped into each other in the Jimusho and he promised to catch it one of these days. After ending his job earlier today, he decided to come and watch it.
Accompanied by the show staff’s, Jun was seated in the VIP section of the hall. Some fans recognized him and they started flashing their cameras towards his direction. Soon after the show starts, Jun was joined by Ryo who looked somehow, down and tired.
“Long day?” Jun asks, maintaining his eyes on the stage.
“Some stuff happened.” Ryo answers with his back leaning on the seat and half-listening to Jin performing on stage.
“Where is the rest of your troop?” Jun laughs as he searches around for familiar faces.
Ryo managed to chuckle a bit. “Pi’s been doing solo stuff and Shirota is working late, they can’t come tonight.”
“Oh. The rest?” Jun asks again. All he wanted to ask is the whereabouts of one of their friends.
“Who? There are a lot of them. Is there anyone in particular that you want to know?” Ryo smirks.
Jun laughs at how Ryo observed him. “Izumi Yana?” There, he said it. Since meeting her at New Year’s eve, he found himself fanboying over her and he was wishing that maybe he can meet her again tonight.
It wasn’t the I’ve-got-the-hots-for-you-I-want-to-bring-you-to-bed kind of thing like Nino. It’s more like, a crush type and he just want to get to see her again and maybe talk a bit longer than the last time. Of course, he wouldn’t go on as far as dating her, that sight of her scandalous kissing scene at NHK’s dressing room is still fresh on his mind.
“Yana?” Ryo is reluctant to continue, they wanted to keep this morning’s incident to themselves as much as possible. “She’s down with a flu.” he manages to cover up.
They didn’t get to see her earlier. A few minutes after receiving information about Yana’s condition, Ryo, Jin, Yamapi and Yuu all came to their respective work for the day. Eri’s been updating them through mails about Yana’s condition and it’s been bugging Ryo because she still hasn’t wake up until now. Eri assures them that it’s the effect of the heavy medication that the doctor gave her but still, she’s remains unconscious the whole day and being the worry-wart that he is, Ryo is bothered by the fact that she might not wake up.
“Oh. That’s unfortunate.” Jun says. He sounded a bit disappointed and Ryo notices it.
“By any chance, do you like her?” Ryo tried to asks.
“It’s not what you think. I’m just a fan of her.” Jun defended himself. “And isn’t she dating that guy from Tohoshinki?” he added to shift the conversation away from him.
“Oh, they broke up.” Ryo says and then regrets it later.
“Really?” Jun nods his head a few times. He doesn’t know why but he feels happy upon hearing that they broke up.
---
The solo live ended and since it’s a Valentine’s Day today, Jin’s friends booked an entire bar to party. Inviting Jun along, Ryo and Jin drives their way to a bar in Roppongi using their sempai’s car. They decided to drop by for a few hours to make an appearance and will visit Yana in the hospital after.
But their plans screwed up. It’s already four thirty in the morning and the party is still lively as ever. Jin and Ryo tried to escape but their sempai, Matsumoto Jun is keeping them in.
“Come on guys, it’s still early.” Jun manages to say while lifting a shot glass to them.
“It’s going to be five in the morning in a few minutes, Matsumoto-kun.” Ryo chuckles, he never seen him this drunk before.
“What? I feel like we’ve just arrived an hour ago!” Jun says and starts cheering raucously when some foreign girls started dancing in the center of the dance floor. Ryo and Jin just look at each other and shake their head.
“Party’s over, Matsumoto! Let’s go.” Jin firmly decided as he drags his sempai from the bar stool to the exit. Jun didn’t get to appeal as he felt overly dizzy when Jin began dragging him.
Taking the car keys from Jun’s car, Jin took the driver seat and Ryo in the passenger’s side while their sempai is fast asleep in the back seat.
“What are we gonna do with him?” Ryo asks, looking back at Jun.
“Drop him off his apartment and we’ll go see Yana.” Jin decided and Ryo agrees while nodding.
Feeling his phone vibrating on his pocket, Ryo pick it up and saw Eri’s name on the receiver. “Eri-chan. Is it good news?” he look at Jin who’s listening intently at his conversation.
“She’s awake?” Ryo repeats what he heard with a loud voice. “Okay, we’ll be there in a few minutes.” He hangs up the phone and instantly looks at Jin who’s obviously eager to hear the news.
“She’s awake but she’s not talking.” Ryo relay the news.
“Not talking?” Jin repeats. Oblivious to the man in the back seat, they didn’t notice that he’s been eavesdropping on them.
“Eri-chan says that Yana doesn’t want to talk and just giving her one word answers.” Ryo says.
“Let’s go straight to the hospital.” Jin decided while taking a left turn to where the hospital is.
“What about Matsumoto-kun?” Ryo ask, shooting a look back and Jun pretended to sleep.
“We’ll bring him.” Jin says.
“What?” Ryo questions him.
“I’m sure our secret will be safe with him.” Jin lowers his voice.
And now, Matsumoto Jun is more intrigued on what his kouhais are up to. With Izumi Yana’s names dragged to their conversation, he knew that Jin and Ryo have put him in a tight situation.
BTW, That part where Jun, Ryo & Jin went out partying at Valentines Day really happened in real life. :) Reports said that Ryo & Jun attended Jin's solo live and went partying after until 5 in the morning. Hehe. :)