emo-yo is emo!

[mikecoyote]

I get really bitter and resentful of people sometimes. fuck...not just sometimes, but very very often. so much so that I end up having to fight off these kind of feelings. the last time it hit hard (last night) I had to stop and think about it alot

Comments

[redxix]

You can't post on the same day I do...I totally called it first :(

*loves my coyo very very much*

[ext_75832]

Well thank you for venting. I know where you are coming from with your frustration. While I wouldnt expect you and Grant to drive all the way down to events like Chicken every week (I sure in the hell restrict my social experience with SoCal furs to the one monthly party and staff meetings due to my lack of employment) know there are other ways to be present. Still, being present is only good if that is what you WANT to do. If you have no desire to socialize than dont. I suppose the important thing to realize is that a social scene/fandom/subculture is all dependent on what you put into it.

[codexrau]

I always look forward to when I get to talk with you, because you are such an interesting and awesome person to converse with and hang around. I love the ideas that you come up with and think the passion you carry for them is a great attribute ^_^

And Livejournal is a totally fine place to vent, I'd rather see you on here venting and getting things out of your system than not hear from you at all, knowing you are keeping it in and letting it stew.

*hugs you tight*

[thump]

"Style is loving yourself 'till everyone else does too" - Prince

;) In spite of your self-hating, you are awesome, and you need not worry about 'belonging' to this group or that. Spend a little more time doing what you enjoy and being with who you love and less time being concerned about what others may think. Perhaps your trust issues stem from some self-perpetuating stress caused by communication issues with those closest to you, or those you wish to be closer? If you're looking to make changes, review how honest you are in your communication with others. Perhaps you need to be a big more bluntly honest? *hugs*

Good luck!

[toob]

With maintaining social relationships and becoming part of the group, you do really have to do the work. Part of that is finding the right group, or the right people, and part of it is, as I said, doing the work, getting involved.

It's not easy, but it gets moreso with time.