Confess your love to me [2/2]

[miliaax]

Sehun was well on his way to being drunk when Jongdae made them sit in a circle like during the first night. The girls had joined them now, all dolled up and in their best summer dresses and Sehun wished just a little that he would have been born a girl too. He gets constantly told about how pretty he is, so maybe if he was a girl he would look even prettier and Jongin couldn't help but fall for him. But life didn't work like that.

"Because of the lack of real exciting activity last time," Jongdae looked pointedly at Sehun and Jongin both. "We are going to play spin the bottle today!"

Sehun rolled his eyes as there were a few excited gasps. Of course this night would turn into even more uncomfortable. He's probably have to kiss some girls and his friends, which wasn't a big deal, but what he wouldn't be able to handle was another rejection from Jongin. Sehun crossed his fingers and hoped he would not have to kiss anyone today.

“I don’t care about how disgusted you might feel about kissing your friends, you must do it, so if you want to be a pussy step out now,” Jongdae announced and Sehun knew he should leave, but he had taken enough shots already and his mind was starting to get a bit fuzzy and he didn’t want to spend his night alone, so he stayed. So did everyone else.

“Great! No one left, now let’s start already,” Baekhyun said, sounding overly excited and shook his head in amusement. Baekhyun seemed to always be overly enthusiastic and very eager when it came to activities involving girls. Sehun wished he were straight too so he wouldn’t have these stupid feelings for his stupid best friend.

Someone spun the bottle before Sehun even realised it was placed on its place and it ended up pointing at Jaeyeon (who was sitting just beside Jongin, again) and soon enough Baekhyun was crawling towards her. Jaeyeon didn’t seem to mind too much but he did look at Jongin with a blush on her cheeks before letting Baekhyun peck him lightly. Sehun wanted to roll his eyes but he didn’t want to give anything out to anyone about his feelings.

The first few spins, everyone just gave each other little pecks, nothing too deep and Sehun was fine with that, but then it was Jongdae’s turn to spin and he was already very drunk and unfortunately the bottle ended up pointing at Sehun, who looked at Chanyeol and Jongin in horror. Before anyone could say anything to him, Jongdae was already invading his personal space, blocking his view with his face and he was very, very much too close.

“Let’s spice things up a little, shall we?” Jongdae said before surging forward to capture Sehun’s lips into a way deeper kiss than Sehun was expecting. He just froze on his spot, unable to do anything because of the shock while Jongdae was eating his face like there was no tomorrow. Sehun kept his mouth shut the best he could because he was not ready to get someone’s (other than Jongin’s) tongue in his mouth, and soon enough Jongdae pulled away.

People were staring at them amused and Sehun’s eyes were still wide when he looked at Jongin, who surprisingly wasn’t laughing with the others. Sehun frowned his brows at him a little and that seemed to make Jongin wake up from his thoughts and the latter gave Sehun a smile and a dismissive wave. The girl beside Sehun ushered him to spin the bottle and Sehun did, hoping he would get someone easy to deal with.

Sehun made a triumphant noise when the bottle pointed at Chanyeol, and turned to his right where Chanyeol was sitting and placed his hands on either side of Chanyeol’s head who looked very amused and Sehun grinned back at him. He swooped in to press his lips hard on Chanyeol’s, pulling back a second later with a smack sound and Chanyeol laughed.

Sehun was happy he didn’t have to kiss anyone he was uncomfortable with, and Chanyeol definitely knew he wasn’t into him so it made it much easier. His eyes drifted to Jongin who was now furrowing his eyebrows at Sehun instead and it made Sehun even more confused about his behaviour. Then he realised that he might have looked excited to kiss Chanyeol in Jongin’s eyes and that Jongin might have gotten the wrong idea, so he quickly pointed between him and Chanyeol and shook his head violently. Jongin better not think he was into guys or anything. It was the best for both of them.

Chanyeol ended up having to kiss Haeun and he made it surprisingly deep, but that was probably to be expected. Haeun made a pleased noise when chanyeol sucked on her lower lips before pulling away from the kiss, and Sehun glanced at Baekhyun to see if he looked jealous someone else was stealing the girls from him. Baekhyun had his jaw clenched shut tight and Sehun chuckled a little.

“Baekhyun looks so sour,” Sehun laughed when Chanyeol came back to sit beside him and the latter gave their friend a quick look before just shrugging and ignoring it.

Haeun went to spin the bottle and Sehun cackled loudly when it pointed at Baekhyun.

“Shit is about to go down,” he whispered to Chanyeol’s ear who didn’t look like he cared at all. Baekhyun glanced at Chanyeol so swiftly Sehun almost missed it and Sehun wondered if that was because he wanted to show Chanyeol who’s the boss.

Haeun crawled to Baekhyun, who immediately pulled her onto his lap and the girl flushed a little. Baekhyun smirked at her before leaning forward, capturing her lips softly at first but then sucked on her lower lip right after, making the girl gasp in his mouth. That way it was easier for him to slip his tongue in and the kiss turned very heated very fast, and Sehun wanted to cover his eyes when Baekhyun’s hands wandered up to cup the girl’s breasts, which Haeun didn’t seem to mind. It was quite the opposite since she eagerly pushed closer to the touch.

Most of their classmates were staring at the show in awe until someone cleared their throat loudly. Baekhyun and Haeun didn’t seem to notice as they continued to suck each other’s faces so Jongdae had to step in to pull them apart.

“Okay guys calm down, we don’t want you to go all the way in front of our eyes,” he joked and shoved the bottle into Baekhyun’s hand to get things rolling again.

In the meantime, Chanyeol had disappeared somewhere and appeared shortly after with two drinks in his hands and offered Sehun one, which the other took gladly. He was in need of a lot of alcohol if he wanted to be able to put up with this longer. They clinked their glasses and took big swigs, Chanyeol grimacing a little and Sehun coughing.

“Jesus, Chanyeol, are you trying to poison me? This tastes like nothing but alcohol,” Sehun wheezed, voice hoarse.

“I thought we both needed something a bit stronger,” Chanyeol stated with a smile and Sehun just agreed with a nod.

The game went on pretty peacefully, nothing too dirty happening after that. Some of their classmates had already passed out on the sand but Sehun was already too drunk to care if they made it into their beds. It was warm outside anyway so it would work out fine if they all just slept there.

The game was still going on as Chanyeol and Sehun were having a heated discussion about something trivial because they were both drunk, Chanyeol so much his speech slurred. Chanyeol was swaying very dangerously from side to side, looking like he would pass out any minute now and Sehun signaled for Baekhyun to come over. He told him to take Chanyeol to bed and Baekhyun just nodded wordlessly, hoisting the giant up and supporting him while they started to walk away from the beach.

Sehun looked after them, deep in his thoughts when he felt a pat on his shoulder. He turned around to see Jongin crouching in front of him.

"Hi," he said and Sehun just stared at him.

"Hi," he said back a little confused lifting his other eyebrow. Jongin moved a little to the side so Sehun could see the bottle that was pointing straight at their direction and Sehun felt his mouth go dry immediately. This couldn't mean-

"So, I'm supposed to kiss you now," Jongin explained as if Sehun didn't know what was going on, and honestly, Sehun didn't even care anymore because he was drunk and he really, really wanted to kiss Jongin right now. Make his lips all swollen and pink with his own.

"Go ahead, then," Sehun challenged and Jongin didn't waste a second, placing his right hand tenderly on Sehun's cheek and the other on his hip, pulling him a little closer. Sehun let Jongin manhandle him and just waited there, staring Jongin intensely in the eyes as the other stared at his lips, licking his own. It made something hot pool in his stomach and he almost surged forward himself but Jongin was faster.

Jongin's lips were thick and they felt even more amazing than Sehun had ever thought they would, moving against his. Sehun tried to follow their movements the best he could because he was very inexperienced in this and on top of that very much drunk right now, but he doubted Jongin would even notice his sloppiness considering he was greatly influenced by alcohol himself.

Sehun had unconsciously clutched his hands on the front of Jongin shirt tightly, and he loosened his grip a bit to slide his hands over the other's shoulders, up his neck to pull him even closer. He opened his mouth a little more to give Jongin better access and the latter took the hint, immediately running his tongue over Sehun's lower lip making him gasp. Sehun felt weak under Jongin's touch and he was glad they were sitting down because he was sure his knees would buckle and send him flying down on the ground if he were standing.

No one seemed to care about their make out session, most of them already passed out or left (or making out with each other) so there was nothing stopping them. Sehun felt Jongin's hand wander under his shirt, touching his bare skin and he arched his back a little letting out a little whimper.

"We should probably take this somewhere else," Jongin whispered and Sehun could just nod in response, too affected by their kiss to give him a coherent sentence. He wasn't even sure if he was able to walk.

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Jongin pushed Sehun against a wall with a loud thud, lips still on his as he let his hands immediately wander back under the latter’s shirt. Sehun let out a small gasp and Jongin smirked against his mouth, feeling thrilled about being able to get such reactions out of Sehun. They hadn’t even gotten into their apartment, both of them agreeing that it was too far away and because Jongin was practically eating his face the whole way to the building anyway.

Sehun felt extremely dizzy already and he wasn’t sure if it was because of the alcohol or Jongin, but he didn’t really care since this was something he had dreamed about for years and now it was actually happening. Jongin made his way from the corner of Sehun’s lips down to his neck, leaving a trail of kisses until biting at the skin lightly, Sehun’s hands flying up immediately to grab Jongin’s hair. Jongin’s hands were still under his shirt, thumbs drawing little circles alarmingly close to his nipples but never touching them and sehun felt like he was going crazy.

Sehun was about to open his mouth and tell Jongin to do something, but suddenly he heard a voice coming from down the hall. Jongin didn’t seem to notice anything, keeping his lips sucking and moving against Sehun’s neck, not that he was complaining, but he couldn’t risk it being the teachers walking in on them like this. That would send them both back home instantly and Sehun was a good boy, his parents trusted him and he wasn’t about to give that up for a hot, drunken making out session in the hallway with his best friend.

“Stop, Jongin,” Sehun whispered, putting his hands gently against the other’s chest, not really putting up any resistance yet. Jongin just hummed against his neck, making his way down to Sehun’s collarbones. “No, seriously, stop.”

Jongin lifted his head up, looking Sehun straight in the eye with a slightly dumbfounded expression on his face. “Why?” he asked, sounding concerned. “I thought you wanted this,” he continued, now looking a little hurt.

“I do, believe me, but I heard some voices coming from there,” Sehun hissed, not really angrily but he wanted to get his point across to Jongin. He waved his hand towards the dark hallway and Jongin turned to look.

“I don’t really see anything,” Jongin said dryly and Sehun swatted him on the head and shushed.

“Be quiet! Of course you don’t see anything, idiot, it’s completely dark. But what if it’s the teachers?”

“Well let’s go find out!”

“What? It’s like 3am, we’re not even supposed to be out of our rooms at this time of the night!”

“Well why the fuck would the teachers be here at 3am? Their apartment isn’t even on this floor!”

“Well maybe because there are idiots like us making out in the damn hallway!”

Jongin just rolled his eyes and grabbed Sehun’s wrist. “Just come,” he huffed and started walking towards the darkness, making Sehun squeak a little. Sehun had always been afraid of the dark and not even in his drunken state was he brave enough to go there without being scared. But maybe Jongin’s hand holding his wrist helped a little. Just maybe.

The closer they got, the clearer they heard the sounds and it didn’t take long for them to realize it was something they really shouldn’t be hearing or seeing. Tiny gasps and huffs of breath echoed through the walls and there were occasional slurping noises and Sehun felt a red tinge climb up his cheeks. This was really not something he would want to see.

But since Jongin was really drunk and had a death grip on his wrist, he didn’t have much of a choice. They slowed down and made their way quietly towards the slightly more lit corner where they heard the noises from, and Jongin stopped right before it. Sehun’s heart was beating quickly in his chest and he was nervous because oh god, this would be so embarrassing, why are they doing this, why is Jongin leaning to peek over the corner and why is--

“What the fuck!?” was the first thing that escaped Jongin’s mouth and Sehun stared at him in shock. What shocked him even more was the person that scrambled up from his knees to back away from the person he was just sucking off in the corner.

“Baekhyun?” Sehun breathed out in disbelief and the tiny male flinched like he had been hit. There was fear painted all over his face and he fumbled with the hem of his shirt restlessly.

“I- I’m-,” he stuttered, glancing at Jongin, then looking back to Sehun. “It’s not what it looks like! It’s not! I- I’m not gay!” Sehun could see the panic growing in Baekhyun’s eyes and there were tears about to trickle down his face. “He- he made me!” he yelled, pointing at the person leaning against the wall, who Sehun now noticed was Chanyeol who sighed loudly and looked tiredly at Baekhyun. The latter’s lower lip started to wobble and he looked at Sehun with wide, scared eyes, before tears started to roll down his cheek and he bolted towards the stairs.

Sehun and Jongin both turned to look at Chanyeol, who was tucking himself back in his pants and gave them an apologetic smile before heading up the stairs as well.

They stood there in silence, neither of them moving anywhere, eyes still glued to the stairway their two friends had just disappeared to.

“I’m honestly so fucking confused right now.”

☆

Sehun woke up alone in the bed.

His head hurt and his throat was dry. There was an uncomfortable feeling in his stomach and he hoped to god he wouldn’t need to throw up today because they were supposed to go to a museum later that day.

He got up from the bed and walked to the bathroom to brush his teeth but when he looked in the mirror he gasped in shock. His hand flew up to his neck, on top of a very bright purple hickey. He tried to frantically remember what had happened during the night and he panicked because he couldn’t remember immediately, but when he did it felt like someone had just slapped him in the face.

He knew they didn’t go further than kissing after the Baekhyun and Chanyeol incident, going straight to sleep after that.

He glanced at the clock and it was really early, around 8am, so why wasn’t Jongin in the apartment? Sehun felt his blood run cold and the nausea got even worse, but not because of the hangover.

Jongin was avoiding him. Jongin regretted it. Of course he did, why wouldn’t he? He didn’t want to do it during the first night why would he want to do it now? It was all because of the alcohol and Sehun was so stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Things like this were the reason why Sehun didn’t like to drink alcohol and now he had fucked up big time. He knew he wasn’t the only one at fault but he couldn’t believe he let it happen.

His throat went even drier and he went to the kitchen since the water from the pipes wasn’t drinkable, but there were no water bottles in the fridge. Nervously, he sneaked out of the door, hoping to God he would not run into Jongin on his way upstairs. He wasn’t ready to deal with any of the stuff that had happened with him last night, so he sprinted through the hallway and stairs, hurriedly knocking onto his friends’ door.

What he didn’t take into account, was that the two other problematic people lived in that apartment, until Chanyeol opened the door, looking surprised. Sehun’s eyes were probably even wider and neither of them could say a word for a moment.

“I just, I, um,” Sehun stuttered. “Water. We- I don’t have any.”

Chanyeol looked at him, confused, not expecting Sehun to just ask for water, before he opened the door even wider, allowing Sehun to step in.

“Yeah yeah yeah, we have some in the fridge,” he stated and waved his hand towards the kitchen. “Help yourself.”

Sehun walked to the kitchen as fast as he could, grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and was out of the apartment in less than a minute leaving a dumbfounded Chanyeol looking after him. He didn’t want to talk to Chanyeol either because he knew he couldn’t keep secrets from him. Sehun was like an open book when it came to Chanyeol.

While on his way back down the stairs he heard two people talking in the stairway, just one floor under the one his and Jongin’s apartment was. Curiously, he slowed his steps and made his way quietly further down. When he got closer, he decided he had to stop sneaking on people and this was so not his day because he heard Jongin’s voice, and what they were talking about was not something he wanted to hear.

“I made out with Sehun.”

Sehun almost gasped loudly at that, and he knew he should retreat but he couldn’t help himself. The chance was too good to pass because Sehun couldn’t be sure if Jongin would ever talk about it with him.

“Yes, we all saw that very clearly, thank you very much,” someone answered him and Sehun recognised it was Kyungsoo. Very unexpected.

“No, I don’t mean in the game! We kinda… left, shortly after that and I might have pushed him against a wall and-”

“Too much information.”

“-we were really drunk and I sucked his neck too-”

“I really don’t want to hear this.”

“-but we were stopped because we heard noises which turned out to be Baekhyun giving head to Chanyeol but that’s not the poin-”

“Baekhyun did what?” Kyungsoo shrieked.

“That is not the thing you’re supposed to concentrate on! Concentrate on my problem!” Jongin whined, sounding very restless.

“And what was it again?”

“I kissed Sehun!”

“I don’t see why that’s a problem though,” Kyungsoo stated and Sehun wanted to agree.

“It is a problem! A big one! I didn’t want this to happen.”

If Sehun thought that he was heartbroken earlier, he was so wrong. He clutched at his chest and tried to breathe normally through the sudden strike of pain. Nothing prepared him for this, it felt like his heart was literally shattering into pieces. He tried to fight back his tears because he knew if he cried his eyes would turn red and puffy and Jongin would definitely notice.

He had tuned out from the conversation while he was panicking inside but suddenly Kyungsoo’s voice was coming from a lot closer distance and he quickly retreated.

“You gotta tell him, Jongin.” Kyungsoo sounded very insistent and tired.

“I know,” Jongin sighed and Sehun heard him get up and that was his cue to leave before either of them would notice him.

He rushed to the apartment door and tried to open it as quietly as possible, slipped inside heading straight for the kitchen. He grabbed a class and quickly poured some water in it and heard the door open as Jongin stepped in. Sehun was still swallowing his tears as he had his back to him and Jongin stopped on the other side of the room, surprised to see Sehun awake.

"I thought you were still sleeping," he said and Sehun squeezed his eyes shut, collecting himself before turning around with a bright smile on his face.

"I was thirsty," he explained and lifted the class in his hand. "We didn't have any water so I went to ask for some from upstairs."

Jongin's eyes widened a bit at that.

"Really? When?" He asked and Sehun just shrugged back.

"Just a while ago."

"Is that so," Jongin muttered and looked like he was thinking hard about something. He was massaging his lower lip with his teeth and Sehun fidgeted a little on his spot. "Look, Sehun, I-"

"We should head upstairs," Sehun cut in cheerfully, not wanting to hear what the other had to say at all. "Our friends are already up and we have a lot to do today."

Jongin seemed to be a little confused about Sehun suddenly interrupting him, but Sehun didn't care because he was not ready to have the conversation, not now, not ever. If Jongin really wanted to talk to him, he should do it when they're back at home and able to avoid each other, not ruining their trip. Sehun decided he'd try to make the most out of it anyway, even though there was a constant, suffocating pain in his heart. He'd act like he didn't remember anything from last night if he had to.

"If you say so," Jongin agreed and Sehun just shuffled past him, out of the door. He hadn't even showered yet but he figured he could do it in their friends' apartment since he didn't want to spend any more time alone with Jongin than what was necessary.

☆

Sehun tried to be as subtle as he could about avoiding Jongin since he didn’t want him to notice anything was wrong. They went on with their day like they normally would and to Sehun’s luck Jongin didn’t utter a word about the previous night and neither did anyone else. Things were a bit awkward between Baekhyun and them and the boy seemed to be terrified they would out him anytime but Sehun wasn’t planning on doing that. Chanyeol on the other hand seemed to be completely relaxed and Sehun figured he probably wouldn’t mind everyone knowing, unlike Baekhyun who had tried to maintain his straight image for as long as Sehun could remember.

They only had one day left of the trip and Sehun was happy he wouldn’t need to tolerate it for longer. Their flight was scheduled for tomorrow night and they only went sightseeing during the day, the teachers giving them the rest of the afternoon and night free since it was their last night there. Sehun kinda wished they’d have more things to do. That way it would be easier for him to avoid Jongin.

Chanyeol picked up quickly something was wrong and requested they’d go for a walk, just the two of them and Sehun was thankful for him because now he would get a moment of peace, and it never hurt to talk to someone. It would probably be better to clear things up about last night anyway with Chanyeol, so he agreed immediately and Chanyeol excused them from the group by saying they were gonna go to the store.

“So what’s the deal with you and Baekhyun?” Sehun was the first one to open his mouth after they had walked for a while in a complete silence. Chanyeol chuckled a little without looking at Sehun.

“We’ve been going out for a while,” he started and Sehun looked at him surprised. “But obviously he doesn’t want anyone to know. His parents are very conservative so he keeps acting like a straight douche in front of everyone.”

“That’s sad,” Sehun mumbled and Chanyeol shrugged.

“There’s nothing I can do about it. This is our last year of high school anyways and after that we can move out and he doesn’t have to pretend anymore. Till then, I just have to tolerate.”

Sehun felt a little bit silly for whining about his pathetic crush on his best friend when Chanyeol was having way bigger problems than he was. Even though his heart was broken he thought that Chanyeol was suffering a lot more since he had to watch his actual boyfriend kiss and get handsy with girls in front of him. Sehun didn’t even want to imagine how that would feel.

The silence was becoming a little bit uncomfortable because Sehun didn’t know what to say to Chanyeol to comfort him and Chanyeol didn’t seem to want to continue on the topic any more than that.

“So what’s the deal with you and Jongin?” Chanyeol asked, imitating Sehun’s question to make the mood lighter and now it was Sehun’s turn to let out a pitiful laugh.

“I’m avoiding him. Because we kissed last night. A lot.”

“Yeah, I heard about that from Jongdae,” Chanyeol stated like it was no big deal and Sehun gasped.

“That big mouthed bastard!”

“Don’t worry, he only told me because he figured you would probably be uncomfortable with people knowing since you’re best friends and all and you were really drunk.”

“...Well I guess he’s not totally evil, then,” Sehun mumbled and Chanyeol bumped their shoulders. “I also heard how Jongin told Kyungsoo he didn’t like it.”

“Did Jongin really say that?” Chanyeol asked, surprised and Sehun fidgeted a little.

“Well not exactly with those words, but he implied on it very clearly.”

Chanyeol sighed and wrapped his arm around Sehun’s shoulders.

“You really should tell him,” he told him and Sehun scoffed. “You can’t just avoid him for the rest of your life. He’s your best friend for fuck’s sake, you need to fix this. It’s painful to watch, and don’t think Jongin hasn’t noticed, because he has.”

Sehun knew Chanyeol was right so he just groaned in response and Chanyeol ruffled his hair like he always did. Sehun was really glad he had someone to talk to because he felt like his head would explode otherwise. Someone needed to tell him straight what he needed to do or he would end up making bad decisions on his own because he always thought about things too much.

Not that he was actually going to tell Jongin anything. Ever.

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It was already late in the night and Sehun knew he would need to go back to the apartment soon with Jongin. He felt a knot forming in his stomach when he thought about the uncomfortable awkwardness that would ensue from them being alone with each other after not speaking to each other almost at all the whole day.

Baekhyun was already occasionally yawning widely and Chanyeol sent Sehun a really meaningful look and the latter knew it was about time for him to go back. Jongin was there with him and when Sehun got up, he really hoped that Jongin wouldn’t follow him.

“I guess it’s pretty late so I’m just gonna go get ready to sleep too, since Baekhyun doesn’t seem to be able to stay awake for long anymore,” Sehun said cheerfully and Baekhyun waved at him sleepily. He grabbed his snapback from the floor and headed out of the door while hearing Jongin mumbling goodbye to their friends too. Damn it.

He walked down the stairs quickly while trying to remain calm and collected. If he acted nervous Jongin was definitely going to ask him what’s wrong and Sehun was not sure if he would be able to lie anymore in this situation. Jongin caught up to him at the door and Sehun just slipped in without uttering a word and Jongin just did the same. Sehun quickly grabbed his nightclothes from the bedroom and locked himself into the bathroom so he could have a little longer to calm down.

When he finally came out of the bathroom, after taking extra long with washing his face and brushing his teeth, he went into the kitchen because he knew Jongin would go to the bathroom next. When Jongin did, Sehun turned the lights off from the bedroom and slipped into the bed and decided to pretend he had already fallen asleep when Jongin would come out of the bathroom. That was a good plan and that way he would not have to deal with Jongin at all.

Except it was a really bad plan because he should have known how Jongin would act in a situation like this, since they had been best friends for a long time. There was a hand on his shoulder, shaking him to get him to wake up while Jongin was quietly whispering his name too close to his ear. Sehun just turned around with a groan and Jongin pulled back immediately, fortunately for Sehun.

“What?” Sehun spat out and it came out more venomous than he intended.

“We haven’t really talked the whole day and you’ve been acting really weird,” Jongin said quietly, a bit shy and Sehun was doomed because shy Jongin was simply just too adorable.

“I haven’t been acting weird,” Sehun mumbled, trying to look sleepy in hopes of getting Jongin to think he was very sleepy so he would end the conversation there. This was heading to a bad direction and Sehun felt the knot in his stomach tighten. He felt a bit nauseous, too, because being nervous never did him any favors.

“Is this about last night? Because I’m very sorry about it, I never wanted to make you feel uncomfortable with me-”

“This is why I don’t like drunk people,” Sehun sighed and that made Jongin shut up. “They make stupid decisions while being intoxicated and regret them during the morning and they don’t even think about how it might affect other people.”

“I know and I’m sorry.” Jongin was sounding desperate now and Sehun just looked at him tiredly in the eyes. He didn’t want Jongin to feel guilty about not loving him back so he grabbed his hand and ran his thumbr over Jongin’s knuckles.

“I know,” Sehun said soothingly and Jongin looked so hopeless that Sehun had to get up and wrap his arm around him. “I’m sorry for avoiding you too. I just don’t know how to deal with this because I don’t want to make you feel weird about being around me.”

“I was more afraid of you feeling weird,” Jongin said, a little dumbfounded and Sehun pulled back, holding Jongin from his shoulders.

“Why?” he asked confused.

“Because of my feelings…?” Jongin trailed off and Sehun just stared at him with wide eyes, heart’s beating speeding up in his chest.

“What?” he croaked and Jongin seemed to realise right at that moment what he had just revealed.

“Oh my god, I thought you already knew and that’s why you were keeping your distance,” Jongin whined and covered his face with his hands.

“Are you saying… You have feelings for me?” Sehun asked slowly, not believing this was actually happening.

“Yes, but I know you like Chanyeol so I wasn’t supposed to act on them and-”

“What? Are you out of your mind? Me and Chanyeol? Never. Besides, he and Baekhyun are a thing so it wouldn’t matter anyway.”

“So you don’t like him?” Jongin asked as he peeked at Sehun from behind his fingers.

“No,” Sehun laughed. All of his worrying and pining over Jongin had been over nothing and Sehun was feeling really dumb right now. How could he have not noticed? Maybe he was too busy giving Jongin his lovestruck eyes to notice his was looking at Sehun with the same ones. He just grinned widely at Jongin who looked at him with an expression that showed he was very lost and Sehun just leaned in and kissed him square on the mouth. “We’re hopeless.”

Jongin spluttered and his eyes widened comically and Sehun couldn’t help but laugh at that.

“You like me back?” Jongin sounded very doubtful so Sehun placed his hands on his cheeks and pulled him closer, their noses almost touching.

“Of course I do. How could I not?” Sehun whispered, smiling a little and this time, he didn’t need to lean in because Jongin surged forward with such speed it made Sehun fall backwards on the bed, Jongin ending up towering over him.

Jongin didn't seem to notice how compromising their position looked but Sehun definitely did. He felt like the room heated up immediately even though the kiss stayed relatively tame. There wasn't a lot of tongue involved but it made Sehun dizzy all the same because they were sober now and Jongin actually wanted this too and that alone made him want to burst with happiness.

Sehun ran his hands up and down Jongin's back, occasionally pulling him closer to hint Jongin that he could handle more than just a little bit of innocent lip licking. The other, to Sehun's surprise because up till now Jongin had been an oblivious idiot, seemed to take the hint because suddenly Sehun felt him biting down on his lower lip and pulling it. He let out an involuntary gasp and was embarrassed right away but Jongin didn't even acknowledge it, just kept nibbling at his lips.

There were now hands at the hem of his shirt, lifting it up slowly and Sehun just complied, arching his back off the mattress to make it easier for Jongin to slip his shirt over his head and off. Jongin had seen Sehun without a shirt many times but it still felt different now, because he knew he could touch and Sehun was his. He gave Sehun a slow once over before diving in to leave a trail of kisses on his neck while his hands made their way up Sehun's stomach, all the way to his chest.

Sehun shivered in anticipation when Jongin's thumb brushed very close to his nipple and it definitely didn't go past Jongin's attention. The other started to kiss his way down to Sehun's collarbones and past, all the way to his nipples and gave one of them a tentative lick. Sehun let out a quiet whimper which made Jongin grin because if a little touch like that would make Sehun already that affected, it meant it didn't need much to make Sehun an absolute wreck. Jongin was more than eager to test his theory so he wrapped his lips around the bud and sucked on hit hard. Sehun gasped loudly and his hands flew to Jongin's hair in a second and pulled at them, which made blood rush to Jongin's lower region.

He pinched the other nipple between his fingers and pulled while licking and biting at the other one and it made Sehun let out noises that sounded like music to Jongin's ears. Sehun kept his eyes closed the whole time, concentrating on the sensations because wow, he had waited for this for a long time and his fantasies were nothing compared to the real deal. But it still wasn't enough because he needed to touch Jongin too so he pulled him up from his hair to kiss him heatedly on the mouth.

He ran his hands down Jongin's back to his shirt's hem and grabbed it to pull it quickly over his head. Too much clothes and too little skin showing to Sehun's taste. He didn't have time to admire Jongin's well toned body as the other lip locked him again when his shirt was off and gone, so Sehun just settled on running his fingers over his abs. Jongin worked out more than Sehun and the latter could definitely feel it and it was glorious. Jongin was so hot, Sehun was surprised he hadn't seen more people hit on him along the years. Maybe it was clear for everyone else that they had feelings for each other and that's why no one approached him?

Sehun didn't get far with his thinking as he was pulled back to the real word by the sweetest sensation he had ever felt. Or at least that's what he thought when Jongin pressed his hips down roughly against Sehun's and Jongin's hard on rubbed against Sehun's through their pants. He was happy to realise Jongin was just as much affected as he was.

"Are you... Do you want to do this?" Jongin asked him hesitantly and Sehun rolled his eyes at him.

“We’ve known each other for years, so I’m pretty sure you won’t just do me and then dump me,” Sehun laughed. Jongin stared at him in the eyes with an unreadable expression on his face before leaning down to press a tender kiss on Sehun’s lips.

“Okay,” he then breathed and something in his eyes shifted completely and Sehun couldn’t say it didn’t turn him on a little. It was like the sweet boy he knew was gone, replaced with a hot, confident guy and Sehun physically shivered out of excitement.

The next time Jongin captured his lips, the tenderness was all gone. He didn’t waste any time, just immediately licked into Sehun’s mouth making the other mewl. If Sehun didn’t know any better he would think that Jongin was very experienced with kissing because it felt like he was in heaven. His pants were getting too tight and too uncomfortable so he put his hands down to fumble with the button. He wanted get off of them fast and he wanted Jongin to get rid of his own too so he gave his thigh a slap.

“Take off your pants,” Sehun panted and Jongin lifted off of him and stepped out of his pants with incredible speed and Sehun was staring at him with his mouth open. He didn’t have much time to gape because Jongin was grabbing his pants to swiftly pull them down and off. “Someone’s eager,” he laughed and Jongin scoffed.

“Says the one who wanted to get rid of the clothes,” Jongin teased back and Sehun blushed a little, pulling Jongin back down on top of him. They were both only in their boxers and there was so much skin touching skin and it felt so hot, but somehow not enough. Sehun wanted more. He needed more. Luckily it seemed like Jongin could read minds because he felt hands slip past the waistband of his boxers to knead his bottom. Sehun hummed appreciatively against Jongin’s mouth and the latter brushed his finger over his puckered hole and Sehun gasped really loudly, clinging onto Jongin’s shoulders eyes begging for more.

Jongin pulled Sehun’s boxers off without him even noticing it before Jongin pressed down again and his cock brushed against Jongin’s stomach making him moan.

Before he could even say anything Jongin was up on his feet and walking away and Sehun was about to go off on him for walking away until Jongin stopped to rummage through his own suitcase. He let out a little a-ha! when he found what he was looking for and tossed it to Sehun who barely even caught it. When he figured it was a bottle of lube, Jongin popped the cap open and told Sehun to squeeze it, holding his hand under it and Sehun did. After that the bottle was taken out of his hand and tossed aside and Sehun was lying on the bed on his back again, feeling Jongin spreading his ass cheeks.

When Jongin slipped the first finger in, all Sehun could feel was the cold lube since he wasn’t exactly untouched there. He’d had his own fingers up his ass since he first time had a wet dream about Jongin so he was very familiar with the feeling. Jongin seemed to notice that, giving him a sly smirk before pushing another finger in and started to pump them with a slow rhythm and Sehun inhaled sharply. This felt way better than when he was doing it with his own fingers but he still needed Jongin to go faster because he had been waiting for this for so long so he pressed his ass down on Jongin’s fingers and the latter seemed to take the hint.

He sped up the rhythm and started scissoring with his fingers and Sehun was keening and his back arched a little off the mattress when Jongin’s fingers pressed against his sweet spot. He wanted nothing more than for Jongin to take him right now right there but he knew without being well prepared it would hurt like hell.

Which lead to him realising the fact that he was very much naked and Jongin was very much not, and it was completely unfair. He scrambled up on his knees, Jongin’s fingers slipping out of him, and grabbed the waistband of Jongin’s boxers and tugged them all the way down his legs until he could throw them over his shoulder. When he glanced back down, he felt his mouth watering at the sight of Jongin’s cock being curved up against his belly, and before he could control himself he already had his lips wrapped around the head.

He took himself and definitely Jongin by surprise, and the other was spluttering and fumbling with his hands while he fell backwards on the bed, Sehun following suit while taking more of him into his mouth. Jongin sounded like he was choking, calling out Sehun’s name as he grabbed a hold of Sehun’s hair, and the latter felt proud to be able to make the other boy a stuttering mess. He didn’t have much time to play around with the other’s cock before Jongin pushed him off by his shoulders.

“If you continue to do that, I won’t be able to last,” Jongin panted and Sehun felt his cheek get pink and so did Jongin’s and he looked adorable. Sehun climbed to sit on his lap and kissed him sweetly on the lips and Jongin sighed contently.

“Well get in me then,” he whispered and Jongin, being unable to hold himself back anymore, basically threw Sehun back on his back and poured some lube on his fingers to slick his own member up. He hooked Sehun’s legs on both side of his hips and leaned down to press his lips on Sehun’s collarbones as he aligned the head of his cock against Sehun’s entrance. Sehun waited quietly until Jongin gently started to push in, and he gasped, not really knowing if the sensation was good or bad but he definitely was feeling something.

It felt like it took forever for Jongin to bottom out, and it burned a bit but not nearly as much as Sehun thought it would. They stayed like that for a while, Jongin inside of Sehun, leaving kisses over his collarbones and Sehun having his arms wrapped around Jongin’s shoulders. It didn’t feel uncomfortable so Sehun tentatively lifted his lips and they both moaned in unison. Jongin’s pressed right on his prostate and it felt better than anything had ever felt before.

Jongin didn’t need a command to move, figuring out from Sehun’s blessed out reaction that it didn’t exactly feel bad for him, and soon he was thrusting in and out of him with a fast pace. The room was quickly filled with sounds of skin occasionally slapping against skin (but Jongin tried to avoid that the best he could since it sounded embarrassing for them both) and moans and gasps. Sehun was being unexpectedly vocal for someone who was usually so timid and collected. Now he was anything but.

Jongin grabbed a pillow and put it under Sehun’s lower back to thrust in from a better angle, and Sehun let out the loudest moan so far because Jongin was able to push in so much deeper now and he was hitting his spot every time. It was all too much for him and this was a first time for them both so they knew they wouldn’t last for long. Jongin felt his release coming closer so he bent down to suck on Sehun’s nipple because he now knew they were his sensitive spot, and before he could even touch the other’s neglected member Sehun was coming all over his own stomach with a choked off moan, body spasming and his muscles tightening around Jongin’s cock.

That was all it took for Jongin to release his load in Sehun while he let out a moan muffled by Sehun’s skin since he still had his lips on the other. They both tried to catch their breaths and Jongin just wanted to sleep. He pulled out of Sehun, making them both wince due to oversensitivity, and slumped down next to his best friend. Or were they boyfriends now? He would ask but he was too tired to even clean them up and the same seemed to go for Sehun who hastily grabbed to closest shirt next to him and wiped his stomach clean before curling up against Jongin’s side.

Jongin could only smile at the happy sigh that escaped Sehun’s lips as he wrapped his arms around the other.

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They were all waiting at the airport, looking exhausted because it took many hours to get there and they all had heavy luggage. Many of them had bought way too many souveniers and were regretting it now that their suitcases seemed to weigh half as much as they did when they first got there. Even Sehun was groaning in pain with the others but his reason was completely different.

Jongin was walking beside him with a radiating smile on his face and Sehun kicked his shin.

“It’s your fault I’m hurt, you fucker. Take responsibility,” he groaned and Jongin just laughed, pulling him to a one armed hug.

“I see you two made up,” Chanyeol said beside them and Jongin beamed at him too.

“Yeah,” he said happily. “Very thoroughly.”

Sehun blushed deep red and punched Jongin on the chest and Chanyeol walked away mumbling something about too much information.

“Did you really have to say that?” Sehun whined.

“Had to make sure he knows you are mine.”

“He’s with Baekhyun, I already told you,” Sehun whispered harshly, but he still had a silly smile on his face.

“I don’t care. Everyone needs to know you are mine,” Jongin mumbled and leaned in to give him a kiss on the forehead. Sehun hummed happily at that and tilted his head upwards and pursed his lips signaling for Jongin to give him a kiss on there too, which the latter did with a laugh. Sehun couldn’t believe he was lucky enough to get him to love him back. He wrapped his free arm around Jongin’s neck to pull him in even deeper.

“I love you,” he mumbled against the other’s lips and Jongin seemed to try to say the same back but Sehun was pressing their mouths against too hard for Jongin to be able to let out anything coherent. They stood there for a while, just leaning on each other and enjoying the moment and Sehun didn’t think he had ever been this happy in his life. He planted a final kiss on the other’s mouth before intertwining their fingers and Jongin just smiled at him goofily and Sehun couldn’t really keep a smile off of his own face either.

Jongin was all he ever wanted and by some unbelievable luck, he actually had got him.

“You two are disgusting.”

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