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[milleniumkeeper]

(((Closed to Pele and Zigfried. No I'm not mad at him. It's something else...)))

I just got off the phone with Rishid. I told him about the conversation Dartz and I had about going to Pele's Fortress. He's worried about me- of course- but he says he is sure I will stay safe with my friends- you guys!- being there with me. I agree.

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[dartzdarkone]

I'm sorry to hear that you are isolating yourself from your best friend like this. Maybe some time away will help you clear your head some. I wish you the best of luck in finding your answer. *places a reassuring hand on Malik's shoulder*

[milleniumkeeper]

*looks at the ground* Yeah... I know I need to stay away from Zigfried, and it hurts, but what hurts more is the fact I've been having all these thoughts about him.

It makes me feel like I'm betraying him somehow becuase we have already talked about love once, when he admitted he had felt towards me for a short time. We agreed we'd be nothing more than friends. Now I feel like I'm going back on that agreement...

[dartzdarkone]

Perhaps you need to tell him, like he has told you. *looks on kindly* This way, you can have some closure of this matter before it chews you up completely, destroying your friendship into rubble.

[milleniumkeeper]

*looks up in shock* WHAT?! No! You don't understand Dartz! I can't tell him something like this! These feelings, and thoughts, and dreams...

I'm sorry. I lied in this above entry Dartz. I have thought beyond soft touching and kisses. I've had dreams were we... Oh God...

*tears form in his eyes* How am I supposed to tell Zigfried something like that?! *eyes widen in fear* And what about Mariku?! He'll have to know soon- I can't lie to him- he'll think I don't love him anymore, and that I'm cheating on him or something! He'll have a fit! *panics*

[fallenangeldoma]

Well, maybe you're looking at it the wrong way. Maybe it's not that you're romantically interested in Zigfried, but rather exploring the possibilities of 'what if,' like an alternate universe thing. I think we all feel those. I sure did. Before I met Seto, there was one other person I fantasized about all the time. I felt safe and secure with him, and I knew that we'd get along well and he'd never hurt me. Maybe that is what you're going through. It's not that you want Zigfried, but you are open to the idea of what being with Zigfried would entail. You like the potential, but it doesn't mean you'll act on it.

[ringedmenace]

*feral smile* Ah... I presume Marik is not dealing well with being locked out.
*narrows eyes* In order to preemptively dissolve any possibility of him taking the entire subject the wrong way, you had best tell him.
He's in YOUR head after all. Ask him to distract you. *rolls eyes* That should appease his ego and confirm what you say, if you ARE telling the truth. Personally, I don't beleive you, because you have the self control of a sheep's colon from my experiences, but I don't have to beelive you, because it is not my problem what you want to fuck.

Holding back Marik does nto seem to be your strong suit. You'd best appease him while you still can.

*grumbles to himself because he can't beleive he just gave relational advice*

[milleniumkeeper]

Well it's "better late then never" for you isn't? Always have to get in the last word? *rolls eyes* You're disgusting.

Jeez, Bakura, the ordeal is over already so shut up. Zigfried and I have talked it over. And while I didn't mention it to any of you, I did tell Mariku about it as well. *sighs but then his eyes widen* He took it suprising well, actually. Hmmm...

*glares at Bakura* I don't need your advice on relationships. Why should I take that kind of advise from you, when you can't ever admit your love to your own hikari? *smirks*

[ringedmenace]

He's NOT my hikari. I am utterly revolted by that word on the best of days, along with all the connotations YOU bring it, and you are obviously doing nothing to aid my mood. As for my former host, he isn't talking to me because a certain person decided the two of us would stay here watching your anger's for-all-intents-dead body, and I didnt' pay him enough attention on his precious birthday, so he's probably off sobbing into his pastries about how lonely he is. *bland smile* Though I don't suppose you noticed. I'm surprised you even bothered to give him letters in england. He obviously doesn't matter to you now that you've found your deep love of fumbling around with a fragment of yourself.

I see through what you're doing. I will not be your tool to break off things with my host. I'm astounded I didn't see it sooner... You jsut can't stop flaunting yourself around, now can you? My host despises me, it's plain enough now that the one he used the excuse to see in this gods-forsaken spit of land was you--Setesh knows what he sees in a