To be quite brief (not really), it is exceedingly normal for people to suppress their inner-most feelings, insecurities, memories, fetishes, desires, etc...as matter of fact it jumps right over normal to being downright ubiquitous. Everyone hides aspects of their psyche from the outside world, and if they tell you otherwise they are downright liars (even if they honestly think they withold nothing from their peers, its still a lie because a person's subconscious is filled with desires that the conscious mind doesn't even acknowledge).
I for instance have enough of these to fill up a book of Tolstoy-esque proportions, and while you might not be able to think of more than one at present, I'm positive that you have many more, which will probably unearth themselves sometime in the next 30 years or so.
i guess i'm not really talking about unconscious stuff, because if i don't recognize a given aspect of myself, there's no way i can tell someone else anyway. we all have those, i know that.
i'm talking about events, feelings, things that you remember even if you don't think about them often or suppress them for the most part. i can only think of one thing that i was so embarrassed about that i never told anyone, but when i thought about it today, i realized how stupid it was. BUT - i've still never told anyone. which i find strange.
i don't know, i guess i just think the number of things that i think about but don't tell people is rather small, but that might be a naive thought. maybe i'm a lot more fucked up than i think i am and i just don't realize it. who knows?
i wouldn't say it's all that deep, it's just something i was wondering about while i was washing my face. all of my ideas have their root in my bathroom. for instance. while i was brushing my teeth this morning, i decided it would be a good idea to listen to the entire L'Arc discography while doing math homework. almost 5 hours later, i'm almost done with Heart (i absolutely did NOT listen to Dune twice...), but i still haven't started 7.3. not one of my better ideas. well, not one of my more productive ideas. otherwise, i'm enjoying myself.
oh, time for my Promised Land dance. i really do have a dance for everything.
Ahhh, goddamnit, I can't find the fic I was reading this morning, but it was about Sirius using charms to make Remus sleep with him, and then he'd obliviate Remus after it happened. So, he spends his whole life doing this, and Remus just thinks he's having dreams about sleeping with Sirius. And Sirius dies without Remus ever knowing the truth. Anyway, SAD shit, man. I cried. But for some more good S/R, I say this place has some good recs:
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I for instance have enough of these to fill up a book of Tolstoy-esque proportions, and while you might not be able to think of more than one at present, I'm positive that you have many more, which will probably unearth themselves sometime in the next 30 years or so.
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i'm talking about events, feelings, things that you remember even if you don't think about them often or suppress them for the most part. i can only think of one thing that i was so embarrassed about that i never told anyone, but when i thought about it today, i realized how stupid it was. BUT - i've still never told anyone. which i find strange.
i don't know, i guess i just think the number of things that i think about but don't tell people is rather small, but that might be a naive thought. maybe i'm a lot more fucked up than i think i am and i just don't realize it. who knows?
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Mmm. hmmm.
And, really, I'd answer your uber-question of deepness, but I'm too lazy and ... the fic *_* *scurries back to the Sirius/Remus angstathon*
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i wouldn't say it's all that deep, it's just something i was wondering about while i was washing my face. all of my ideas have their root in my bathroom. for instance. while i was brushing my teeth this morning, i decided it would be a good idea to listen to the entire L'Arc discography while doing math homework. almost 5 hours later, i'm almost done with Heart (i absolutely did NOT listen to Dune twice...), but i still haven't started 7.3. not one of my better ideas. well, not one of my more productive ideas. otherwise, i'm enjoying myself.
oh, time for my Promised Land dance. i really do have a dance for everything.
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http://www.pacifier.com/~winnett/Random/Fan%20Fic%20Recs.htm
But oh man, I haven't read a happy ending yet. *shakes fist* GIVE ME A HAPPY ENDING, BITCHES!!!
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