emotional breakdown

[milackovi]

I dont know why it has happened now. I hate the feeling of loosing control over myself. The shivers, the sobbing, the tears, the paranoia

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[yareach]

The Marian thing: that happens to me more often than not, that when seeing someone gets closer and closer, I care about seeing them less and less. It usually is not something to worry about, as it tends to disappear once they're actually there. At least in my experience. I hope it's the same for you

thank u

[milackovi]

I feel a lot better now. On monday I started working like a maniac, to distract myself. I also talked to Claire about it, and she gave me an enormous hug. I haven't talked to my flatmates about it though.
I am getting a little excited about Marians arrival again, but wether that is because of him, or the pressure of having all those meetings i have to go to on the same day as he arrive (and my wonders - will i make it to Manchester in time?)
I talked to Dave about it...a bit at least, so far that I told him that I like him more than Marian. His reply was strangeish (was on msn) but when I saw him he seemed alright again. Yey.
Tomorrow I am going to the Carleton (a bit like the Sugarhouse) to forget all the rest of my worries and collect "happy energy" so I can be normally hyperactive again on thursday ;-P

Haha...I am happy though that I wrote about this for the first time now, I think that helped me get better quicker.