Haven't posted for a while for good reason. I've been busy and it's hard for me to even think about internet anything because lets face it, this place isn't real. And I've been hit with alot of reality recently. I DO NOT WANT SYMPATHY. I want to be with my family. I feel like I could be doing something very productive and meaningful and ( Read more... )

Somehow everything turns out to be a good time. I've been having this feeling that I've been destroying that good work within me by the way I live. Something that is good to begin with turns into a burden or a challenge, and I react badly. But somehow everything turns out to be good time. And as I was sitting yesterday on the verge of tears ( Read more... )

I had this great idea. Since I have so many friends whom I care about so much and have so many fond memories with... I decided to start a kind of series of entries, each being about a different friend of mine; what they mean to me, a few good memories we've had together, what I find unique and important about them. So stay tuned, and I'll be ( Read more... )

My good 'ol buddy, Friedrich Nietzsche, once again pulled the words right out of my mouth ( Read more... )

I'm on the line again. Not a bad shift. March 18th. But I don't really mind. I'm either here or there. Maybe I've been too hard on myself. Hmmm... Is there such a thing as too much good? Is serenity an unreasonable goal for someone at my age? These questions have presented themselves to me... probably a result of my failure to be where I ( Read more... )

At various stages of life, beginning even in early childhood, one comes across new ideas, epiphanies, awakenings of the soul. When these are experienced as a result of ones experience and natural lifecycle, rather than being learned from another person, one tends to percieve this as a stroke of their own genius, their own originality, an idea or ( Read more... )

Alot of thoughts from this last week on post, and this weekend added on. Where has my focus gone, and why is it so hard for me to keep my focus on that which I claim to be so important to me? And that is my problem, I cannot blame this organization or any other person for this. That's one thought. I haven't solved that problem yet. I saw a few ( Read more... )

I went swimming in the Caribbean today. I smile now! Woot woot!!

back on post. I'm feeling great. Have no other way to feel. And, as you all probably figured, I am of course rethinking what I said in my last post. If you didn't read it it's because you don't love me but that's okay. BUt seriously, if they deny my application, I don't know what to do. Of course the most reasonable (reasonable?) thing to do ( Read more... )

So I got a couple days off. Here's the status. My platoon sargeant wants my application to be done before I get back to Virginia. I'm turning it in when I get back. And it just occurred to me how this will really will look. I'm guessing that they will probably decide not to hear me. But I'm trying to do this the right way. I have to say that ( Read more... )