fear
in roughly 6 hours i will be on a plane leaving the united states to live in germany for 4 years. i know it won't be forever and it's not like i won't be coming home to visit family, but i am so fucking scared right now! i feel nauseous and like i can't take a full breath. i can't seem to decide between crying and screaming...i feel like no one understands what i am going through, no one is really listening to me and what i am trying to say. i have known for 3 months that i would be leaving and for the most part was really excited about it. i bought travel guides and am already trying to figure out where i want to vacation to first! but now that i am under the wire all i feel is anxious and terrified. here's hoping i don't actually throw up on the plane!!