I am just rocking so hard. At least maybe I think so. This week I ahve written about 4 songs that I have lyrics too and complete finished structural ideas. Today my mom took me out to lashish for my birthday and filled my gas tank and bought me food. On the way inside I said something to the effect of you know the sky could turn black and i wouldnt ( Read more... )

So it's my birthday and I had this fantasy so to speak of you being at the show and seeing you and you knew it was my birthday and you decided to talk to me and take me home tohave some fun and some memories and i guess it's just my problem that you didnt remember because i know i told you a few times. I still miss you.

You know that your life is really fucked up when your mom is COMPLETELY SERIOUSLY and literally talking about killng you as in my mom saying shes going to kill me if I don't pay her for the money i borrowed for the van. If i have no money coming in I can't pay her so if her credit is ruined because of me my own mother is going to kill me and shes ( Read more... )

Well My life is coming to a head right now.... Basically I prolly have to get a job or the real reality is going to come crunching down on me. The problem is it's not going to happen. I mean I really don't care if I owe $25,000 or 30 or 40 or 50 whatever, I really don't care. I just want to live true to myself and for me to have a job I'm not doing ( Read more... )

I saw her tonight... I still miss her in a I'm lonely and I have really nice memories of holding you sort of way. It doesn't matter she hasnt even thought of me in weeks im sure.

I want my stuff back I don't have your number or shit anymore. Just come over and bring my shit please I know you fucking check this stupid thing. I don't know any other way to reach you. I'm not about to waste my time going to your work.

I dont know what it is but my friends tell me by caring about you and spending so much time with you that i ruined it. How could I ruin it by being such a nice guy who really cared about you and enjoyed spending time with you and being there for emotionallly did I ruin it. I guesss I just dont get it. And I still miss you honestly but aht can I do ( Read more... )

I'm working on a new song... I'm really impressed with it,.... the guitar is almost done.... don't have any lyrics yet though. I could write some in a bout 10 minutes but I think I'll try to work on the music some more and put more thought into the lyrics than just letting it pour out of my heart.... nice try... well song is done and bleeding fresh ( Read more... )

Heather talked to me on the phone after I calmed down in her eyes... well yeah I was pretty silly at times but you know emotions cant be helped and it's something I'm going to be bitter about forever. I don't get over things like "just let it go" and magically i'm over someone treating me like shit when I treated her very special. She did talk to ( Read more... )

I have this sick feeling now... I'm really depressed and bust out crying sometimes but i have this almost stalker like grin on my face because I'm going to see Grant Hart tonight and hopefully he won't mind if I take a picture with him and or record his show. I mean you people just have no clue there would of been almost NO edgy alternative punk ( Read more... )