I haven't seen this diary in forever. So much has changed for me in my life in these past whatever amount of time that has passed, I can't even begin to describe everything. In the six months that I haven't written in here, I've turned 19, had a roller coaster ride with Leah and Sarah, met and lost people that I care about, and am beginning to ( Read more... )

so things aren't always what they seem. Lauren and I aren't friends anymore ... go figgure .... I freaked her out and she doesn't ever want to see me again. It's ok, I mean ... yeah ... it hurts to have people walk out on you. To say that your friendship "isn't worth explaining" and that they don't want to be friends anymore. I know I'll be ( Read more... )

Lately things have been moving in a direction unknown to me. Lately I did my laundrty and saw my sisters and that was fun. I went home to dig some holes for $$$ and then did four loads of laundry and that was about it. It was good to see my sisters again, but Natalie is still really realyl sick. It is aad. On a more positive note, I saw Mariah ( Read more... )

I'm liking other music .... it's nice .... to change things in my life .... to have different views and dance and be happy. I was pretending to dance with her, and I was happy to see her when i opened my eyes and she was there. *smiles .... I love my friends, sitting talking and being together. It's happy for me, I get chills from my happiness, ( Read more... )

Actually, if i could take some things back, I know that i probably would. And if i could say things to people that i should say, I really would. Thank you for trying to understand Amber, thank you for letting me back in your life, for however it works out, thanx. *smiles ...

I miss my friend

i'm looking for the things that make me happy, i see them in the glass, behind the mirrors that separate me from them ... i'm not sure how to get behind the glass, to get through .... but I'm a smart guy, i have ways of figguring stuff out when i'm not even trying .... *smiles ... i can't please people, I can't try to do something and then do it ( Read more... )

the time it came, and we danced, and we laughed, and it was good .... we burned 77 ER songs onto the CD ... we played them in the parking lot, we got some looks from some hot chicks ... i felt good ... didn't hear from Dylan ... did hear from Lauren ... it's up to her ... she's not really in that place right now ... i guess i was just hoping ( Read more... )

it's a good song, don't knock it ... my mom offered me some sees candy and i turned it down ... i've been doing that a lot ... it's scary .... *smiles ... i wrote my speech, you probably won't be the first to hear it but i wish you were *smiles ..... so i'll take a breath, kiss the sky, toll the bell .... it's a brand new year people .... *smiles ( Read more... )

I got to drink milk today in Art, Brian had a 1/2 gallon, and he wasn't drinking it ... i asked for some, he said finish it ... and so i did! it was cold! I liked it! .... *smiles .... It's hard to shop for people .... I can't do it ... she won't accept it ... sorry .... gonna go get paid today ... asked this one chick out (almost) .... tell u ( Read more... )